No one i know can take anymore. i either burden them or cut them out im not living & i am going 2 have 2 die?

Question

i was diagnosed with fibromyalgia 9 years ago and i am suffering from severe depression and i want to die. i have a major dependency issue where i cant be alone and i just constantly ask people for help or a cure over and over again. my best friend of 8 years told me he could take no more of me cos im messing him up

Im incapable of friends right now cos all i wanna do is talk about my problems all the time (literally for hours for answers or help and then convince them that i have to kill myself.) In truth i have no interest in what's going on for them and just feel jealous when they talk about their lives. i am a selfish horrible person - i truly dont feel like i care about anything or anyone else it is like i am incapable of feeling. Individually each one is leaving my life as they cant deal with the pressure of me and them leaving proves how crap i am . My parents i live with are going away next week and i know that will be the final straw.

I am completly alone and have 2 die

really good answer about askin someone to stay but thats the problem ive reached a point where no one can stand to be around me. and yes im under a psychiatrist already and suicide line makes no diff but thx 4 suggestin

Answer 1

You don't want to die. You are a precious person. But you really should be under a Psychiatrist at the moment, on a regular basis.

When your parents go away, Ask someone to stay with you,or go and stay with a relative.

I hope you have told your parents about this fear of them going away. If not, you must tell them how you are feeling, and also see the Psychiatrist as soon as possible.

Answer 2

You know that there are other people who are getting on with their lives, instead of letting their negative experiences rule.

You have a lot of negative experience, but by being 'selfish' about these experiences (talking about your problems all the time) you prolong your own mental pain.

You might gain a lot of relief from 'Cognitive Therapy'. It's a bit like your description of your own life, except you talk about your problems with a trained professional, instead of doing it with friends who can be easily persuaded, intimidated, or emotionally manipulated.

You are probably very intelligent, and that would make it easy for you to "convince them that I have to kill myself". You've spent a lot of time practising these skills (almost like it's your only hobby), so you must be very good at them by now. Somebody who is trained in this kind of conversation would be much harder to convince. They might even know some persuasive tricks that you don't. It would give you more of a challenge, anyway. You might find that you enjoy it. Enjoy.

You are lying when you say that you "truly" don't care. Your question is full of anguish about the thought of being alone. Being jealous when you hear of other people's lives, is another sign that you really care very much. The best cure for jealousy is competition. Outdo the people whose lives make you jealous.

You have proved that you can succeed. You have power to affect other people. You produce strong reactions, even from people who have known you for a long time. You can choose how to use your power.

You can use this power to make others happy, and by doing this, you will become 'infected' with happiness. It isn't a cure for the problems that you have got, but it will make them less difficult to deal with.

Answer 3

You need to go to counseling. You can get into a group counseling as well.
Further, you should tell your parents how you feel.

http://www.fibromyalgia-symptoms.org/QA/

above is a fibromyalgia forum.. you can talk to fellow sufferers. You also need to tell your doctor what is going on. Depression aggravates your symptoms so it needs to be controlled.

There's a huge difference between thinking that you are crap and having a disease that you didn't choose. There are drugs and therapy that will help you with the depression so you can get involved in things with your friends. You are obsessing and consumed by this and need to get help to work your way out of it.

I wish you luck. Don't kill yourself.. at least try all of the other possiblities beforehand. TALK TO SOMEONE NOW

Answer 4

Being as you are expressing all the negatives in your life, perhaps it may be time to find some of the positives that set you out from many others. You may have to look deeply to find them but they are there. Just hidden from you.

It seems that anyone having difficulties within their life, actually has another ability they are gifted with. When looking at your situation from that stand point, you may actually discover a talent you have been overlooking all this time. Only because you have allowed your mind to dwell on the difficult and negative aspects of your life.

You may be over looking the ability to be of help to others. In your own special way.. You may even delve into the problem you are afflicted with and come up with some spontaneous answer for a different treatment for it.. One never knows their capabilities until they start looking for them. Not to allow them to be drowned out by all the negatives we so often allow to run out lives.

Answer 5

Please, if you are in the UK, try finding your local Mind association:

http://www.mind.org.uk/Mind+in+your+area/

if you ring them now and they are open you will be able to go and talk to someone.

They will listen to you and they will know the best thing to advise to get urgent medical assistance in your area.

Also ring your surgery and ask for an urgent appointment to see your GP - you may have to sit and wait but you should be able to see someone today.

All your feelings point to how distressed and emotionally fragile you are - but this is because of the illness you are suffering from - not because you are a bad person.

I know what it is like to be so wrapped up in your own feelings that you don't or can't think of anything else. To people who haven't suffered they see this as you being selfish, but you aren't you are being self-centred and that is different.

You have reasons for not being able to listen to others or feel that you care about anything else. It is not because you are selfish or horrible - just in need of help and support.

Please try what I've suggested.

If you can find your local Mind it will also give you a safe place to go while your parents are away.

Hope this helps.

Answer 6

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Answer 7

sweetie8e this is the saddest thing i have read, you are not a horrible person and do not deserve to die, you can't go on feeling this way, is there not a professional person you can talk to as feelings like this need to be dealt with professionally, i think you need to talk to your parents they might be able to help you, but i don't think you should be on your own with feelings like this, you may hate this suggestion but if your parents have to go away you can admit your self to hospital, yes you will likely be sectioned under the mental health act but your life is precious and does need preserving, you do need help and i think you deserve to have a life that is free from this pain you are in so consider it an option for your own safety, if you can't seek help for what ever reason please remember that if you do something silly to hurt yourself imagine how your friends and family will feel if you are gone, they will be devastated I'm sure you are a much loved person and they would hate to see anything happen to you, not to mention the guilt they will feel at not being able to help you. please get some help for these feelings, you deserve a life and can have one with the correct help. your severe depression is affecting your life and really needs to be treated and i think once you have tackled your depression you will be able to see that you are not a bad person and you can be the loving good friend that you once were. good luck honey my thoughts are with you.

Answer 8

Have you thought about seeing a therapist or a councillor? You can talk to them for as long as you like without having to listen to any of their problems in return. It might make you feel better to unload and at the same time, take some of the pressure off your parents and friends. x

Answer 9

It's part of your insecurity that's making you drive people away. You feel worthless and expect no one to like you, so you push them away until they prove your point. You're using your loneliness and depression as a kind of comfort blanket.

Basically, you need to realise what you're doing. Only you can change your behaviour and alter your life.

Are you on anti-depressants? If so, it might be a good idea to change either the dosage or the tablets themselves.

Answer 10

my friend...when the hour is the darkest,..you have God almighty and Jesus to turn to..They are the ones who will help you, because with the Lord, all things are possible...You aren't a selfish horrible person, you are just in an endless rut...give yourself to the Lord, and your eyes will open, and your problems will be solved..when you live for God, and for Jesus, you learn to have the faith that no matter what is dished out to you, you know that God has the master plan, and will take care of you...you learn not to question what is going on right now...maybe this is what is happening to you...He is calling,..and you just need to recognize that and pray for Him to give you the strength, and the friends you need..and the answers you want...God Bless you sweetie..through Jesus, or God won't hear you xxx