Any suicidal survivors here?

Question

I am curious that's all...as to why people want to commit suicide, what drove them to attempt it, how they got out of it...etc. Please share your experiences! Thanks

Answer 1

I've attempted suicide a couple times during my lifetime. Most of the attempts were not very serious, so I won't talk about those. I'll talk about two of the serious attempts I had.

The first time I overdosed on some medications my psychiatrist had given me. I was very depressed to have even gone to a doctor, in fact, it was a friend who had taken me to see the doctor. Anyways, I overdosed because I was in constant emotional pain, the antidepressants I had were NOT working, in fact, I felt different, but worse. I started having panic attacks, insomnia and I felt a bit out of control, like I couldn't grasp my thoughts and like my impulses controlled me. Before I finished a thought I was off doing something crazy, well one night I was very depressed, I was thinking about how I was failing in university, how much money I was wasting (my parents were paying my tuition and rent), how I had no future and that constant emotional pain that I couldn't control even with mecications! I swallowed a whole bottle of pills before even really worrying about it. I was always thinking about suicide before that, but I think the meds really helped me get over the apprehensions I had about it. I was mad impulsive. Well that didn't kill me.

The second time was a few months later. I had decided to quit my medications, but that didn't help, didn't make things worse, didn't really do anything except give me a few days of headaches although I did feel more in control of my impulses, had less panic attacks and slept better. Right, so there I was and I decided again the constant pain or lack of any feeling at all of depression was unbearable, so I tried again with carbon monoxide, but failed. Seriously, as much as people say it's like falling asleep, it's not and that was that. I think hanging after taking some ativan or an oxycontin overdose (which I've also done in a 'I don't care if I live or die' but not an attempt) is the way to go.

Answer 2

There are suicidal thoughts that many of us have throughout our lifetime- depression is usually the cause of these thoughts and few ever act on them. However, when a person goes for a long period of times with highs and lows, their moods are unstable, they become irritable, moody, angry, sad, and isolated. A person if untreated or lacks moral support, doesn't have someone to talk to or has stress and negativity surrounding their lives, they spiral down to what I refer to as "the black hole of hell" this is a place where your depression is so deep, so severe that nothing in life has any light to it, everything is dim, nothing to look forward to, the world is ugly, people suck, life sucks and then once all of these emotions and thoughts come into play, and more things continue to happen (negative things) they snap- can take no more and their only solution is that the world is better without them, vs versa. I know because I have had this battle a few times in my life and one of them I came very close- it was the roughest time in my life and I just couldn't handle anything else.- but I got through it with a few supportive people who listened, and offered help such as a few books to read and getting out more, doing things for myself for a change. This was 11 yrs ago- and have not felt that way since.

Answer 3

not everyone wants to die when they overdose I myself have bipolar and one day just sitting in the kitchen having a coffee (yes it had being a rough couple of weeks) the next thing i knew i was in a major hospital hooked up to all sorts of machines as it turned out i was on the wrong meds and blanked out every thing and spent the next 9 hrs taking the pills one by one until they were gone 89 actually i was a very lucky woman that I had rang a friend at 5am for some milk or I would not have made it So to this very day I can't remember what or why but thank god I have friends with milk.

Answer 4

Yeah, when I was 18, I drank a whole bottle of rum in just over an hour(750ml) and swallowed down as many pain-killers that could be found, believing that would end it all. My father told me once that a whole bottle of rum/whiskey would kill me.
I know it sounds stupid, but back then I believed it.
Of course it didn't work, but I was drunk as a skunk for three days until I sobered up with no other ill effects.
Then after I had my third child, I grabed a kitchen knife and started to cut lengthwise into my arm, but stopped, can't remember why I stopped.

Answer 5

I am, mainly due to losing my 2 year old son to congestive heart failure in 96. I thought my world was over..It took 2 years for me to start feeling whole again. It never goes away, but I have learned how to cope with my loss.

Answer 6

When someone feels useless, hopeless, and worthless...things happen...when you are at the end of your 'rope' so to speak, and you feel like no one really cares,...then you start to question, what you are doing here in the first place...and then when you are just truly tired of living like that...you start to consider the end...God forbid...

Answer 7

emotional pain. Not being medicated properly did not help.

Answer 8

Not me but I saw one did and survived. Before jumping from the 4th flr of our school he shouted "Superman!". He was high on drugs and thought he was a superhero.

Answer 9

MOST OF THE TIME PEOPLE JUST DO IT TO GET ATTENTION,A CRY FOR HELP,OR END THEIR MISERY.
MOST DEAD PEOPLE (SUICIDES) IF IT WERE POSIBLE TO ASK THEM WOULD CHOOSE TO BE BACK ALIVE, THEY WERE NOT IN A GOOD FRAME OF MIND WHEN THEY CHOSE THEIR FATE... PEOPLE WHO JUMP OF BUILDINGS START TO SCREAM IN TERROR HALF WAY DOWN (maybe they changed their minds?...)
I TRIED ONCE,.... LOOK AROUND AND SEE PEOPLE REALY SUFFERING IN LIFE WHO MAYBE COULD BE FORGIVEN FOR WANTING A WAY OUT,YET THEY FIGHT AND STRUGGLE JUST TO STAY ALIVE. mmm?

Answer 10

I'm going to do it this weekend. no way out, and i wont survive