Extreme problem. Please adivse?

Question

I'm 20 years old. Live in a suburb outside of a small town. I don't have any friends. I don't have a job. I don't go to school.. My boyfriend is 2000 miles away.It's a very committed relationship but we've never met because we met online. I don't have any connection with my family on a personal level. I don't think they understand me at all or any body else for that matter.
I'm painfully;morbidly shy, so I'm always to afraid to tell anyone anything about my life, or go to a doctor because I don't have insurance, and once again I'd be terrified out of my mind.
I cry about everything, very passive aggressive towards everyone, except for strangers who I am extremely quiet and uncomfortable around.
I have a terrible image of myself, despite being very overweight. I have tried to do things to myself when I was younger (the bad thing if you know what I mean)
I feel nervous even when I'm alone with my thoughts.

I just don't know what do to with my life anymore. I might just be venting, but I know I'm in need of serious help.
Any one who can just give me some advice on what I should do or give me some major encouragement. I would be so grateful.

Answer 1

You sound very depressed you are old enough to seek a doctor on your own . On the back of you insurance card is a number call it and let them know you are looking for a Mental Health Physician!....................Good Luck!

Answer 2

all i see is you not taking action with your life!
but your complaining as if you did take action and didn't get any results!
step up! bit your fears in the butt and make some goals!
we all get down in the dumps trustme!
and your not going to change over night..

Why are you afraid to tell someone about yourself scared they may laugh?? don't be they will do what ever they want it's out of your control but it looks better when you have some sort of guidelines and a backbone.

You need to set minor goals for example lose 10 lb.. once you ahve a goal set up then build the plan what can you do EVERYDAY to get that goal!
it's really not about gettting the goal and once you try and fail you will try a different way.
No giving up allowed.


You can sooo do this! It took me 3 years, I stopped smoking, gain balls and a backbone, stopped worried about what people thought of me, said what i wanted to say inplace of saying what i thought they wanted to here, turned out to be less selfish, builded my confindence, got a new better job instead of letting the one i had walk over me!,
currently working on building healthy habits like workout and other odds and ends! IT S HARD but anything that challanges you is!
and that's really what life is about. stepping out of what your use to and trying something different!
here is a web site that helped me and I still use it a lot!
www.coping.org..

Sweetie you really need to get out of your comfort zone and start to live life! You won't regret it if you don't but you will feel like this until you do!
take small steps and go for what you want!
if you really think you need help search for a clienic that goes on a sliding scale with your income --- meaning no job no out pay!
but i would try to get a job first and then get professional help!

You can do this alone -- just give yourself an inch of faith and a hole lot of love,,, btw if you have someone who loves you let that be your backbone untill you can get one of your own!

(thanks live partnerFT for being mine!! ) Just in case he reads this! :)
You can do this!

Answer 3

NAMI - National Alliance for Mental Illness - www.nami.org.

They can help you find a dr. in your area who can help you, tell you which programs you qualify for, and give you loads and loads of information about any sort of mental illness. Check out the site. They can help you--for free.

Answer 4

no one should ever be with out friends. if you need someone to talk to, i'll listen to you! :)