h, I feel ashamed to admit I hate myself, I'm lonely and I want to die, bc I'm a Christian (and that is all that's keeping me here. It's the ONLY reason I've got). And bc everyone thinks I'm smart and that I have it all together. I feel like even if I look for help, even the shrinks won't give a shiht. I wouldn't know where to look anyway. I have no money for help either. I sleep like 18 hours every day. I don't have any dreams. I can't do any work. I have a speech tomorrow and I haven't even read what it's about. I'm gonna flunk college. Good. Then I won't have to go anymore. Nobody would care if i left but my mom.
I've never felt like this before. I've always been normal, never emo. Why doesn't God just let me go home? Why am I writing this here.
2007-10-03 13:00:05 · 13 answers · asked by Mrs. Eric Cartman 6 in Health ➔ Mental Health
I guess you guys are right. I don't have a right to feel bad about having no one, especially when other people have problems.
2007-10-03 13:08:40 · update #1
Well I think that the reason you are depressed is because you do not have a relatioship with your self. It's hard to develp a relationship with your self when you don't even like your self. I have been through this episodes of depression and anxiety they are rooted in my dysfucntional troubbled past. I spent a lot of years not knowing who I was, much less liking me and accepting who I was. I was this perenial people pleaser, codependant is the actual psycological diagnosis. Its good that you are feeling find out what is causing this depression. What has gotten me through life is a twelve step program for codependancy but that's just me realating and owing my own reality interacting with peers with the same affliction did wonders for me. I have now fianaly after so many years of misery a relationship with my self. It's not a good one yet but the more I improve it the more my other relation ships improve. Its kinda of an imediacy thing if you are good to your self you are very likely to be good to others. If you are not good to your self its is very likely that others are not good to you.
2007-10-03 17:39:51 · answer #1 · answered by stalin 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You are going through a rough time right now. Most everyone does at one time or other in their lives. Don't be too hard on yourself. Re-evaluate what you want to do with your life. Take a little time to figure that out and then start working towards that goal. And realize too that there are many, many others that have it worse in life. Try to be thankful for what you do have. If the sadness gets deeper and you begin sinking further into depressed thoughts, think about seeing a doctor or a therapist.
2007-10-03 13:16:33 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I think you should analyze your problems and talk to your mom or someone you trust about them. Everyone feels this way when they have a lot problems, so it's not just you. If you talk about your feelings,how you want things to change and what you can do to change them or perhaps how someone could help you with your problems, you'll feel better. That depression or "emoness" that you have is because of adolescence, your self-esteem becomes really low and once you're an adult you gradually gain it back. Everything has a solution, except death. We all have a reason to live, even with imperfections.
2007-10-03 13:18:13 · answer #3 · answered by faretheewell 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Check out your on campus counseling services. It's free and confidential. I think after you talk to a counselor about what is bothering you, you might be able to put your situation in perspective and get to the root of what is bothering you. Some of your feelings are perfectly normal but wishing for death is not and you need to get some help for that one. Don't be embarrassed. Also, don't expect miracles. You might have to see more than one therapist because you need to find one you click with who can do you some good. Some therapists are screwed up themselves, so listen to your gut about what they say to you and don't hesitate to ask for a new one if you want to. That isn't uncommon and it's not a big deal to request someone else. good luck!
2007-10-03 13:13:56 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I dont know what your problem is .but god has a reason for you being here. when he gets ready for you then he will come and take you away. but i think you should try to go to college and hold a job down and not spend 18 hrs asleep . you need some help.maybe then you would have money to do what you want. Look around you and see what other people has problems with ..
2007-10-03 13:56:50 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
you are writing this here because you need help, girl. Don't worry. This isn't something to be that ashamed of. Sometimes people just come to a certain point in there lives in which they feel like they are at the end of their rope, like they simply can't go on. But please, don't let go of that rope. Be strong. Others have gotten through this, and so can you. You have come so far in life, and you still have so many opportunities ahead of you. you only live ONCE, you can't just kill yourself, regret it, then come back and live and be happy. Killing yourself will put you through more pain. Think of how much your mom would miss you!
listen to this song. it helps.
Hold On- Good Charlotte
good luck. you can get through this. i believe in you.
2007-10-03 13:13:12 · answer #6 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Many colleges offer free mental health services. Talk to your academic counselor or a Dean of Students to find out if your college has something like this. If not, then check to see if the town/city where you're at has a mental health clinic. They are usually free to those who can't afford it.
2007-10-03 13:09:46 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 2⤊ 0⤋
dont give up, I feel the same way, I always feel like I am being pushed to achive, and be above the best, but the truth is unnder all the glamour, and under all the good grades,I'm human and I feel....my suggestion would be to learn to live for yourself, to make yourself happy, to do whatever it is you have to do to keep a smile on your face..know your worthm you are worth every breath you take, but never ever feel like you dont want to take that next breath...we were all put here to make some type of difference....and I have found that in my darkest of times, I just need to talk to God, I am sinner,and I dont deny it, I have been baptised but I am not perfect, God is testing you, but he is also seeing you through, he will never put more on you than you can bare, just believe, and now is the time where you will see where your faith will lead you....but whatever you do dont give up, dont lose yourself, and dont lose your faith....God bless
2007-10-03 13:09:49 · answer #8 · answered by *FLIRTACIOUS* 3 · 1⤊ 1⤋
Aww. Im a christian too, There have been times that ive hysterically cried for stupid reasons. There are hotlines you can call, etc. But that's a little embarrising. You need a professional person's help.
2007-10-03 13:06:49 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
God wants to prove your faith and stregth he has beautiful plans for you dont let something ruine it! Keep Working hard smart girl! You have God besides you and like the bille says if God is with me, whos against me?
2007-10-03 13:04:30 · answer #10 · answered by Hospitality 3 · 1⤊ 1⤋