I just got done writing in my journal and i couldnt stop writing and this is what ended up coming out and i didnt realize i felt this way. please dont think it's meant to offend anyone, these are just my feelings i guess.. and a lot of anger. i am at a loss.. the end of my rope.. i didnt realize how much hatred i had.. i used to believe and love god... please dont take offense, these are just my feelings right now. the entry is filled with swearing and i dont feel like editing so im sure a lot will be starred out and the words that aren't censored, i am sorry for that. please help me.
I can’t wait to leave this world.. But I know it’s no paradise that I will be enetering afterwards. Just more pain. That’s how the christian god is. People who experience the hell on earth, are also condemned to an eternity of hell. **** you god. I’m tired of your games. You are nothing. I call myself weak… but really, it’s the weak who feel the need to believe in you, put their hope into you… and believe that you really give two cunting shits. I hate you.. I hate you for everything. You are just as bad as satan himself… but at least satan has the balls to live up to his name you ******* coward. You ego is enough to make me sick.. You died on the cross out of love??? Then why do you demand worship? Unconditional love?? Oh, a love that I am incapable of grasping?? Last time I checked unconditional meant that your love is pure, perfect, and UN ******* CONDITIONAL. Your form of love is sending people that don’t WORSHIP you to an eternal, burning hell? I don’t need your ******* love… I don’t even want to see my worst enemy tortured for eternity so how can people say you are love? You are vengeful and hateful. **** your free will. You’re ego is bigger than any love you could possibly give. I would die for the people I love, too so what makes you so ******* special? And those people that I love and would die for.. Just because they didn’t worship me and follow my rules, I would never turn them away from an eternity of paradise. You gave satan reign over this world.. And the people I love.. I certainly wouldn’t “test” their loyalty and put them trough HELL so they could be “used” for a greater purpose. I don’t believe in your definition of love.. And anymore.. It’s hard to believe in you. And by the way, your people give you a really bad name. I hope your proud of what you have created. Hatred and agony. Cindy is the only true person I know.. But still, I wonder about the judgemet I see in her. Why is it so hard for your people to remember, enforce and comprehend your word that clearly states that sin is sin and there is no sin greater than another. Your people are the biggest hypocrites in today’s society.. They can’t even unite and agree on you or your word.. So who is right? The Baptists? The Pentecostals? Catholics? Mormons? JW’s, Apostolic’s? I’m sick and tired of you and your empty promises.
2007-09-15 22:44:21 · 17 answers · asked by Anonymous in Society & Culture ➔ Religion & Spirituality
If we were made in his image and perfectness... how did man screw up??? and if heaven is so perfect.. then how did satan screw up in there and be cast out???
2007-09-15 23:15:51 · update #1
I didn't forget islam and scientology, i was leaning more towards the different denominations and christ.. not tom cruise and allah.
2007-09-15 23:19:35 · update #2
heh, you speak of and to this "god" like he/she/it is real.
what is real is...there is no god to hear, or help you.
2007-09-15 22:51:58 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 3⤋
I didn't need to read the whole thing...and to be honest, I couldn't. Too much profanity. It's okay, really, I understand your frustration.
There's always hope for you...but it's something you need to work out for yourself. I can't advise you one way or another. But I think you lack understanding of Christianity.
In all truth, what I DID read of that journal entry reminds me of things I myself wrote (even with the profanity) right before I became an atheist.
But I didn't STAY an atheist. My advice to you? Read everything you can get your hands on. Read Michael Behe (Darwin's Black Box), then read Dawkins' The Blind Watchmaker. Read "The God Delusion" and read "The Dawkins Delusion." Read books by Lee Strobel, Josh McDowell, Ralph Muncaster, William Lane Craig, Norman Geisler, and John P Ashton, Ph.D. You also might want to give C.S. Lewis a try, he wrote several awesome books on Christianity.
Overall, if you have any questions, feel free to email me at farkas419@yahoo.com. Just make sure you let me know that you're from Yahoo Answers. I wish you the very best of luck, and I'll be praying for you.
2007-09-16 00:18:36 · answer #2 · answered by The_Cricket: Thinking Pink! 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
My friend, don't worry about me and am not offended and please be assured that non has been taken. But i believe your anger is vent on the wrong aspect, don't seek god but rather let him seek you, don't look at religion for God didn't make one, don't listen to this promises because they are being told by just mere men. would you believe that these things that you are asking is a start, that these hatred in you has an opposite of infinite quantity. yes, nobody could really define what true love is. by the way, have you seen the movie god's must be crazy. indeed, there is something wrong on how he created the world. imagine he put the Indian in the hottest region of the earth and then covered them with hair all over their body both boys and girls. imagine the song of john Lennon "imagine" to be correct and right. and lastly, be aware that there are other means of living your life and that thru it alone you can experience life to the fullest, anger and hatred will always be there but it is on how you suppress these feelings that counts. coz, thru it you can experience true love and sacrifice and mind you it is a great feeling and highly addictive. By the way, you forgot to mention Islam and Scientology.
2007-09-15 23:16:50 · answer #3 · answered by Rynald 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Hope is an attribution, now not a truth. (Some persons's hopes are different persons's fears, so there is not any truly or absolute "desire", simply as there is not any absolute "well" or "evil"). Therefore it isn't technological know-how's industry to furnish desire. It will have to, obviously, be faith's industry to furnish desire - this inspiration of a constructive long term. Nevertheless, obviously evolution will also be mentioned to deliver a few desire with it - the replacing of matters to satisfy environmental or developmental demanding situations ought to obviously be a hopeful factor in the event you occur to be a member of an evolving species, as we're. Also of path as you and different rightly factor out, evolutionary technological know-how has stored an identifiable, quantifiable quantity of lives. Whereas desire manifested by way of prayer...good, it will have stored lives too, however it is a very sketchy subject precisely what number of persons beat sickness through harnessing prayer vigor. So I suppose technological know-how wins within the desire stakes.
2016-09-05 15:49:07 · answer #4 · answered by ? 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I pray that God will give you hope and free you from the slavery of so much anger and pain that is being caused to you.
I was freed from a slavery by Jesus. Cling to Jesus and your anger will disappear because the evil inside cannot tolerate God. Take care that you dont flee from God, but cling on to Jesus, since He has won the victory on the cross, resist the anger within you.
The blood of Jesus will cure you. Amen.
Jesus says:-
He said to them, "Go!" So they came out and went into the pigs, and the whole herd rushed down the steep bank into the lake and died in the water. Mt 8:32 - Show Context
2007-09-15 23:10:07 · answer #5 · answered by Brinda 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Lots of people are mad at God right now. It is no big deal.
You are not going to hell because there is no such place.
None of the religions have it right. All of them--all of them make God an idiot fool ego-maniac. A description better fitting the behaviors of men, women, and some children nowadays.
Try reading the first three volumes of Conversations with God very critically for answers to all the nonsense that we humans engage in and why.
2007-09-15 23:08:21 · answer #6 · answered by Starte Christ 4 · 0⤊ 1⤋
..."religion" has poisoned your spirit... God is not about "religion"... He's about a relationship with you... relax, God knows what you are going thru... consider reading the Book of Job and see what Job went through... it wasn't pretty. The consider reading the Book of John and get to know Him again... you'll be Ok... God hasn't abandon you..."religion" has... Have some hope and faith and God will "clean up" the crap the the World has dumped in your spirit... He did for me.... He can do it for you...
2007-09-15 22:54:06 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
you just wrote the truth. why would an all-loving god let satan have a chance to control us? he wouldn't.
it's all made up.
everyone questions this at some point, so don't think you're alone. i hope you realize that christianity isn't real though. out of all the other religions, why would this one be correct?
out of all the people in the world for god to talk to, why would it be abraham? or noah? or moses? etc...it's just a bunch of crazy people talking to themselves.
2007-09-15 22:54:57 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I hear your frustration and anger.. these untruths have been foisted on human kind for a long time.......let all the conflict go.... ...Very emotionally draining process you have just come through. Now take the time to be kind to yourself...take a walk in the park.. relax...have faith in yourself.. The only damnation is our own mind.
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Not a religious person..
May You and All That Live Be Well and Happy....
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2007-09-15 23:05:52 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
God didn't say that if you didn't worship him or read the bible, you'd go to hell. Don't believe the crap that most of the people spew, that if you're going to hell if you don't do what they tell you to. It's just wrong.
Just ask yourself "Do I love God and believe in Him". I understand what you're going through because I've been through stuff like that before.
2007-09-15 22:57:41 · answer #10 · answered by Legendary_Slacker 2 · 0⤊ 1⤋
Stop
Settle
Believe what you want to believe. You sound like my daughter who felt there were so many freaking expectations on her. The expectations didn't exist but she felt they were there.
You sound torn by the expectations of others. Don't be, set your own expectations and work to improve them over time.
Take a breath and decide what you want from life, not from God or from anyone else.
2007-09-15 22:57:01 · answer #11 · answered by Quandary 7 · 1⤊ 1⤋