I am going to start by saying that I am a normal person for all practical purposes. I was not abused or went through any traumatic experience in my childhood. I am happily married with no issues with my wife.
I have a secret that I have kept for a number of years and I need you guys to help me understand why. It is not something that I can discuss with anyone, so here it goes.
I have a very sick sexual fantasy. I think of having rough sex with a woman and towards the end, choke her with one hand and place the other one over her heart. I think of how wonderful I will feel as her heartbeat would race and then stop as she dies and I orgasm inside of her as her heart stops.
Why does this turn me on? Why do I feel this way? What is wrong with me?
I do want to add that though this turns me on, I know it is wrong and I will of course never act upon something so evil.
2007-09-28 08:48:56 · 18 answers · asked by Markin 1 in Social Science ➔ Psychology
You should get help...............
2007-09-28 08:56:15 · answer #1 · answered by LittleDaisy. 6 · 1⤊ 1⤋
First you say this is an urge, then you call it a sick secret. Then you say it is a feeling. And that it is wrong and evil.
Sometimes fundamentalist religious groups have these kinds of conflicts.
When I think about it a little, this fantasy sounds like what a criminal in a penitentary would have. Except for the screwing of a woman thing. Because of course, you would just have the men to do this to.
2007-09-28 09:20:37 · answer #2 · answered by dianna 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm not a psychologist but I do have an understanding of certain types of thought patterns and connected behavior. The thoughts you are exhibiting are tantamount to psychosis even though you understand that it is wrong. You should get professional help concerning this before it leads to serious criminal behavior. I apologize if this frightens you it IS only an opinion however, an educated opinion. The only other possibility is that you have an inner desire to dominate every situation to the point that you are the only victor. This is a bad indicator too, because it means that you don't care about anyone or anything but yourself.
2007-09-28 09:43:47 · answer #3 · answered by Emissary 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Typical snuff fantasy. Lots of people have them. Whoever said you want to be dominant is right. You want to dominate a woman sexually to the highest degree possible. You want her to be totally submissive to you, totally yielding. Or, to turn it around, you don't want to be submissive at all. Stuff like this usually goes hand in hand with control issues, maybe past emotional abuse that left you feeling like you can't be intimate with anyone unless you're so much in control that you can kill them. You probably have something in your psyche that needs fixing, but it's an emotional issue that a counselor or psychologist could help with. Look at your past? What might have made you want to have so much control? It's cool, though. You're not a bad person or anything. Just might need to dig through your past, and with the help of a therapist, to make it easier. Or you could buy self-help books. Or journal. Look at yourself internally, emotionally. If you feel like you're okay, just let it be. Some people believe snuff fantasies, being dominant, are natural, others (like me) believe they're probably the product of some emotional issue. You choose what feels best for you. Maybe you could have this fantasy the rest of your life and be cool. Maybe you'll want to examine yourself and fix whatever causes this fantasy. You pick.
I have some weird fantasies, but I know why, and that helps me understand that there's a good reason, and it's cool. I consider myself normal, but at heart I'm a dom, too. And I'm usually a docile young woman. Ha.
2007-09-28 09:40:44 · answer #4 · answered by thegirlwantstoknow 3 · 3⤊ 0⤋
Well first I commend you .. most people don't walk around sharing this ....But I hope you do recognize that you have a problem and need serious counseling ...your thoughts can lead to very disturbing behavior ...this type of behavior is what the FBI profiles a lot when catching serial rapist things such as sodomy, erotica, sadistic behavior wanting a person to experience pain during the act or humulation ....You need to pray because these thoughts are from the devil nothing is loving or kind in your thinking ..
2007-09-28 09:21:54 · answer #5 · answered by meka33311 3 · 2⤊ 0⤋
okay, so, i am going to answer this as best i can.
okay, so, i believe i can unserstand how you would find it...pleasurable, to feel the woman's heart stop.
holding another's life in your hands, is a powerful feeling. and with men ( no i'm not being judgemental here) sometimes sex is about power, and conquering.
by killing this woman as you are orgasming within her, you would be conquering her body, as well as her spirit.
it's completely normal to have strange fantasies like that, just so long as you dont act on them, there shouldnt be anything to worry about.
hope i could help, best of luck.
2007-09-28 08:57:32 · answer #6 · answered by opalshyne 2 · 1⤊ 1⤋
You, you, I don't know what to say, but you are scary!! You have a problem and you sound turned on when you talk about it, I don't think this is OK someone should talk to your wife. I would be careful If I was her. Those are evil thoughts and I take you seriously. This what you describe is almost a wish. And if your making this up, your not funny, your sick.
2007-09-28 08:57:11 · answer #7 · answered by Esther 5 · 1⤊ 1⤋
yes that is really weird but i think whenever you start thing like that, get involved with something or talk to someone. Remember how you love your wife and how you won't cheat of her talkless of killing someone. Basically, its weird thoughts due to idleness. so kick it, sing, cook, talk, watch TV, Pray if you are the religious type. I seriously pray/hope you stop having these thoughts but at the same time don't get too bothered about it.
2007-09-28 08:58:38 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
Ahh, I have way more twisted fantasies than that. For example I have this fantasy about 3 midgets a mule and a jar of peanut butter... Gotta Go just talkin about it gets me all fired up!
2007-09-28 08:54:41 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 1⤋
Sounds like a dominance thing. So you like to be dominant. Nothing wrong with that, that's just pretty much the most dominant thing you could do, so that's why you think of it. As long as you dont act on it, I dont see that there's a problem.
2007-09-28 08:53:18 · answer #10 · answered by chevalrose 5 · 0⤊ 2⤋
Whoa!!!! I think that is a question for a therapist, not anyone on Yahoo Answers will be able to identify that seriously sick demeanor.
2007-09-28 08:53:05 · answer #11 · answered by smash6385 3 · 1⤊ 1⤋