I have been cursed since birth. My biological mother was 11 yrs old when I was born and I was given up for adoption. I was raised in a family that was very intelligent but very abusive. I was raised in a all white town in Wi and being mixed it was impossible to make it, but I did. My life has been nothing but let downs and nothingless. The last 2 yrs I have lost my home, business, friends, family all due to the curse and severe depression. I can fight it with meds somedays but not now. I believe God has forsaken me at birth because there is so more to tell. I'm literally almost pennyless, jobless, and alone and suicidal.No one wants to help when I try to reach out. Being dead sounds so good some days but that is no the ultimate answer, so I hurt myself a lot and it the thoughts go away sometimes. I pray and ask God for help and I get nothing everytime.There is no answer except pain and suffering. there is no use for me in this life. I want to go away and be alone and succumb to it.
2007-10-01 19:04:17 · 18 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
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2007-10-01 19:15:05 · answer #1 · answered by Stinky Badger 4 · 2⤊ 1⤋
Wow.. you have had a extreamy difficult life.. I agree.. but it will not get any better if you dont try. If you give up it will just get worse. There are programs out there for people with depression and who have had major losses such as yourself. I am also from Wisconsin so I know there are many places you can go to for help. Please e-mail me if you want more information.
You need a good friend.. someone who you can talk to.
You seem like a extreamly inteligent person from the way you wrote your story, look at all you have been through and you are still here. You are here for a reason.. I beleave that everyone is here for a purpose.
I am sure there are many possitive things in your life, it is just hard to think about all of them because of all of the bad that has come your way. Make a list of all the good things and make a list of all the bad. Take the bad list and burn it.. Today is a NEW day.. starting today.. you are going to do something possitive.. possitive change is the only thing that will bring possitive feedback.. YOU are the only one who can make changes in your life.. and you will .. things will get better.. I promise.. God would not give you more than you can handle. I have been through a lot too and that is the only way I can get through it sometimes.. just beleave that, it is making you stronger and a better person.. learn from each and every experance, make a small change everyday, set goals.. yes.. there will be setbacks, but you will be ready for them, and learn from them.. and move on... you will be ok.
I would love to hear from you.. please e-mail..
2007-10-01 19:24:16 · answer #2 · answered by angelalee76 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It sounds like you have had a harder life than most people, and it does sound like you are clinically depressed.
Please see a doctor. It can get better if you get treatment.
I can't say my life compares to yours exactly, but since childhood I have always felt unwanted and empty. Almost everything I tried was a failure. I finally got treatment for my depression in my twenties and my life improved almost immediately. I can't say it's been perfect after that, but things are pretty good most of the time.
Take a chance and see a doctor. A counselor might be a good idea too, since you may want to talk about some of the events in your past and how they affected you.
I notice some people said that "think postitive" stuff; I always hated that. It's not that easy if you are clinically depressed.
2007-10-01 19:19:21 · answer #3 · answered by majnun99 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
You are so close to an amazing help in life. If you change your prayers a little bit life will improve . Instead of suggesting what god needs to do I want you do make a decision and then ask god if it is right ...like only yes or no answers. Stop teaching god about you. You will be able to get his answers of 'yes or no' so fast that you can do this for everything in your life and failures will shrink up to just a few easy ones.
2007-10-01 19:36:35 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
The first thing I want to say is, Never give up on God. God rewards patience. Just keep following him and everything will turn out in the end. God doesn't curse people for no reason. Look at the story of Job in the Bible. Satan took away his family, his belonging, his home, his health and everything which meant something to him, but he still perservered and kept his eyes on God. Your life will turn around. God has not forsaken you and never will.
"The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deut 31:8
"For the LORD will not reject his people; he will never forsake his inheritance." Psalms 94:14
Just keep praying and everything will eventually turn out.
2007-10-01 19:13:00 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
To be honest, I didnt read anything past the title of this question because God does not curse people, period. God wants nothing but the best for you and it hurts Him to see you suffer because He loves you more perfectly than anyone will ever love you. He loves you so much that he sent His son to suffer and to die so that you wouldnt have to. What causes suffering is sin. When you do things that are in defiance of God's Word, you are actively inviting sin and evil into your life. As such, you openly welcome suffering as well. Now that you are penniless, jobless and hopeless, turn to the Lord, repent and be saved. God can use the suffering, even though he did not place it on you, to help you help others. Find yourself a Bible believing and Bible preaching church and soon. God's Best is for You!
2007-10-01 19:15:55 · answer #6 · answered by MHnurseC 6 · 2⤊ 0⤋
God isn't cursing you, he doesn't curse anyone. He loves every single person in this world. Everyone has tough times in their life, some more than others, its life. LIFE ISNT FAIR, Don't blame god, don't blame anyone. And its not your fault either, just be a strong person and get through it, I'm sure your a very strong person b/c of everything you've been through, I'm sure something good will happen to you, just keep your head high and never look down.
2007-10-01 19:22:20 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
I'm really worried about you. Please don't give up in your quest for meaning and for God. You did the right thing by coming to God with your problems. God can show you the way, but you have to be willing to "walk the walk." I can identify with you so much because I have had many of the same issues as you...being a "minority" and facing discrimination, being clinically depressed, past abuse, suicidal, etc. Now I am free of all of this and it's only by the grace of God that I'm alive. If you truly feel suicidal, and I hope you don't, please get help. If going of the meds is going to put you in danger, then wait until you're more stable (with the help of a psychologist, etc.) to determine when to be weaned off. Ideally, you will one day be free from having to take antidepressants. Please pick up a book (preferably spiritual) that addresses what you're going through. Check out Barnes and Noble or Amazon. Now you've got to straighten up and fight hard to get well--it's not easy, but God will show you the way if you put your trust in him. Sometimes God lets us go through some tough stuff because he's getting ready to make something amazing out of your life. He is trying to teach you something--namely, to trust in His goodness and love for you. You can contact me anytime: jtruth911@yahoo.com God bless you.
2007-10-01 19:16:19 · answer #8 · answered by CS 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
God does not curse people. He loves you. You need to go back to your doctor and have your meds changed. They are obviously not doing the job. I have suffered from severe depression and this sounds like what you are going through now. When you get your head on straight you will be stronger and able to handle anything that comes your way. Go to your doctor now!
2007-10-01 19:11:00 · answer #9 · answered by curious connie 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
To be cursed is not by your folks or by God. It just happens, I hold a dollar on my hand and drop it, the foundation of pull down it falls and any given level to be grab on hold. You are lucky to be alive, pray, knock, keep on seeking what you love the best in doing... you shall find it. Be yourself who cares what other think or put you down. They do not know you and they will be sorry as well. Be not judge what other judge of you. Reach for God, he will help you in time. Be faithful, thankful for everything he is there for you. Your heart is what matters, show yourself don't hide that will make it worst. Do what best of you to show other what you can do. Never give up is my motto!
2007-10-01 19:13:04 · answer #10 · answered by ? 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋
God wouldn't put it on your shoulders if you couldn't handle it. This is your testimony. As you get thru this, you will turn around and help someone else thru it by your testimony. But you cannot do it w/o God. You must pray for your own salvation. Remember, the plan of the enemy? In case you do not, his plan is to steal, kill and destroy. Do not give in to him, ever.
I understand that you have been through alot, I could probably sit across from the table with you and swap stories -where would it get either of us? We are two strong individuals and we must use that strength to help others. There are so many people out there who really, really need you. There's a child, right now in foster care; that child was born of a child. This child may never know love and they could use your counsel.
I've been thru alot too. I nurture my soul by listening to gospel music. I love the Mississippi Mass Choir -look them up on itunes. My favorite song is 'This mornin' when I 'rose. The writer is making the point that Christ can fill you with the confidence you need to keep on keepin' on.
I know a guy who lost his license to practice law, and he lost his portfolio of real estate, his millions in the bank. His crutch was Christ. He is rebuilding, but this time, he realizes that none of it belonges to him...
it is all meant to glorify God and what God is capable of thru us. Get it?
P.S.
Beloved, sometimes we must search real deep for joy. When no one is bringing us joy, we need to bring it to others.
During a tough time in my life, my pastor submitted to me that I round up some gifts (cookies, mug full of candy...etc), wrap them up and deliver them on the eve of Christmas to family and friends. Don't even think about your relationship with them, she told me, just do it and don't go into their homes. Deliver the gifts and leave. I did it and the joy I got in return was awesome and it lifted my out of a deep rut. Maybe you will consider trying that.
2007-10-01 20:49:18 · answer #11 · answered by choirgirl3 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋