Im twenty. i feel like im 50, in a sense that im ready to die anyday, and have accepted the truth about life and why i would have much rather would liked to had my prime in the 1980's. Is there some key to this, should i feel young wreckless and careless.. or play the responsible role of an honest citizen, till death.
2007-09-24 00:04:58 · 23 answers · asked by sickdeathshappen 2 in Health ➔ Mental Health
I feel similar, the world has turned to sh*t in the last decade or two. I'm more afraid of losing someone close to me than of actually dying myself. The thought of death doesn't frighten me so much, it's the thought of a loved one dying and having to live without them in my life that scares me.
My doctor put it down to post traumatic stress disorder, prescribed a counselor, next step is anti-depressants meh...
I'm only 22 for christ sakes. I feel so old, past my time.
2007-09-24 00:21:39 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
The path you choose to follow in life (in relation to your behaviour) is completely your choice.. I understand how you feel in the sense of feeling like a 50 year old trapped in a young body... My body is exhausted and so is my mind..
Keep in mind though, being a responsible, honest citizen, doesn't mean you can't have fun and get a little rowdy at times... You don't have to substitute maturity for stupidity, and yet you can still have lots of fun!!
Being ready to die, isn't the best way to go through every day, as that may make you appear like a negative person.. Accepting the truth about life and how it goes is a good thing!! but as much as you would rather be living through the 80's in your prime, and knowing it won't happen, doesn't mean you should stop living your life!
I hope you work everything out!! :)
-KiKi.
2007-09-24 07:13:19 · answer #2 · answered by KieKie 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It's a good thing that you are ready to die anyday, cause you CAN die anyday. No gurantee that we will all die at old age! so dont worry, you will die when it's your time. I think, remember it's only my opinion, that you feel that way because you dont have "vibrant" friends. Assuming you are in school I will advice you to get some new friends, and get busy with them. I know it's hard to make new friends, but just be dorky and you will attract a lot of goofy and interesting friends. The reason i say this because life is so much better when you are with goofy friends!!! it not at school, then try to get friends at where ever you work or live. or jsut go to the pub, drink your *** up and have fun all by your self, something I do. Now about your actions that are goin to be, detrimental or peacefull, completely depends upon what you expect from your self, both in this life and the next. If you be good, you will get good, eventualy. At least you will not fall in your eyes, that is if you have eyes like that!
2007-09-24 07:16:28 · answer #3 · answered by Danny's Not Cool 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Why do you think that people with 50 are going to die very soon. No body say you have to behave like a 20 year old, if you don't feel like it. Even it would be natural. A person with 50 is not old this days. I'm far more than that and I still feel Young. I wish I could do things as a 20 Year old is doing, but my body is unfortunately stopping me. Enjoy what ever you do. 20 or 50 it doesn't matter................
2007-09-24 07:15:34 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I felt this way from age 19 to about 23. This is fairly common, at this age you are no longer a teenager, you are adult and possibly beyond your peers way of thinking. This is the most difficult age or it was for me transitioning from kid to adult.
You are at mid point- 18-21 is where most people find to be the most difficult ages in their lives.
You may also be an indigo adult- http://www.metagifted.org
which is what I am- sometimes can be mistaken for ADD.
We often become negative, don't feel we serve a purpose and shouldn't be here, and often times in the pre-adult years we tend to think of suicide at times, not acting on it but death is in thought more than not.
Understanding yourself and realizing you do have a purpose will come soon, it is the waiting game and head trips we endure through the process that makes it difficult to keep the chin up.
You will be okay, you are normal!! Then again, what is normal, is anyone really normal "wink, smile"
2007-09-24 07:34:49 · answer #5 · answered by brandy2007 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
you should go out there and feel the excitement of life. enjoy life. it doesnt have to be wreckless or careless or whatever. you just need to find things that you like, involve with people, get the hell out of your house and start finding a love(maybe).
you're too desperate. life is beautiful. you're so young and fresh. dont waste you life by thinking it's gonna end anytime soon. you're not gonna die for now. enjoy your life. have some fun.
if you keep thinking like this, you'll spend the rest of your life alone. and when you get old, you'll want to do some fun things untill you realize you're too old to do fun things.
get up, be a man, and face the life.
2007-09-24 07:24:47 · answer #6 · answered by Whatever! 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
How you choose to live your life is entirely up to you, but if you feel close to death as you say then thats not normal. Are you depressed? Have you seen a doctor? There's nothing wrong with being mature, and if you don't feel wreckless and careless then fine.
2007-09-24 07:52:18 · answer #7 · answered by Bonnie 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I used to feel like that - an aged adult in a young person's body. Now I'm an adult, but feel like a teenager. I think the difference is that I was unhappy when I was younger, and now I'm happy. Maybe you are feeling older bc you want to mentally fast-forward through this part of your life?
FYI, 50 is not "near death". Most grandparents are well into their 80s!
2007-09-24 08:10:13 · answer #8 · answered by Athenart 2 · 1⤊ 0⤋
You seem to be worried about being a responsible and respectable person. You seem to be feeling sorry for yourself because you might be missing out on your youth.
I do believe that you are not going to change your thinking very much. You are going to be a very serious and caring person for your entire life. You are exceptionally fortunate, not unfortunate. You are going to be successful professionally. You are going to be very compassionate. You are going to be wealthy later in life. You are going to be able to afford material things, but probably won't be able to spend your money on most of them, as you will want to continue to save and build your wealth. You will not have many relationships with either sex, but will feel more comfortable with members of the same sex. Eventually, you will have one lifetime partner, someone that is not just like you, instead someone who displays traits that you feel you lack.Eventually, you will actually be very content and satisfied with your life.
So, in short, your self-sorrow is just that....a temporary thing that will evolve into a person you are very proud to be!
2007-09-24 07:28:27 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
you need to sit down, and make a big list of things that you would like to accomplish before you are 21...you must have had a lot of responsiblity dumped on your head and now it is making you feel old beyond your years...write down, just who and what it is making you feel so old, and start to eliminate them one by one...when you turn 21, things are going to be different any way, this is just a phase, and it will pass...start doing things with kids your own age, and start doing young things again, you are a baby..and look at me, I am a 20 year old, trapped in a 50+body lololol
2007-09-24 07:21:20 · answer #10 · answered by MotherKittyKat 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋