need help with depression ???

Question

7 months ago i had an abortion
after that i just havent been myself
its supposta be born in october sometime
and i did have depression
i lived of paracetamols
because i thought they would take the pain away
i would take a tub of them to bed with me
i would wish at night that
i would go to sleep and never wake up
i felt like no one would notic if i didnt anyway
but my boyfriend helped me get over that a bit
but im really depressed i started to cut my arms
i havent tols any one
but it almoct gives me a sence of pride
ive never acomplished anything
and seeing blood made me feel like
i had done something right for a change
i dont know why
i get really bad mood swing and
i cry all the time
what can i do to help this i dont like it
and i want to change
i cant go to the doctors
and i cant talk to my family
and i cant get antidepression
so any other surggestion would be great
thank you everyone =] xx

i cant get proffesional help
or see a phyciastirst [[ if i spelt it right]]

im 15
and i cant go to a doctor

my boyfriend didnt force me into having the abortion
its just hard for me ok
im still goin out with him
and we ahve been for nearly 2 years ok

my parentsdont know i went for an
abortion
and they dont know im depressed
my boyfriend sort of knows
and you dont understand
i just cant go to the doctors or anything =[

im not religiou and i dont belive in GOD
he cant help you ok !!!

i DO have a low self asstime
and there arnt any family planning clinics
in our area

Answer 1

Diaries are good. Meditation can help, so can positive affirmations. All three are ways to choose what your mind thinks about. If you take control of your thoughts, and choose not to feel bad, believe it or not, you can drive depression and suicidal thoughts away.

You know how if you try you can convince yourself that you feel sick? It works the other way too, you can convince yourself you feel great.

MEDITATION FOR DUMMIES is a good book, THE POWER OF POSITIVE THINKING is another. Your local library should have both. If not email me, I'll suggest other ones that are good too.

You're not permanently damaged. With a little work you'll be fine.

Try this. Remember the cursed diary in HARRY POTTER AND THE CHAMBER OF SECRETS? Write a cursed diary. Think of a negative thought or bad memory you want to get rid of. Feel it like a dark sludge stuck in your head you want to get rid of.

Feel the sludge ooze out of your head, down your arm, and out your hand as you write about the memory onto a piece of paper. Write the memory or thought until you feel the sludge has poured out of your body into the paper. The paper holds that evil thought now.

Take the paper holding that thought and destroy it. Tear it up, burn it, scatter the ashes to the wind. That evil thought is now gone from your mind and your life. It may take a few times, but that thought will just lose all it's power.

Trust me, it works.

Do this every day, it'll relax you a lot. Lay down in a quiet room, close your eyes, and take slow deep breaths. make each inhale and exhale last as long as you can.

First say to yourself "I feel my toes relaxing." and they will. Then say "I feel my ankles relaxing" and they will. Go all the way to the top of your head until you reach the top of your head.

Imagine that as you exhale that red smoke it blowing out your mouth as you exhale, taking away all the stress with it. As it goes out of you, you'll feel your body getting lighter.

Just lay there, calmly breathing, blowing out the stress, for about 20 minutes.

There's an on line book I have linked below. When the author died, he wanted it and the rest of his works to be given away freely. It's called YOU CAN'T AFFORD THE LUXURY OF A NEGATIVE THOUGHT. If I thought it could be said any better, I'd try writing it myself.

I hope this all helps. You seem like a great kid, you're just having a hard time. But hard times always end. It can't rain all the time.

Answer 2

I have been suffering from post partum depression for the past one year when I gave birth to a baby boy. I couldn't stop thinking about how my husband loves him more than me and how things might be better if he wasn't born at all. Thus, I stayed away from him because I knew that I might do something I will regret for the rest of my life. Almost instantly I went to a therapist and convince them that I need help. Among other things, I've tried herbal supplements and other book to treat depression but nothing works like the Depression Free Method. So now I'm proud to say I'm one of the happiest mother in the world. My husband loves us both very much and I thank the Lord for the blessing he gave us. Depression Free Method?

Answer 3

First off why
"I cant go to the doctors
and i cant talk to my family
and i cant get antidepression"

I think that you can. I know right now you are feeling very hopeless and helpless right now, but it is important to remember that one's preception, and reality are two different things most of the time. The truth is that their is treatment and hope for you in your situation. A lot of women who have had abortions have had problems with depression. Your situation sounds very severe. The fact that you have been physically harming yourself, and having suicidal thoughts tells me that you have very severe clinical depression and you need to see a doctor preferably a psychiatrist TODAY! If you are do not have a doctor or psychiatrist, then go to the ER, public health department, call 911 whatever you need to do do it NOW! All of the above are legally obligated to help you. If you truly want this depression to end, and you CAN make it end! I promise! Then this is what you MUST do. After you get on some meds, then I suggest you get in a support group with women who have had the same feelings of depression following an abortion. I wish you the best of luck! Please for yourself, and your loved ones, pick up the phone now and call some help, I promise you will feel better!

Answer 4

I know you have said that you cannot go to your Doctor but you sound as if you really do need some medical help to set you up so that you can get back on your feet. Do you have a Family Planning Clinic nearby - the one near us is marvellous and they do not JUST deal with family planning they also deal with womens problems. I doubt that (due to budget restriction) they would be able to prescribe for you but they can tell you what options are open to you. Please don't cut yourself it is a sign of low self esteem not an achievement. The cuts will leave scarring that will stay with you even when you are back in control of your life. Good luck :)

Answer 5

You can and you have a responsibility to go to the doctor.
It's OK to have mental health problems; just check this board. You must do this for ALL people in your life, and there are a lot more of them then you think, now before worst things occur. I'm not a doc but if you don't get help worst things will occur.

Your young--your future is Bright--latter in life you will marry--you will have children. So many things you just can't know now.

Your in a lot of pain--you need to get help. You can't do this on your own.

God bless

Answer 6

I had an abortion in April. I wasn't very far a long but I did struggle with a deep depression for several months. For a long while I felt like a horrible person and I wanted to kill myself. Then I found God. He let me know in his own way that he loved me despite my mistakes and he gave me a reason to live. I can't make you choose the path that I have now dedicated my life to but I can let you know that there is a God that loves you, who sent his son to die so that you may truly live. I pray that you find the hope in him that I have found. God bless

Answer 7

Why can't you go to the doctors? Are you afraid they're going to tell someone something? You're a teen, aren't you? And you hid it from your family and your boyfriend talked you into getting the abortion, didn't he? What you do is go -talk to a doctor-. They are not going to throw you into a loony bin or tell your family. Confidentiality protects you from your family finding out. Tell your doctor you need to see a therapist and possibly medications, and they can help you find someone to help you. You can't live like that, despairing over a child you can never have. You -can- do all the things you said you can't. I think that deep down inside, what's holding you back, is the thought that you are a bad person and you deserve to be punished, so you're not going to find help. You do -not- deserve to be punished, and you -do- need help. Please find it.

Answer 8

Every person alive has had to manage depression as it is common to upper level brains. I explain in detail the causes and continuance of female cutting and you can search my answers for my best ideas. Mostly you need help in life with religion. I can't prove god but I can prove you have invisible grandmothers and they want to help you. Be still and ask simple questions to them.

Answer 9

I would speak to a professional therapist about your feelings, and do it soon. If you can't afford a professional, speak to someone wise who can give you advice. In the meantime, forgive the past, and make the best of your life and love. There are answers, if you work at getting better you will learn to be happy again.

Answer 10

Why can't you go to the Doctors....?? @ this point it is starting to sound like that is one of your last options..... Are you against trying Anti-Depressant Medication...?? If not then try & set an appt. w/ a Phsychiatrist