What the hell is wrong with me?

Question

I feel like I have no motivation to do anything. I just graduated for a descent college. The last year I went to college I was finishing up my major had a huge course load. I was doing martial arts an hour every day and working out another hour everyday. I didn't sleep late on weekends. I came home for the summer and stuff started falling apart. Have you ever seen the movie office space? I wasn't working out as much, due to the fact I have to help with my family's business, I wasn't getting home from work till like midnight and not going to sleep till four AM and sometimes not going to sleep. Just recently the summer has wound down (beginning of september). I feel tired, groggy, I can't concentrate, I can't think, I don't feel like working out. I don't know whether it has to do with the fact that my sleep and life patern was screwed up over the summer or the fact that I have no idea what I want to do with my life is making me depressed.

But I'm not lazy. I work five days a week, probably thirty five hours a week, and five days a week I do martial arts for around one to two hours, which is an hour drive each way. I also run around five miles three days a week.

Nah I can't get help. I want to be a cop or something, I can't have mental problems on my record.

I think thats what it is. I think I don't realize how difficult the summer is for me. I probably worked fifty hours a week from June to the beginning of September, combined with screwed up sleep paterns I think it screwed me up. I remember having the same problems every summer but I feel better when I get back to school and get back into an easier lifestyle. This past school year was my hardest ever and I think combined with the fact I was over training, not training right and not getting proper nutrition I'm thinking my body is exhuasted.

My vacation is already scheduled and planned.

Answer 1

You sound stressed and depressed and that the cause, in part, is situational. The sleep deprivation and screwed up sleep cycle certainly can be a contributor. You can, of course, discuss these symptoms with a doctor who might give you medication and suggest lifestyle changes. Or recognizing what is going on, you can (although this is a challenge once you've hit a low point) you can attempt to make modifications on your own and be patient with yourself about your affect. You've kind of answered yourself about what you need to get back on track: aerobic-type exercise (running, biking, hiking, martial arts--but not obsessively or competively), breathing and relaxation exercises (in the evening), "sleep hygiene" (that is training yourself to go to sleep and to wake up at a certain time to fix your circadian rhythm). Also, you have to force yourself to find new interests so you can overcome the apathy that is gripping you.

Best to you.

Answer 2

The apathy you're describing sounds a bit like what I've experienced with chemical/clinical depression. The good news is that depression is actually a physical disease (like diabetes or whatever), so it can be cured or at least gotten under control, but because the side effects of the disease are mental, nobody wants to do anything about it because they're embarrassed.

Would you be comfortable talking to a counselor or therapist? I know they get a bad rap, but they're trained professionals...it's their JOB to fix people like us. They can help you work through issues or maybe find some medication that would help.

I've been there before. I was diagnosed my senior year, right before I graduated from an amazing college, and then it all seemed to fall apart and my life felt horrible. Not to be cliche, but I know what you're going through.

Please get help. I know there's this stigma attached to depression, but it's a very real thing. Why life a half-life when you could live a whole one?

Answer 3

You need a vacation. Have an adventure doing something you enjoy. It doesn't have to be expensive. This is a great time of year for camping, hiking, riding a motorcycle. Enjoy being young. Tell your employer/family that you are taking two weeks off and do it. I think you will feel much better about your life when you return.

Good luck and God Bless!

P.S. Thanks for the added note that you are taking that vacation. You are going to be just fine. Have a happy life.

Answer 4

all these things you did to occupy yourself kept you from feeling what you are feeling. and that feeling every human feels, and it is the end of yourself. when you get to the end of yourself, its almost as the colors of life just face into a gray color. this is a void, that is in every human being.

When you were created by God, he put in this void, and that void can only be filled by a relationship with his son Jesus Christ. oh, I know people here will give me a thumbs down on my answer, but, honestly, I am telling you the truth. I am much older than you, and have found life as you feel it. the only way to have any joy is through what I suggested.

Answer 5

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Answer 6

it is b/c your body is to over loaded with all the things you are doing and your body is having a hard time with it and can not handle it you need to cut down try to go to sleep earlier like 10:00 p.m. and not work so hard. and don't keep over loading yourself with the work and the stress

Answer 7

You r just stressed...relax into your higher self, your true nature and all will pass. As Sun Tzu, an ancient Chines strategist said "Know yourself and know your enemy and even in the thousand battles you won't lose". Know yourself man.