Question about depression/suicidal feelings...?

Question

Have you felt suicidal? If so....did you just passing think about it...or were you sure you wanted to. right now i'm 100% sure i'm not even scared, it's comforting to me to know i can end it whenever i want to....has anyone else ever felt like this?

and Ive been to a million doctors already antidepressants/therapy don't work on me.

Answer 1

Go see a million more doctors until you find one that helps. As you already know, suicide in not an option or solution to anything.

Answer 2

I am feeling the same way after treating for the past 10 years with every doc and medicine under the sun. My depression is overwhelming and all consuming. I barely have the energy to even take a shower every day. I know how you feel. I've also tried suicide three times and survived each attempt, although I had to be shocked back to life after the last one. One thing I learned...it's worth it to live. Despite all the pain and darkness, it is worth it. I keep going every day because it would be selfish to destroy the lives of my mother and others who love and need me by killing myself. You should consider that as well. I have never been sadder than when I woke up to see my mother crying by my bedside in the hospital.
If you need someone to talk to who understands, talk to me. You can e-mail me through my profile here. I've been there. Don't do anything drastic. Once you end it, that's it. It only leaves the people you leave behind to deal with the constant sorrow. And it is constant.
The real winner here is the one who can make it through such a difficult life. There is no honor in dying.

If you don't feel like contacting a suicide line (they are helpful) please e-mail me and we can talk.

Answer 3

True story... a few years ago, I did. I felt this overwhelming sense of calm and even went so far as to "prepare" things for what would happen afterwards. But after awhile, I realized things had to change for a reason and that this was just one of those downs. I was at a really bad point in my life and it nearly destroyed me. I was calm. I wasn't at all afraid. In fact, I almost welcomed it.

Therapists and anti-depressants won't help you if you don't want to help yourself. One of my friends finally noticed that something wasn't right about me and she stepped in and I know it saved my life. Since then... and it's been about six years... I've been doing a lot better and I use different methods to deal with the dark. At the time I was in a destructive relationship and doing things I reallly didn't want to do. But once I realized that it wasn't going anywhere, I was finally able to push myself to do things I wanted to do instead of just thinking that maybe, just maybe, I could get through another day.

Sometimes all you need is someone who's there. If you ever want to talk, even to a complete stranger, I'm here.

Answer 4

There are so many anti depressants out there, and sometimes we need to experiment with them to get what is just right. Yes, i realize that some people can't take them well -- i can't because they send me whriling into mania every time.

Therapy only works when we work it... it's simple as that. If we have a lax attitude and think "this won't help" then it won't!

And one or two sessions isn't going to do it. It takes a lot of effort and work, hon. We have to face our pain and be honest with ourselves in therapy... being honest in therapy isn't about telling the therapist the truth, it's about self-honesty.

I think that the biggest reason people don't go to therapy is that they don't want to face their pain and it's frightening.

Also, every therapist may not be right for us... sometimes we have to shop around... many clinics have intake departments which can help to select someone who is experienced with our particular problem(s).

Yes, i have felt as you do ..... I'd also like to say that suicide isn't that simple or easy... many people who attempt it, end up disabled for life -- like i am. so, please DO EVERYTHING YOU CAN to find a way to cope.

The website below has helped thousands... at least it has good information and resources for help... and the introduction was written by a regular person, not a medical expert.... it's insightful and TRUE!

You can also do yahoo searches for DEPRESSION SELF-HELP and/or COPING WITH DEPRESSION.
Take care of YOU... please... sending hugs.

Answer 5

Make yourself busy. We all need to feel like we're involved in something significant. We need to participate in something outside ourselves. You might consider volunteering at a local women's shelter or food pantry. That will elevate your mood as well as your self esteem.

Exercise is good for us, but physical contact is equally important. Exercise affects brain chemicals, and the healing touch of physical closeness does too. If you're depressed, hug somebody - anybody, everybody! A hug is good medicine. It reduces stress and tension and it boosts your immunity to illness. Hugs raise self esteem and lower blood pressure. They feel good and make people happy. And they're free! Hugs are the universal language that communicates love and acceptance. They're healthy for the "hugger" as well as the "hugee."

Take up a sporting activity like walking, cycling, tennis, golf, water sports, riding, gliding, sailing, football, badminton. Something with a personal achievement goal. Spectator sports do not count and have little value for the purpose of defeating depression. Like alcohol (with which they are often associated) and television, they are simply ephemeral distractions. Depression cannot exist when the adrenaline is surging. Try bungee jumping.

Avoid substances that are unknown to cause mood swings or depressionlike alcohol, caffeine, chocolate and high sugar foods.

Learn to laugh. It really will make you feel better. Visit a local joke shop or toy shop. Buy books and magazines that you find entertaining and amusing rather than just educational. hire a funny video and invite one or two friends round to enjoy it with you.

Build up your self-confidence. People who suffer from depression often lack self-assurance. Write an advertisement for yourself listing all your good qualities. Carry your advert with you and look at it whenever you’re feeling down.

Have a pet. The pet, however, be it a parrot, a cat, a mouse or a dog do not have this problem. They love their ‘master’ unconditionally and this is fully reflected through their behavior. It is much easier overcoming depression and making your way back to normalcy when you are faced with the exceptional love of a pet (or more). It was observed that people whom pets were given want to become better, want to become useful, want to love back and hence slowly escape the clutches of depression and return to their old selfs.

Talk to someone about it. A problem shared is a problem halved. Have you ever felt better by getting something off your chest? Of course you have. Did talking about a problem in the past help to put it into perspective and perhaps make it easier to deal with. I would guess you have probably been there too. Depression is no different. Find someone you can trust and get talking about it. Friends, family, your doctor, support groups both online and off....You might even find that someone comes up with an idea you have never thought of which just might work for you.

Answer 6

There was a girl on here earlier today who said she was suicidal but people on here helped to bring her out of it and she was so glad she wanted to tell everybody who helped her. I asked her to put her question on here after school or tonight so others who need help can see that there really is hope. Please look for her question. I think most people feel this way sometimes...just don't go with those feelings...fight them. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem...and it 's not even a solution. Try to find things that make you laugh. Laughing does something to your brain...maybe your "dopamine" or something. Medication WILL help...maybe you haven't found the right one...Sometimes it takes trying them until you find the right one...then you'll be so happy you kept trying. Don't throw your life away...PLEASE.

Answer 7

see a doctor, talk to a friend, talk to a teacher.
suicidal thoughts are not good and definitely not the answer.

see a million and one doctors...

Answer 8

you should go to the hospital or call 911 for help. sounds like you need to go in the hospital for a little bit to get better

Answer 9

yes
all the time
every day i wake up and wonder if it will be the day i end my life