Please help! I can't stop cutting?

Question

i just cant stop, i have no more stress, pain or depression in my life... or so you could say, i no longer want to be gone from the world... my only friend from kindergarden cuts too, the rest of my "friends" do it too; only all them feel pain when they do it! i feel no pain before or after i do it, i just feel guilt when they see the scars because i tend to write words into myself. when i feel the guilt i just want to do it more, i cant tell my parents because both will knock the living sh*t out of me and i dont trust counslers because of previous problems which started the cutting in the first place,

I was sexual abused and cut as a way of punishing myself
I have major anger issues and feel no one understands me and am afraid to tell people i have a problem so i cut to get rid of the pain
I also just cut to get rid of all the pain in my life,
as for a counsler, when i finally got out i was more ****** up than before plus right now my parents dont have the money
my mom also believes im a failer because of other issuses of being a lesbian so i cant tell her
my dad says anyone who hurts themselves is plain stupid and should have the sh*t knocked out of them also he thinks im too affraid of pain to do it
i have tried plenty of orginazions for help but all said that im too set on hurting myself to be help!
and dont EVEN mention GOD because i am satanic not by any means christian

im not anton levey satanic that is just bullsh*t im another satanic that is actual truth

Answer 1

Self Harm Hotline

1-800-DONTCUT

Help for "cutters"

Answer 2

first you need to move apart from your "friends"..it's not healthy for you to be around them especially if you want to stop..
why is this such a phenomenon now?..i used to self-harm and who knows maybe others around me did...but it wasn't a topic to discuss it was hush-hush and scary to talk about even with a best-friend...now i hear so many young kids saying "my friend cuts how do i help her?" or "i cut and so do my friends"...
hmm...no wonder why people are starting to say kids only do it for attention [no offense to you b/c i have no idea about your personal life] but...you know...i can see why people say that now...
and b/c of this phenomenon i at times have to think twice about wearing short sleeves even though i am completely over it...[its been 2 years since i quit]

and HJG doesn't know much about people who self-harm
many people who self-harm self harm b/c they probably never interacted with anyone on an emotional level or are having thoughts they can't control and are very paranoid...
some people have been sexual abused and self-harm as a way of punishing themselves b/c of what they have been through and are afraid.
some self-harm b/c they have major anger issues and feel no one understands or are afraid to tell people they have a problem so they harm themselves in order to ignore the situation and thoughts all together...
and there are some who self-harm to ignore all the other pains they may be having whether they are physical or emotional...
most [maybe all] are thinking irrationally and can't decipher from what is right and what is wrong...many can't think straight and even if they do sit there and tell themselves it's stupid and wrong they can't stop b/c it feels like a drug when they get the adrenaline rush every time they cut or burn themselves...it helps them not to think just like how drugs help others to escape reality and i am sure many drug abusers know what they are doing is wrong it's that many of them fear admitting a problem and leaving the addiction which they feel is making the feel "good"...b.c they don't believe that the people around them can make them better...and so on
and yes there are a small minority which i think is growing larger that self-harm purely for attention...

Answer 3

You need to find some new friends during this part of your life -- when you live with people that enable you, it causes a sick cycle which just makes you dive deeper into it. I've been in that situation, and as much as no one wants to admit, the 'i out did them' thing happens. OR, you end up so entrenched in their problems, it bogs you down too.

You won't stop cutting if you don't see a therapist, it's simple as that. If you are seriously ready to quit cutting, to try and make things better, then you need to find a better therapist, and if possible, one that specializes in self-injury.

Your parents will have to know eventually, but if you dont feel comfortable, tell them with a therapist present so they can answer any of their questions and difuse the situation.

Sweetie, you can't stop alone. You need to reach out, if you are truly ready to try and heal yourself. It's hard as ****, I know this.... but, thats what needs to be done

Answer 4

No problems eh!
Just cut yourself for no reason.

Maybe you should tell your parents.

On the other hand.

Try a little Self-Inflected Shock Therapy.

You begin by telling yourself that you aren't in kindergarden anymore.

You tell yourself "Enough is enough!"

You tell yourself "I am grateful that I have parents who care."

You tell yourself "I am responsible for how I think, and feel, and behave."

You say to yourself "Stop focusing on you! Stop being so selfish that you think the world turns around you. You don't need to cut yourself to be different."

You say to yourself "Just making this decision proves that I am a person of value and I am responsible for myself"

Go do some community work to focus on others.

http://themeaningisyou.com

Answer 5

Find a new counselor. You desperately need help to understand why you're doing this. You need a professional, and your friends do, too. You can't do this alone. A counselor can help, sometimes the first couple aren't right for you, but that means you have got to keep looking.

Answer 6

I am a "recovering" self-injurer, so I sympathize.
I can't really post in depth right now (my kids are kind of hovering nearby and I'm very tired).
But there are a couple of sites that might be helpful.

The second one is religious but still very educational and encouraging.

(((((many hugs)))))

Oh, and one thing that helps me- as silly as it may sound, it to wear a rubber band on my wrist and whenever I'd get a stubborn urge, I'd "snap" it. It's not dangerous or disfiguring and is sometimes just enough to get me through.

Answer 7

We can't help you here, it is impossible for us to do anything. You are going to have to tell your parents, or an adult that you trust. Usually the only way to treat your condition is with therapy and/or medications.

There are good councelors out there and it will help you to be able to talk to them. Of course, I don't know your family, and it is possible that they may get angry with you. But I am a mom, and I think it more likely that your mother will do anything in her power to help you. Sometimes it is hard for kids to know or see how much their parents love them.

In the same way that all of us want to help you, trust me, you are surrounded by adults who also will do anything they can to help you.

Answer 8

You need to be a big girl, and talk to ur parents or a counsler despite whatever problems you had in the past.

You don't want to end up dead.

Only u can save urself.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/self-injury/DS00775/DSECTION=3

Answer 9

See if there is a crisis center in your community. You know this is wrong and dangerous and realize there is an underlying cause which needs to be dealt with as well.

Answer 10

ok hun, now what you gotta do is see a phsyciatrist ok, keep talkin to ppl, just because a few havent worked out for you doesnt mean one wont, so you gotta keep trying. now what you do also is when you feel like cutting yourself, go do your hobbie, like if you play keyboard play your keyboard, if you rollerblade go rollerblading, if you play basketball or any sport go do that, do NOT cut yourself when you feel like it, turn to your hobbie and keep telling yourself not to cut yourself, keep tellin yourself that, and most importantly, do not give up on it, it will take a while to get into that habbit but never get up ok hun, trust me, i have hurt myself too, ive scratched my face all up, i have the nails to cut myself and thats what i used, i scratched my face, i cut my arm over 4 months ago and i have a scar, cuz i just have those nails to do it, and i bruised my own head with my own fist, and everything and i made everyone worry bout me. now how i got outta that was thinkin bout the ones i loved and how much i dont wanna make them worry, i also have hobbies, and i also talk to friends and a counselor. you gotta give ppl a chance to help you. and you gotta give yourself a chance to get outta the habbit. dont ever ever give up on yourself or anybody. give yoursel and the counselor/pshyciatrist a chance ok, and if they dont work, keep trying someone else. find a new friend who doesnt cut him or herself, find one that would be a true friend and help you get out of it. cuz having friends like you do wont help the cituation, trust me on that. plus, friends that i have that use to cut themselves came to me and i helped them get outta it. if you need help, just ask me ok. im here for ppl who need help.