i want to cut!?

Question

I started cutting when i was 13 now im almost 15. At first noone noticed, then i got caught. i had to see all these doctors and therapists and do all that b.s when i know a lot of other teens do it and get away with it. I was even insulted by the director of my school district because he said he had never seen "arms as mutilated as mine in his entire 30 years working with kids". So my mom was ordered to take away all the sharp things in the house and i gave my stash to her but i used my braces to cut instead. Then a few weeks ago i cut and i got caught by my mom but i lied and said it was just a scab. i REALLY need to cut! therapy, medicine, and hiding sharp stuff never works because im truly addicted to cutting and i always find ways to cut. this isnt fair because the doctors are saying ill get better if i stop cutting but actually im miserable without it and i get caught everytime even if i try to hide it cuz my mom inspects my arms, legs, and stomach every chance she gets.

Answer 1

Parents and teachers have a way of being insulting, not understanding in the slightest, and making things worse all at the same time... been there done that. Cutting is a coping mechanism - eventually you'll quit but you'll do it when *you're* ready to - not just because they say you need to stop, especially if you start doing something else to channel that energy. Try painting a picture of yourself and then ripping it up, try tearing something up, try writing down how you feel before you want to cut - really it's more important to find out why you want to do it than to do it. With people putting you under a microscope and treating you like a criminal I can imagine that's stressing you out even more - cutting is only going to make that attention worse, if you want it to stop you'll have to stop cutting for a little while, at least.

Stopping because you want the people in your life to stop acting wierd isn't really giving in either, its making a mature choice to do what's best for yourself. Besides, with all that energy you put into cutting you could be doing something really cool with your time - something you can be great at and proud of and better yourself!

"a life unexamined is a life unworthy of living."

Answer 2

so i have been cutting now for almost five years,
and i know what you mean by being addicted to it.

try keeping a rubber band around your wrist,
and just snap it every time you feel the need to cut.
thats what i do.

i mean i know you cant just stop cutting altogether,
but try snapping the band more often than cutting.

my mom just found out last november,
and she was checking my wrists like all the time,
but after a month or so she gave up,
and then i started again.

the doctors cant say that youll get better if you stop,
becuase they dont know what its like.
for that month that i couldnt cut,
it made everything worse.
every day i wanted to more than the day before.

im trying to stop,
becuase its a horrible thing to be addicted to,
but itll probobly take years to get over it.

but you should try to do it less and less,
untill eventually you dont have the need at all.


i have no idea if this will help you,
but yeahh.
:/

Answer 3

I understand why you do not want to stop. it is because you feel better afterwords. The thing is that no one can stop you ..... But now your being watched and "inspected" It is not socially acceptable behavior, and people who love you want to protect you and have you stop.
Be honest with them, tell them , and see what they say? I do not agree that they should be doing that to you. It is a compulsive behavior and very hard to stop once you have learned how it feels afterwords, even if it is just temporary relief.
You are going to get many negative responses on here, just because people do not understand how anyone could hurt themselves.... There might be a few good answers here for you, notice the good answers.... They will be from people who have actually done self harm or still do it .... Trust me, I do know where you are coming from.

Answer 4

ive been there..ive done that. and i know how hard it is.
i seriously think you should go into a facility just for a bit. maybe learn some other ways or thing to channel your hurt or frustration or whatever emotion that is making you cut into. if you can learn some other coping techniques then you are halfway there.
talk to your mum, explain that maybe its the cutting that is keeping you here, and it is something you cant be without for now. tell her that you dont feel ready to stop yet, but with her help you might be able to.
go to a variety of psychologists...get a varied opinion. get your mum to do some research on the web. help her understand that you cant just stop, and its not right of her to expect that.
its going to be a long hard stuggle
good luck honey

Answer 5

I'm sorry you feel that way. My daughters and I were talking about this just the other day. I wish I had an answer for you. There must be something you're missing if you're filling it up with cutting yourself.

Your mom is just trying to help you by looking. I know if you were my kiddo, I would look too. I pay very close attention to both of my children and we do a lot of things together because I don't want them to feel as though I dont love them and care about them.

-Em

Answer 6

Ha. ok. Are you crazy! Why would you want to treat your body like this... I think its funny that your mom inspects your arms and stuff cuz she loves you. And my mom use to do that to me, she is a cop and she was worried that I was drinking with my friends so I would have to stand before her every night when i got home and she would smell my breath. I know its weird but understandable. And don't cut yourself, are you trying to get attention for something is there something going on in your life that you need to get out of you and the only way you can express it is by hurting yourself. If so please seek help from a psychologist to help figure out your thoughts or something cuz it sounds like you need some sort of attention. Sorry if this sounds rude its just how i feel about the situation and you are asking our opions so there's mine. Good Luck.

Answer 7

Maybe you need a different therapist. Don't be angry with your mother for being concerned, most kids your age would kill for a parent who cares as much as your mother seems to. Ask for a different therapist, that may help you. Also, one of the previous answers to this was right, you should find something you enjoy to do (other than cutting), you need to find things to keep your mind of such terrible behavior. You may need ot be on anti-depressants, it doesn't hurt to try. The doctors are right, if you stop and keep your self occupied and happy, you shouldn't want to return to that behavior. Just keep faith, and try to stop. It isn't helping you, its killing you.

Answer 8

You really do need a different therapist, specialists in Self Injury know not to take away the ability to cut from their patients, but rather help them to find alternatives and work on the underlying issues, it sounds like your therapist is not someone who knows how to help with SI.

Answer 9

Why don't you just cut your hair? Have at it! I know (actually, I don't) it's not like the real thing, but maybe you just need to relieve stress.
Ask your doctors for a stress-relief pill or tear a pillow apart. When someone asks you why the [CENSORED] you're doing that, tell them you're stressed and needed to calm down.
Write down your thoughts in a journal, get high on sharpies [G!gGL3]!

Answer 10

The reason you want to cut is because of the body's natural pain killer called endorphin. But yeah you really should stop cutting your self one of the cuts could get infected and so one. Try chewing gum when you feel the need to cut.