Am I the only one who knows this?

Question

My family thinks I'm wierd. I know I am, they wouldn't even think about going towards the length of depression though. No one cares about how I feel, no one can comprehend my feelings. even I can't. I try my best to vent my feelings of hate and angst and unwanted feelings in stories that I write, but it's just not good enough. My parents take away every freedom I could possibly have and they think I'm happy zip-a-dee-doo-dah-day!!!!! Everytime I get into a deep conversation with someone I cry. that;s why i never talk to my parents. how can i tell them I'm depressed with out them thinking i'm just being wierd? because i can bet u anything i have mental problems. i just don't know what, and why am i writing so much??? GOD WHAT"S WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? please someone help me!! from what i wrote just now, am i depressed or mentally ill? why can't i stop writing????? im gonna start crying. please help me.

im 14 years old

can anyone understand what i'm going through???????????????????????? but thanks for all the help

Answer 1

You sound like me... I am such a weird person, before I used to hate that fact but now I thrive on my peculiarities...

I was like you a not so long time ago. I used to write poems and stories to vent my hate and anger because if i kept it inside me I would hurt other people. I also was suicidal and developed Trichotillomania, which I still have.

Your parents do not understand that things are wrong, you really need to sit down with them, and ask them to listen to you and to not interrupt you until your finished talking, once you vent all your problems and emotions you can discuss what’s wrong in a slightly more clam manner, (just don’t start yelling, trust me)

My parents are divorced and I developed Depression from that. My mother had no Idea what was wrong and as she grew up in a broken home that was rarely affectionate she did not know how to help me or my brother who also developed social problems.
I got angry all the time and would fight and yell with her boyfriend once to the point of almost physical violence, then afterwards I would become highly depressed and try to kill my self or write detailed plans of how to do so. I was in a bad way.

I later started to see my school counsellor after developing Trichotillomania and with her help I started to talk to my dad. I've always been closer to him and so it was easier to tell him that i was upset with my life. I moved in with him soon after.

After fixing the problems I have been getting better, It has been 3 and a half years since i tried to kill myself last and I now go to university and study Psychology.

Talking to someone gave me strength that i needed to talk to my parents and get them to lax the rules and give me certain freedoms that I needed to give me a better quality of life. I am not perfect and never will be, but because I talked to my family and negotiated with them I was able to become a lot happier.

I hope that this helps you. I really do.

Cheers
-KM

Answer 2

Hey sweetie =]

Even though I have never fully experienced your kind of emotions I can comprehend because I have a friend who went through the same kind of thing.

I have a few suggestions which may help.

I think meditation might help you. I have no idea what you are depressed about, but sit in a position in which you feel comfortable. Close your eyes. Be aware of your senses. Concentrate on your breathing, don't change it just observe how you inhale and exhale. Be aware of the sounds around you. Now imagine a box, any shape/colour/size. Make sure it has a lid. Now take all your worried/bad feelings/unpleasant feelings, and turn them into tiny cubes. Put them in the box. Close the lid. You're worries aren't gone but they are put aside.

Your mind is a very powerful thing. All this depression is in your head. Now at 14 it is a very young age to be depressed, if you carried on imagine what you'd be like when you are 20. You must communicate with someone you trust. It will be hard but they have to know how you feel and they will listen. They aren't aware of your unhappiness, so they think that your okay.

If you can't speak to them, try writing a letter.

Also, try going for a walk, alone with nature. That helps.

Also, try and turn the situation around, see what you or others can benefit from it.

Hope that helped

Vicky x

Answer 3

I know the feeling. I was once alot like you, trying desperately to deal with emotions I had no control over. I cried all the time. I was angry all the time, and I never understood why or what over. It just seemed to be a big puddle I couldn't get out of. I had a lot of influencing factors in my life that drove me to it, It's hard to comment when I don't know what things you've been through etc.

It is hard to deal with, and I never had anyone to talk to. I wrote poetry constantly, and kept a very vivid journal. I'm not really sure what I should suggest, I snapped out of mine the hardest way possible. At 16 I lost a child, and I realised how fragile life really is. It has taken me years to get on the right track, and even now sometimes I slip back.

The best advice I have is to see your doctor. I know its probably a bit hard considering your age, but you really need to see someone - try the school counsellor. Don't let it get you like it got me.

Answer 4

hey you ! don't tell yourself your depressed, and don't let anyone else put that label on you either! You've got sooooo much potential and so much amazing qualities, and there is a great amount of people that care for you so much. Not every thought that runs through your brain is yours. You don't have to claim sadness or depression....when you think these horrible thoughts about somthing possibly being wrong with you just flip it.....tell yourself what you want to be instead....it helps....And hey girl I know what your going through....I've done this. I had God to pull me through it and he is so amazing! I don't know where your walk is with him or if you even know him but wow! He thinks so highly of you! I wish you could see what he sees. I'm praying for ya hon

Answer 5

One...how old are you? If you're still in high school, try talking with your school guidance counselor or nurse as they may be able to give you some advice. If you're out of school, then seek out counseling because it sounds like you really need it. good luck my friend!

Answer 6

U r suffering from depression......why not go to a shrink and let him/her tell you what exactly is wrong so u can treat it accordingly?

Try looking at positive side of all things.....everything has both sides to it.....it depends on which angle u wished to interpret it.

Wish you all the best!!!!

Answer 7

I am praying for you right now as I write this, because I have no words of wisdom. I don't know how you feel, but I will ask Someone who does.

Answer 8

If you feel you are suffering from depression , you should consult your doc. and take medicines.Better not delay it.

Answer 9

yeah, talk to your parents.
my kids talk to me all the time--it seems to help them--and they are weird people trust me.