Im more screwed up then i thought?

Question

I dont have a social life nor am i around any ppl. We are renting out one of our rooms right now. Someone came to check it out tonight... He was 21 years old happy and filled with life and positive vibes! Well i sorta sat there and zoned out thinking to myself..."Why is this person so happy" and then it hit me ... im really screwed up and i desperately need to get some antidepressants. I wish god could change me ... give me a life worth living .. i once was a very happy person. filled with life and positive energy ...but its gone now. After being hurt by your own parents/friends and extended family you just lose all hope and soon no longer know what it feels like to be happy.

i know am starting to realize that i have lost alot of past friends because im so obsessive over them ...and its because i was abandon many times.....and fear ppl will do it to me again... man i wish was dead right now... my anxiety is insane right now.. my neck is stiff and my stomach is tight and hurts like hell.

***update*** To the people that are saying im conceited and selfish..SCREW YOU! Im not having a good time you jack a$$! And to the other ppl that are saying...go out and help someone else, SCREW YOU TOO! i cant even take care of myself let alone someone else...you ppl are f*cked big time!

Answer 1

Please read this man's experience for a new perspective on things:

http://www.near-death.com/storm.html

Answer 2

Yes, get on some antidepressants and get some therapy. You need to speak with someone who can give you objective feedback because when you are depressed you cannot do this for yourself. If you are feeling unsafe like you may hurt yourself, you need to check into the hospital until you are not feeling that way. You have an illness. It is nothing to be ashamed of. I have been where you are at many times. I have a husband and kids and I still fall in that pit. That is what this illness does to you. Get some help and you will be okay. You will not always feel the way you do right now. Sending you positive energy and wishing you peace in your mind, heart and soul.

Answer 3

Anti-depressants might help, but it is very easy to depend on popping a pill. If you don't develop some coping strategies, when you stop taking meds you will eventually end up back where you started from.

You can look this way at being hurt: They hurt you so you would know it was time to move on. Or you are supposed to learn something from the experience.

You are obviously introspective, and that is why I think it would be beneficial for you to take the MBTI or better yet, the Socionics test to get even more insight into your psychological temperament, and the temperaments of other people. "Happy, filled with life and positive vibes" may be nothing more than extrovertedness. The grass is always greener on the other side. Extroverts may *appear* to have it going on, but they have their shortcomings. For one thing, they are either control freaks or have short attention spans -- or both.

Answer 4

I went through a divorce about 31 years ago at that time I felt about the way you sound and I was messed up to. I prayed to God and very slowly I was able to get through it. When you are down sometimes it seems the only way to go is up. I know you probably heard it before but God really does love you. He said he would never leave you nor forsake you. He will help you if you lean on him he will give the joy back to you. He is a wonderful God. He sent his son Jesus to die on the cross so we could be saved from our sin. We all have sinned and come short of the Glory of God.
My advice is find a good Church to go to and talk to the pastor there and he will give you some encouragement to also find a Bible and read it. There are a lot of good stuff in there. Hope that this helps. Sometimes we all have our discouragement days but there is hope hang in there. Peace and God bless

Answer 5

I am sorry life has treated you like it has. One has to make there self happy, no one else can do that for you. They might beable to make you smile, but only you can make you happy. You need to also remember that not everything stays the same. This is just a phase in your life and it will pass and things will be better. You have to have faith in that , and set that as your goal in life. I know these are all just words, but I hope they help to give you comfort in some small way.. It's a start to happiness if it did..
God Bless.

Answer 6

I have been reading a bit lately about how eating healthier and having a healthy lifestyle can really improve depression and anxiety. The advice I have found basically says take some multi-vitamins, and an Omega 3 supplement, eat more natural foods, less preservatives and chemically processed crap. And some regular exercise wouldn't hurt either. You might want to look into that.

Answer 7

There are 24 hour suicide hotlines available if you feel you need to talk to a live person. I'm not saying that you are thinking of committing suicide right this moment, but those people are trained in making you feel better or at least getting a grip on some rational thought. I would make an appt. with a doctor first thing in the morning-*even* if you feel better then.
If god makes you feel better that is great-perhaps there is a clergyperson you can speak to as well.

Answer 8

First, you didn't even ask a question.

Second, perhaps you need some help.

Third, I have felt this way many times.

Fourth, sometimes I realize I feel this way when I have sin in my life that goes unchecked or my relationship with God is weak.

Fifth, I realize that not all "depression" can be cured by a relationship with God and some of it needs chemical treatment.

Sixth, I have no idea why I numbered these.

Seventh, I have no friends either. Its sucks cause I am 24 and moved to a new area. And I busy with my new job. I work alone so no co-workers to be friends with. How can a 24 your old make friends in a new community that enjoy doing the things that I enjoy doing? And not just going to bars or sleeping around?

Eighth, wanna be my friend?

Answer 9

If you have been depressed for an extended period, seek medical help. If you have had a lot of issues with friends and family you need to examine your attitude towards life and try to figure out what it is you want out of life and start setting a few goals. Also, try to be a bit less self-centered and see what you can do to help other people, instead of be so self-obsessed.

Answer 10

Don't compare yourself to the overenergetic like that, it will only make you feel worse! Anyway, time does indeed heal all wounds, over time, as you meet more casual acquaintances, and try to get involved with them, you may be able to regather the confidence that you need to win back a social network (remember, confidence, social ties, and happiness are interlinked with one another, and the more you improve upon one, the better the others will become).

Answer 11

I really can relate to you. i took anti depressants for 10 years and now i realise that i don't need them and that it was all in my head. it is really all in changing the way you think. I am alot like you I don't really have any friends and i am not close to my family. i mean i have people that i talk to now and then ...i like to check up on people to make sure they are still alive..ya know. but now i have Jesus and i don't need the drugs to make me happy....i mean yeah its rough and i still get stressed but i find ways to release it...like cleaning...i know sounds funny, writing, drawling or even just opening up to someone to get it out. just because you hav been hurt doesn't mean you shouldn't trust anyone....you hae to give things a try. believe me i remember those days that i wish i were dead and that a car would just wreck into me while i was driving...thought that i didn't matter and that i wasn't important and that no one cared...i felt worthless...i could go on and on...but really Jesus can take it all away friend. You really do need a friend...someone you can talk to and someone you can rely on...someone to be there for you...someone you can have fun with and just be yourself. Don't give up on people. You have to learn to trust.....Good luck and God Bless....I am here if you would like to talk more about this...just email me....really don't hesitate