Honest opinion, do you think I'm depressed?

Question

I'm 15 (16 in Dec), female and already have a working career.
In Years 4-6 I got bullied mentally at school and when I moved to secondry school, I thought things would change. Years 8-10 I got bullied mentally. I just don't understand what it is. I mean, Year 10 got more personal for me as it was my two best friends who were doing it and they didn't even know. Year 11, (year I'm in now) is just going to be another one of them years.
* In school i always feel alone even though I'm surrounded by friends.
* I'm hurt by some of the simplest things
* I thought about suicide when I was in Yr9
* I cry alot

But what I don't get is that everything outside school is so perfect. I've got the most wonderful boyfriend. The most supportive family. I've got a bright future within my career. My family is well supported as in cash wise. I'm also happy with my looks and personality.
Serious answers only please. Do I need some sort of help? If so, what?

* Yes the suicide was thought about for a while. I put a knife to my arm and cut it. I did it once and regretted it, never done it since.
* My Bro had an overdose when he was at school.

Answer 1

Unfortunately, things like what you are going through happens too often - especially at your age. I had some similar things like that in school myself.
It would never go any harm to ask your parents about speaking to a therapist. What about going to your School Guidance Counselor. Can he/she offer suggestions?
Have you spoken to your parents about the bullying that has been taking place all these years?

You are probably just as normal as the next teenager, but having even though about suicide is very serious. Ending your life means that you are willing to give up and there are many other options to get the help you are seeking. I do think suicide is a very selfish thing to contemplate especially since you mentioned you have a great family and boyfriend who cares about you. You'd hurt them a lot if you weren't around anymore.

There is absolutely nothing embarassing about what you are going through. There is nothing wrong with finding a professional person to talk to. I hope you research other options.

Finally, your in your final years of high school. It's almost over; many of those mean people you may never see again in your life.

All the best to you...

Answer 2

Were you serious about the suicide? Did you have an actual plan or was it a passing thought? Is there any family history of depression that you know of? Why are you being bullied, what are they doing to you?

Thanks, your story sounds so much like me at your age, I never really seriously thought about suicide, but did have some fleeting thoughts. Anyway, if it helps, I am almost 30 :( , married with two wonderful kids but I suggest you talk to someone, I do take an antidepressant now but that was after the kids came and I believe totally related to them. I would definitely talk to someone myself now, but my hubby totally doesn't get it, maybe some day. Anyway, good luck honey, the girls at school, totally are just jealous try to remind yourself of that, keep your head up and try to keep some self esteem ( I know it is hard with people trying to knock you down, but work on it). I hope everything works out for you.

Answer 3

With what you described it might be a little bit of depression . I think that you are very sensitive too and take things to heart. try not to let the past bullying experiences haunt you. Your a year older now and try not to let them get to you. Ignore it if you can and think that they are just insecure and have to do that to feel important about themselves.
It will get easier for you! As you grow older those things will disappear. Those kids will get more mature and will see that you are far more stronger then them.
I think that school is where a lot of your stress resides because everything else is OK. Focus on the positives. You do have a lot going for you and be proud of yourself.

Answer 4

i think your are an over sensitive person thats all..
being too emotional sometimes gives a person the feeling of being unwanted or bullied by others... it is a nasty world and people cant always be nice but some feel more hurt than others... i am the same as you , so dont worry you are normal just try to be less sensitive about your self....

somethimes being different also attracts bullies....people may bully you because of your uniqueness in some manner, they want to see whats so different about you, why do you stand out from the rest...think about what was different in you ... maybe you were shy, reserved or quite ...

Answer 5

I love your poetry! it is so miserable! I consider the first-rate subject for a poem is sorrow. It's one of the profound feelings a human can believe. But your poem was once very well. Someone recommended not to use the curse phrases however considering you didnt use them so generally (most effective two times) and also you used them in the entire proper locations, it didnt sound dangerous. I didnt feel the dangerous phrases made it sound irrelevant. It's very well, I dont feel it demands any corrections or to be edited.

Answer 6

everyone thinks of suicide at one time or another if you have ever acted on those thoughts you need to ask for help. some times it just doesn't matter about your family support.The fact that you cry a lot for no apparent reason means you might have a chemical imbalance.I dont think it would hurt it you went and saw a Doctor. It may be something as simple as your diet or that you are stressed out due to your busy life.

Answer 7

Spending a few sessions with a qualified counselor, or your family Dr. is what you really need to be properly and accurately diagnosed.

Your mental - physical & emotional health can change from year to year. What condition you did have in the past may not be there today.

Certainly you do display some symptoms common to depression, but I really am not qualified to say yes or no.
Here is a depression screening test you can take for yourself: http://www.med.nyu.edu/psych/screens/dep

Answer 8

It sounds like you think that you need some sort of help, and if that's the case, go check it out! If you're parents have money, they most likely have insurance which will cover most psychiatric counseling. go talk to someone, it will definitely make things look a lot brighter for you. (:

Answer 9

I get picked on too and bullied mentally. It's hard, but I don't think you are depressed. Tough it out and try harded to stand up for yourself and talk to counselor. I had to and it helped tremendously.

Answer 10

Yes honey I believe that u r depressed. i know how u feel, I hate myself b/c anm so "ugly" I have been picked on in almost every school year I was in, I'm also in 11th grade, And I still get picked on.