I want to commit suicide because i cant get things that will make me feel better WHY!?

Question

Well im a suicidal person, always have been. But lately ive been falling under really hard. Im in college again after a year after being kicked out of school for poor grades. Now im in a community college. Ive just been depressed. Theres nothing that will make me happy that i have right now. And everything i want i cant get. My luck is just terrible right now. Im going to school full time and i cant get a job to make money. I need a new car it would make me really happy since my old one barely drives... I need a mazda 3! I need a girlfriend, I need to lose my virginity, I need to grow a lil taller, All these things i feel would make me happy i cant get... So whats the point in living. I would imagine the whole point in living is to get or do things that make you happy right. I cant stop thinking about just ending it all... I dont see any happiness in sight. I spend my whole day confused and tired from trying to mask my depression from the classmates, professors, and family. Ima do it!

All i want are these simple things i tried so hard to get them. I do everything right, i play life by the book and i get back is shiit. While i see other people my age who have it all. This is bullshit... But question isnt the point of living is to be happy? In these modern times the whole purpose of life is to be happy. If you cant be happy no point in living.

Answer 1

Man, I feel for you, but I am sure that you are looking for happiness outside of yourself. A Mazda 2 would be nice but how about a caviler? Money does not buy happiness, but it nice to have. How about a paper route to get some or delivering pizza? and Oh a girlfriend would be nice, but first be your own best friend and be happy to be who you are . Nobody said that life is fair. Everyone has to live with what God has handed them. Do Try to enjoy your life. This life there is a meaning , everyone has to find their own meaning. try to look at the good side. Your healthy and going to college!!!!. some people will never have that!!! good luck

Answer 2

dude killing yourself is not the answer. You want more money a car and girls? I got news for you so does everybody else. And there's ways to attain it even with setbacks, I guarentee if you give it a genuine shot with everything you've got and don't slip down an alcohol or drugs type path you'll be able to get at least 1 of those things if not all of them.

I have 2 points here.

1) what's the point in killing yourself? you'll only cause grief to people who are close to you, and it'll be short lived.

2) You need to really look at what's causing your unhappiness, I mean really deeply and truthfully and find a way to overcome it or not experience this depression. The first thing you should do is see a therapist they can guide you on that step and maybe even get certain prescriptions your way that might make you feel better (a lot of people who are depressed have chemical imbalances). Secondly if those three things are what you really want they're attainable it may be hard and it may take a lot of time and effort but you will eventually get those things.

Answer 3

I am very depressed myself right now and have had suicidal thoughts at times. Everyone has these thoughts at some time in their life. I want you to stop and think about what your Mom would feel if she knew you were thinking of doing harm to yourself. You say no one loved you like she did, well her life had a purpose and that is you. You are still very young and will eventually find someone to make a life with and you can still have children by adoption. The first thing you need to do is call a local crisis center so they can hook you up with the help you need and deserve. Tell you aunt how you are feeling and let her help you get some help asap. You may qualify for help without having to pay anything. As far as jumping off a building , I think you will feel a lot as you are falling, regret and fear and then pain .

Answer 4

I think you are putting too much pressure on yourself. You seem to believe the tripe that you see on television and have bought the lines of other people. The only person you have to be is yourself. You should follow your own drummer. Really think about it - do you really need these things, or others will do. Don't set up difficult goals for yourself. Try to pick one thing and work towards it. Right now you are headed in the right direction. Work on your studies. That will create a good foundation for your life and will make you more attractive. Youcan work on one thing at a time. Don't get caught up in the racing thoughts of wanting it all at once.

Answer 5

Go ahead if you think you must,but it wont change anything.in this life or the next.Let me share my story.I didnt graduate high school.I had enough credits but lacked a required class.So I told 'em to go to hell and left,I took a GED 10 years later and passedI then got into drugs(speed and weed) in 1984.I got married in 91 but lost my job a week before my wedding.Like you(probably) ive always landed on my feet.2 years into marriage,I found out we couldnt have children,and I still dont make enough money to adopt a child(plus i was still on drugs) Now 1997 I got a CDL and started driving trucks,while still doing drugs,I was good at it,I got raises,employee of the month,was making good money.Guilt got the best of me in 2005 and I turned myself in.Looking for help,it got so bad my wife seperated from me and I was living and feeding my brother(whom was an alcoholic) on about $40.00 dollars a week.Life was hard,going to rehab,which cost me over $4000.00 in money i didnt have at the time).I couldnt work so I scrounged daily which came up to that $40.00 dollars a week.(we ate a lot of beans)meanwhile while trying to get sober,I had what I thought were friends hold baggies of stuff in my face and say you sure you want to quit?I stayed focused,realizing that most of the people around me with the material things,really werent as happy as they seemed.Sure they had this and that,but at what cost did this come to them,a lot of them were in either debt to their eyeballs or sold their morals(soul) for the stuff they had.It's ok to be unhappy,its real,but the things that you think are important,can only bring you temporary happiness.I would suggest you set a goal that is achievable but takes some dedication on your part,then do it again.Before too long youll be where you want to be abd appreciate anything you have,or you can quit and lay down and die,but what good would that really do?

Answer 6

If you are having suicidal thoughts you need to talk to someone. I know thats what everybody is going to tell you but its true. If you keep thinking you have bad luck then you will. If you kill yourself, your going straight to hell no matter what. Now do you really think that hell is better then this world? Instead of thinking of the things you don't have, look at the stuff you do. I mean you have family, think about the people who don't. You have the privlege to go to college, what about all those people in 3rd world countries who will never have that opportunity? Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Answer 7

I don't advise you to go ahead neither to commit suicide.
I didn't read all your question details just the headline.
Commit suicide and it will have served you nothing or you will have gained nothing with it.
The sixth commandment on God's Law forbids suicide. This is a commandment which applies not only to inflict death to someone else.
Take away your life and you have finished with the chance to be redeemed by God's grace.
For me such information would make me think a lot about what is this thing I am contemplating to do.

Answer 8

ever watch that show Bruce almighty remember when he granted everyone there wish the result.... the result well life kinda sucked!!!! that's life babe you don't get what you want and you don't get what makes you happy unless you do the time and sacrifice for what you want no one will give you anything for free if you want it you gotta save and try and realize no one is going to do it for ya.... so if you want to say you want to kill your self because your not getting your way i say to that wow you must be lazy or don't know how to do things on your own

SO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I DON'T MEAN KILL YOUR SELF I MEAN SET YOUR GOALS A LITTLE MORE ATTAINABLE FOR YOUR SITUATION OR LOOK TO ACHIEVE THEM A LITTLE FURTHER DOWN THE ROAD NOT RIGHT NOW

Answer 9

You sound a lot like me.
Get yourself a xbox, thats what im going to do. You're only depressed when you feel depressed.

Answer 10

Don't!!!!!!! PLEASE DON'T!