i dn't know what to say . my life has been like a fairy tale to me . Nothing i do will ever make me happy , and nothing i am will ever give me the love i never received from my parents , and since i do not wish to go along with their wishes and be in an emotionally unstable family relationship . i am alone .
This girl , i used to like , she broke up with me because of my jealousy ( she doesn't understand that it came from the way i was brought up , it was a fight between me and brother to win our parents love - even the slightest thing causes big fights , it shouldn't have been like that . my parents should have loved us for what we were , and not what we could do for them )
She broke up a few months ago , and 2-3 days ago she called ( i am sure it was her , eventhough it was a private call )
Now all the feelings are coming back into my mind and the more i try to stop it i can't . and if i dn't think about it then i feel like i have no purpose in life , or as if .........
2007-09-20
15:33:02
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.....there is noone who can ever understand me . The blunt and honest truth is , i loved her with all my heart , and i am afraid if i will get hurt again due to this jealous nature of mine , and i dn't want to get hurt , also don't want to hurt her )
i don't feel like doing anything . i have my citibank school loans to put in diferment , my car/insurance payments , my 3 cc payments , fix my car (it started making a noise yesterday from the right front tire ) ..i don't feel like doing anything . i truly wish she hadn't called , or else i would've never thought of anyhing like this . i just want to move on , but i can't . i am stuck and i feel soo down as if i am worthless.
2007-09-20
15:36:22 ·
update #1