I am a bastard child. My parents were getting married when my mom was 8 months pregnant. My dad died a few years ago. I have been extremly depressed for years. I quit school. I dont go outside anymore because of my anxiety. Everyone hates me lately. I feel alone. I feel like God purposly set me to hell. Like in the womb of my mother being created out of pure hatred. I am left handed so I think thats a sign of my hell destination. I USED to be christian until the spirit convicted me then left me behind. It let me believe that it was evil. Now if he didnt want me to go to hell he wuld of not let me beleive that it was the devils spirit dwelling love in me. He hated me from the begining, like esau. People who say God is love thats bs. he hates more people than you think. He expects us to be perfect, pshhh. yeah right. its 2007. look around you. cant you see the world you let the devil corrupt is being destroyed. i know your plans to destroy my dreams. you hated me. i hate you god.
2007-10-07 03:22:54 · 33 answers · asked by Anonymous in Society & Culture ➔ Religion & Spirituality
no, my friend, you're not. i don't believe in depression nor counseling either. maybe it's just a phase, i dunno. i'm kinda the same - i quit my perfect job, turned off my phones and paid a neighbor to buy food for me. but i'm not unhappy at all - i'll move on some day. something great will happen to you soon and you'll see the world as it truly is: bright.
2007-10-07 03:40:40 · answer #1 · answered by Mirko 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Honey, I really think you need to speak with a professional. It is never too late to go back to school or get your G.E.D..
I realize that you are having a very bad time right now and that you have not had an easy life. But I am sure that you are not a mistake. I do not think the church you were at was beneficial to you. Try reading other religious and inspirational texts. You could also try different churches, such as the Unitarian Universalist or United Methodist church (which are very accepting). Look for one with a teen group so that you can meet new people. There should also be counselors available there. If you decide that church or religion is not right for you, then you can move on. But I do not want you to give up on faith because you feel that God has slighted you. There is nothing wrong with atheism (I'm an atheist), but someone should not become an atheist just because they are depressed or feel God has let them down.
What are your interests? Do you like to read, skateboard, listen to music? Go to a place where you will find others with similar interests.
Finally, decide what you want to do with your life. You can be anything you want to be. Decide how you want to change the world.
You can e-mail me if you want to talk further.
2007-10-07 03:42:00 · answer #2 · answered by Pangloss (Ancora Imparo) AFA 7 · 2⤊ 0⤋
What you think or feel shows that you have 'No Confidence' in you as a Person!
Stop blaming your parents or even your God!
You need a lot of Soul-Searching to do.
Take a break and get a hold of yourself! You are a loser when you blame others for your downfall. Stop pointing the fingure and do something concrete about your life before it is too late!
You can start off by looking back over the years and identifying where you went wrong. Learn from it and move foward. This will help a lot in reaching for whatever there is..in front of you.
Get your acts together and 'Strive for the very Best in Life'. This Life has a lot to offer you but you are giving in already!
Good Luck and God Bless!
2007-10-07 04:10:48 · answer #3 · answered by redzonecash 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
You are not a mistake... Forget about all religions, because religion separates people and makes them stupid. Marriage is a thing of the government, don't let it make you sick. I'm sorry you can't physically be with your dad right now, but I personally promise you, you will be with him in Heaven. Most millionaires didn't finish high school. I love you and I never saw you, because I know your from God. God did purposely send you down here... How would you get full knowledge if He didn't, you can't learn what hurt is in Heaven. Don't let biology(dirt & mud) overpower your indistructible spirit, some people use both hands, so where's their destination. You are not evil, an evil person loves sin. Bad people are worst these days, because the way of the Earth is at it's end. God just wants you to try and be nice to these hateful people and this way you will be perfect. This way will cause you to be a brighter spirit in Heaven. I myself hated my parents when I was little, but now I'm grown and have power and knowledge, hang in there kiddow, I'm taking my own time to write this for you, because I love you.
2007-10-07 04:03:05 · answer #4 · answered by spir_i_tual 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Dear mm,
You may think that your a bastard child, but your not. You are not a mistake. So your parents got married while she was pregnant, what does that mean? At least they got married for you. I'm sorry that your dad died, he didn't mean to. If your depressed, please get help. I've been their, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to find it. If you feel that everyone hates you right now, then change the way you are, the way you think, and the things that you do. It has to come from you. God never purposely set you to hell, you did. You need to quite blaming others, most of all God. If Christianity didn't work for you, find a different religion, just don't get into a cult of some sort. Why do you think God hates us? Without God you wouldn't be here now. God doesn't expect you to be perfect, other people do. No one can do it, so don't try. Be yourself, ask yourself, who am I. Then listen very close, and you'll get the answer. If you have good dreams for yourself then live them out. God will be there to help you, you just have to let him. Close your eyes, and let your heart guild you. Find yourself, then you can find happiness.
2007-10-07 03:46:59 · answer #5 · answered by Debbie K 1 · 1⤊ 0⤋
God does not hate you he loves you very much and no you were not a mistake,the devil want s you to think that matter of fact hes the one that wants to destroy you, and the spirit never left you he said he will never leave you or forsake you and he is love ,from the time you were concieved you were fearfully and wonderfully made,but let me tell you this if your parents were talking about you being a mistake and really were not ready for you and other negative things,while you are in the womb it got in your spirit,and that could be the reason why you feel the way you do,and God will heal you from that,just give him another try and ask him to forgive you for the anger you are feeling toward him and ask him to show you his Love and he will,hes graceful and merciful and he Loves you I am sending you a Big Hug and I will keep you in my prayers Be blessed Lisa
2007-10-09 06:31:12 · answer #6 · answered by God Child 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I would say you sound very depressed and perhaps need to speak to someone about this
you are not a mistake
I have 3 of those bastard children myself and I promise you that not one of them is a mistake
they were born out of love and are amazing children
if you believe in God and believe God is all powerful etc and has the ability to create ... dont you think he knows what he is doing when he gives life ?
no one is perfect and no one should try to live up to that either ... it only leads to self hate and dissapointment
2007-10-07 03:36:38 · answer #7 · answered by ☮ Pangel ☮ 7 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Man-o-man, my heart just aches when I read stuff like that. You are in torment, and it isn't from God. It was not the Holy Spirit convicting you but a satanic spirit condemning you, and the thing about satanic spirits is that they lie. They also manipulate truth, and make a lie out of it.
God doesn't hate you. He loves you, and his heart hurts to see you in such pain. God is the one who has directed you to ask these questions, so that you will find people who will direct you to where you need to go.
What you need is to find people who will accept you for who you are. Where that is going to be is in church, but not every church. Some will push you down further than you already are. If you are not welcomed with opened arms as soon as you walk in the door, turn around and run. You may have to go to 10 different churches before you find the right one.
If you were here in Eureka CA, I'd know where to send you, but the chances of that are slim, so you are going to have to find it on your own.
You see, there is nothing wrong with you except that which is passed down from Adam to all of us, and Jesus died for that. It's not you. It's them. And, you don't hate God. You hate the distorted image of God that the devil has placed in your head.
2007-10-09 04:52:44 · answer #8 · answered by Caveman 5 · 3⤊ 0⤋
God never leaves or forsakes us. We are the one that strays away. He waits patiently for the prodigal son to return. Turn around and seek him and he will run to you to greet you. He knew you before you were ever born and he chose you knowing all the mistakes you would make in life. No you are not a mistake God made you exactly the way he wanted.
2007-10-09 06:37:19 · answer #9 · answered by imezru2 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
oh, man, it sounds like you are going through a really rough time. *hug*
you're not a 'mistake'. no one is. God made you on purpose because He loves you. and nothing you can do will make him stop loving you.
note: being left handed doesn't mean that God hates you. it just means that you use your left hand more than your right hand.
also, it isn't God's fault that you quit school. it was (presumably) your choice.
would you please go see a good counselor or psychiatrist. it sounds like that would help with some of your problems.
God bless you.
2007-10-07 03:36:05 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 3⤊ 0⤋
You are believing the devils lies.
" He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar , and the father of it." John 8:44
This is what God says about YOU....
"For I know the thought that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and NOT of evil, to give you an expected end. (hope in the end) Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I WILL hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and FIND me, when ye shall search for me with ALL YOUR HEART." Jer. 29:11-13
God cannot lie. Titus 1:2
Now, who are you going to believe? The One who created you? or the one who was thrown out of heaven and wants to destroy you?
God knew you before you were born. Jer.1:5
If that is true, then you were NOT a mistake.
You are in a lot of pain...the devil wants to keep you that way!
I am going to pray that God will give you life...and a new heart, that you will see His love for you and that He will place a wall of protection around you. (1Jn.5:16, Eze.36:26)
God bless you my friend.
† On-call Prayer Warrior †
2007-10-09 00:16:17 · answer #11 · answered by bethy4jesus 5 · 3⤊ 0⤋