If I commit suicide, do you think that would make my family appreciate me?

Question

I'm tired of being hurt, & I'm tired of my own brothers & sisters, including twin sister hating me. Besides, if I died by accident, they'd make a joke & lie & say it's suicide anyway. I'm just so depressed right now. I'm tired of being unappreciated, misused, & abused & never being good enough for competitions like jobs & stuff. People tell me I don't have a right to have fun, I don't have a right to reproduce kids. I'm crazy & this & that. I'm tired of being hated, I'm tired of the grudges, I'm tired of being poor, I'm tired of my mental illness getting the best of me, & I'm tired of the doctors judging me & shoving pills down my throat. I really need help, & people ignore me & say it's a cry for attention. I wanna be normal like everyone else. My like is destroyed because of my past history. How can I forget about it?

***& Yahoo! you're pathetic & abusive to give me a VN for trying to seek help. I really don't wanna die, but my life is getting worse. Tired of struggling & stress!

Answer 1

......umm.......ok......dont do it...... i have thought about it also and you will have so much to live for once they are gone. dont let everyone else ruin your life. live it the best way you can and dont let people put you donw bye what they say or what they do. they are nobody to tell you that your cant have children or that your not good enough to be in compititions or havea job....... they only people that hater you are the people that want to be you. 1.) it is not a cry for attention. well i hope that this will help you in your hopes of finding an answer to what your are looking for, dont give up ... just live the best way you can.

Answer 2

Sweety, your life is not destroyed. You make your life everyday, and you can read about famous people with great lives that had an awful and abusive past. Then is possible.
I know what is feeling ignored, abused, with no family etc, then i understand you. I think that the best is going to live with other people,rent a room in a house, a shelter, a friend,but if your family is so abusive with you, Go out and make your life, slowly,it's very difficult for people like us but not impossible, get a job that makes you feel good, check those pills that you're taking,change your doctor that judges you ,eat healthy and nutritious food and go out of that sick point for you that it's your family.
You're talking about a mental illness,i see a clear speech,you don't seems any sick.
Cut off of being poor, abused, hated and everything you feel, doing your own life by yourself.....
You have to finish with the abuse that you feel in your family, don't allow them to dominate your life, dear..
I hope this helps, and write me if you need.
Kate.

Answer 3

They may appreciate you more, but you will not be around to reap the benefits. I have occasionally felt the same way as you, that my family doesn't care about me and would not be too concerned if I died. I don't know your folks well enough to reassure you that they really do love you. All I can tell you is that if you're not appreciated by others, then you have to take strength in your love for yourself. Your own opinion of yourself is what matters most. However, if you have really low self-esteem, you may need to talk to a therapist who will recalibrate that opinion and build you up. I'm sure you have worthwhile qualities. If you are in a competitive environment in the first place, then that suggests that you are an intelligent girl.

If you don't feel you are getting support from your current health care providers, then try examining your other options. Tell your parents that you want to switch, if they are in charge of your treatment. You are correct in that medicine alone cannot cure psychological distress; medicine treats physical symptoms, not emotional or psychological ones. Please call a mentor you trust or seek a better therapist. Also, let your family know that you're struggling and you would really appreciate if it they'd support you right now instead of derogating you. If they don't respect that, then they are the ones with a problem. Please take care of yourself.

Answer 4

We all want a normal life for some of us life just isn't the way we always pictured it to be. Depression is an uphill battle and it is very hard to overcome. I've suffered from it since I was 12 (now I'm 27) and it took me years to get it under control. I've been on almost every anti-depressant that exist and it took over 10 years for the doctors to find one that actually worked for me. Coming from someone been where you are at now and who has landed herself in the hospital twice getting her stomach pumped, suicide is not the answer. When I tried to kill myself, I didn't think that anyone would care either. My dad even cared which was a shocker to me because he had ended his relationship with me years before because I didn't fit into this "new family".People do care. I care. As a matter of fact, you would probably be someone that I'd hang out with since we have some of the same things in common and not too far apart in age. Depression can get better and just because you have it, doesn't mean that you will have to be on anti-depressants for the rest of your life. I have been anti-depressant free for about 4 years now. Rid yourself of all the negitive people in your life and stand up for yourself. I see my sister once a year on Christmas and she lives only 10 miles away from me because she's such a wicked little monster who runs her mouth and says some of the most down right rude things to everyone she encounters. It is one thing to be a nice, sweet person but it is another thing to be someone's doormat. If you rid yourself of the people who put you down and start standing up for yourself, you will be happier.The sad part about society today is that it seems like the nicer you are as a person, the more you get dumped on. It sounds like you don't like your doctors very much. Have you thought about seeing someone else? Have they tried you on Lexapro yet? That was the one that worked for me and it worked pretty well for other people that I know. It also works for anxiety disorder. I've seen your Yahoo! 360 page and I realize that you live in the next county from me. If you want, I might be able to help you find some resources to help your situation. My e-mail is [e-mail]

Answer 5

There's a good book out called "Real Magic" by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer. He teaches you how to achieve happiness, health, success and prosperity in daily life through positive thinking and action. Perhaps you can turn your thoughts around get out of your rut. He has a lot of good ideas to ease the struggling and stress.

It's really important to keep up with your medication. It doesn't seem to be working right now. Maybe your doctor needs to change it. Tell him about your suicidal thoughts and perhaps he can put you on something else that works.

I have major depression and I take Wellbutrin 300 mg and Zoloft 200 mg. It has taken my depression away for 4 years now. But I still remember how horrible I felt when I was lost in depression. Everything seems hopeless. We are here to help you as much as we can. Good luck!

Answer 6

Sounds to me like you need a little God in your life. I feel that if you put more energy into how you can change things instead of how you feel,that would be a good start. Stop worrying about anyone else right now. Not their opinions of you, how you look, how you act, what you have done or haven't done. Just think of the changes you need to make in yourself. Try talking to God. It's amazing how when we ask Him and work with Him, good things begin to happen. If you're as desperate as you sound, at this point it surely couldn't hurt. Keep your distance from other people right now. The time alone with yourself and God is what you need. Maybe if you start to feel and see changes in your life that are positive others will see that in you too. It's a pretty good feeling to hear somebody say, wow look at her, something about her is starting to shine. In a lot of situations you get what you dish out. Take some time to understand that. You can't put the blame on any one person, you have to be responsible for the happiness in your life nobody can give it to you. I hope this gave you hope.

Answer 7

So many people are like you believe it or not I suffer from massive depression and the only thing that keeps me holding on is the fact I have a child to live for. It's hard to really give you advice but I often put my negativity into words and it makes me feel better. Have you thought about writing a journal then every once in a while looking back on your feelings it really does help. Even though you may not feel as if you can help it but try to tune out all negativities and let no one make you feel as though you cannot accomplish your dreams. It's hard feeling as though you are the only one that shares your mind frame because there are plenty of people out there who need someone to reach out to. Be your own best friend. Look out for number one because I have finally grown to learn that there aren't too many people who will not put themselves first. I am starting a website soon for angry, depressed, lonely, and heartbroken people hopefully you will find your way there but don't kill yourself because now in days once you are gone it's all most a fact that life moves on.

Answer 8

It would be good for you if you are able to let go of what other people think of you. The important person here is you. You matter! If to no other person but yourself. You need to be kind to yourself and say nice things TO YOURSELF instead of all the things you THINK you have failed upon. Find a way of finding things that make YOU feel good. Whether just a walk in the sunshine with your dog. Having a nice drink of coffee under a shady tree. The more you add to your day the more you will feel and learn to be happier and then others will not be important for your well-being and happiness. Best wishes to you as you deserve to be free!!

Answer 9

You are not alone and your life is not destroyed. You feel very down right now and you don't think you can go on. Know that eventually, everything will make sense and your life will have meaning finally. The people who criticize you, make nasty comments, show no compassion,... Remember that they are doing the best they can. These people are very limited, not you. And they will always try to bring you down. That's what they do. That 's all they can do. Just remember that. You have much more potential. You are above all that. and one day, it will all make sense.

"Everything can be taken from a man but ...the last of the human freedoms - to choose
one's attitude in any given set of circumstances, to choose one's own way." (Victor E. Frankl)

Answer 10

Do you realize that most of what you are feeling and thinking is driven by depression? That maybe your perceptions of the world are colored by depression? That everyone doesn't hate you?

Work with your psychiatrist on the medication and keep pushing until something works. Don't give up on it. If you have been trying a bunch of antidepressants, then if your doc starts taking stabilizers, give it a shot. Sometimes they work on depression where antidepressants don't.

Also, get a therapist. They are a great asset. They help us sort the stuff of life and mental illness in a way that others can't and that no one can do on their own.

~bipolar

Answer 11

Well honestly suicide is not the answer. It's something that you just shouldn't make an option. You're tough obviously, so you can push through this. I know some horrible cases of depression, I am one of those horrible cases...i know what it's like when doctors refuse to really listen. I know what it's like to be somewhat like you. There are some ways around this chaos. You haev to first take a step back from yourself, and see which tactics you can make to get to the objective where you're going to. Proove everyone wrong. They don't matter. Those who love you, will be around, and if you havn't found a loved one yet, so be it...stick around so you can find one. Just sick in there.