am i still an unrecovered anorexic???

Question

heylo.I am 15. I am 5'7" and Weigh 123 lbs(Ewwww). 2 years ago, i was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa, and hospitalised,for this,and other things. ive been very depressed lately, and last week, i looked in the mirror, and was horrified to see a pouf of fat hang from my jeans! i paniced and fasted for two days. but i look in the mirror and hate what i see. if, i do eat, i eat very small portions, and i limit my calorie intake. i want to lose weight VERY BADLY. and i feel like i felt two years ago.PLZ HELP! am i back to my old anorexic ways???
PS:
I have a therapist, i am on medications for depression and anxiety.i havent gone to therapy in almost a month.im scheduled to see her this friday.

Answer 1

You could just be having a temporary relapse moment. Recovery from an eating disorder is incredibly difficult, so nobody is expecting you to be able to 'just get over it'.
If you can, remind yourself of why it is that you recovered in the first place. What things happened to make you realize the good in other things? It could be different for you, I'm talking from my own strategies, so I'm sorry if they don't quite relate directly to you.
You obviously are still fighting against this, as you made the step of asking for help, which is a very good thing. And to have made it this far you're strong, so remember that. Keep fighting against it, definitely talk to your therapist about it on Friday and in the meantime surround yourself with anything that could possibly raise your spirits or distract yourself positively, like friends or something.
Like I said, talk to your therapist about it, she'll do the best to help figure out whats going on and help you through it. :) If it is a slight relapse, it doesn't mean you 'failed at recovery' (term I use on myself, sorry) at all. You've got the strength in you to make it as far as you have now, so I have faith that you have that strength in you still. Keep hope (easier said than done at times, i'm aware, but it *is* possible) if things seem to get down, talk to you therapist and whoever else you feel the need to.
I wish you well on Friday! Good luck :)

Answer 2

Hi. Well I'm near your age so i understand what you're going through. I would suggest the book "You On A Diet". It basically tells you how to eat properly, and work out properly, without starving yourself. I lost weight where i wanted to (thighs and stomach) yet i still eat everything i want. You have to realize that starvation isn't the answer. Every study pretty much has shown that people who starve themselves to lose weight often gain it back and then some. Recovery from anorexic is a difficult process and long. You can't just stop one day and be cured forever. If you're really motivated to not be anorexic, make a change in your life. Fill your day with activities and people who actually care about your health (I know it sounds so dumb and easy, but it works) If you haven't already done so, tell your parents/guardians. Once they know, they should be motivated to prevent you from not eating. If you eat properly, you don't have to count calories, or worry about gaining weight. Try just once a day and eat a normal portion sized meal, or just one thing you wouldn't normal eat each day. For example, add in one snack a day. Once that habit is normal, add something else. I think you'll be able to beat this. Think about the rewards in the end vs the negative aspects of starving yourself.
(+)More self confidence
Happiness
a healthy LONG lifestyle
you feel great about yourself, vs always hating your body and wanting it to be something else

(-) If you starve yourself for years, your life expectance drops 10 years.
you'll get acne
you'll get weak
you'll still never feel confident with yourself
you won't be active
your hair falls out
your skin will become a dullish gray color
and most of all you risk dying young.

If nothing above seems to motivate you enough, look into anorexic rehab clinics. Good luck.

Answer 3

You are just having a mental relapse and need encouragement again to continue your recovery process. It takes time to fully recover so it'll be ok again. It's esp hard when you are continually bombarded by the media and some ppl's perception of being thin or even skinny as the way to be. As you may or may not know that a ban of under aged waif models may be in effect for instance and already swimsuit models were asked to gain a few pounds also to look healthier and better. Hopefully one day you can see for yourself that you are ok just the way you are. At least you are still making an effort to at least do something about it this Fri.

Answer 4

When i was eighteen, i dropped down to 105, in three months, from 160..actually, I went outside to color my hair with my sister, and it was sunny outside and we were wearing bikini's...I guess I had lost weight so fast, that I could only always see my self as fat, but that day, I looked in the mirror, and I was aghast, at the person standing there, bones hanging out etc..I was the same way as you...counting every calorie, getting a new attention, for my new fantastic figure (till it got sickly) and watched every thing I ate, and did excersice all the time after I ate ANYTHING, so I wouldn't gain the weight..well, that day changed me...I fell so horibble, and thought about others who would kill for that food I was throwing out...and I started eating...I put on about fifteen lbs, and still had a fantastic figure. I almost killed myself, but luckily, caught it in time..I was a lucky one...I prayed for help and God Helped me through that one, I was sick for eight months. Please, ask God to give you strength, don't abuse your body like that..and that is just what it is..abuse..just as bad as eating too much..if people dont like you with a few extra pounds on? the hell with them!!

Answer 5

I would talk to your parents now, or call your theapist now and tell her how you feel now. Don't wait.