how can i make my ex feel better?

Question

It's been couple of months, I broke up with my 3 years boyfriend (A) because I liked another guy (B) that we met together.

(A) and I had an open relationship, he never told me that he loves me but I was totally satisfied happy & proud with our relation and felt loved and cared for, everything was fine except that he was in the last period complaining a lot because he was bored in general, he was assuring me that he's not bored from me, just from the country we're living in & that if we go live somewhere else more civilized things would get better, but I was not ready to go live somewhere else.

All of the sudden i decide to break up and go for the new guy (B), which was a shock for (A). He tried many ways from fighting to being nice to being sad but I didn't want to go back. I wanted to stay best friends with him though. But since we started fighting each time we meet so I stopped contact with him for few weeks. Yesterday I contacted him again and we also had a fight...

I can't stop thinking about (A). I don't want to go back! But I can't live without him. I don't know if it's guilt or not, but I think it's not guilt.
I can't enjoy my new relation because I'm always thinking what (A) might be doing now and how sad is he. I am always in a bad mood and I won't blame (B) if he just wishes he never met met.
What can I do to make (A) feel better?
Should I break up with (B) and go back to (A)? I sometimes think that if (B) didn't exist I would never leave (A), but I don't know what attracts me more to (B) since (A) wasn't really doing anything wrong. Is it possible that it's a crush and it will go away?
I can't stand feeling that (A) is not happy, I've never cared about any ex boyfriends before, and I've had many since I'm 33. I feel silly to be that confused in this age, and I'm considered a strong girl.
I'm so sorry for the long details, but it's complicated and it's not getting better with time. I keep remembering things we used to do together.

Answer 1

Frist off, DON'T YOU DARE APPOLIGIZE FOR THE LONG DETAILS!!!! Thats perfect! ;) on ward with the advice!


You never owed up to WHY you left A for B. So lets do this, E-mail me the reasons WHY you left A for B so I have a better idea of what your dealing with. That aside your dealing with the fact that you accept more feelings for A, then you ever did for B, the reason being, you have a stronger BOND with A. And you prematurly ended the relationship for reasons your still going to need to e-mail me, for me to help you with. Just frist of realize this is pretty common in relationships were the purpose is lost, and someone else gives you one. Sort of like you and A had much love but never talked about family, kiddos and marriage, BUT B did and you got all hopful for it. Just I need more imformation, you've got a complex and unque situation....