Where has my love gone? Sick of meaningless alcohol and drug induced one night stands that leave me empty!?

Question

I fell in love 7 years ago wiv a girl I met at Uni. I was 19 n she was18, as a kid I went to church n was told 2 respect women/girls as equals, as every1 u lust after is some1s sister, daughter, mother etc. This really rang home wiv me as I would hate for some1 to mistreat a member of my family/friends n we r all people wiv hearts. I was always unlucky wiv girls, Id make good friends with some1 I liked then ask them out and get rejected(I am quite overweight). Til I met her-she was my 1st love-I think! We spent all r time 2gether,laughing- she was beautiful n said we were soulmates which I believed? I told her I loved her - more than a friend she said she felt the same--but had a b/friend! We kissed that was it, but I wanted 2b wiv her- she said theyd split up-'soon'! Then she said she only liked me as a mate- i couldnt accept it. It ended badly-I was heartbroken. Cocaine, Marijuana, Alcohol, Balder and Fatter 26 now. Stopped the drink n drugs, will I find real love again? or just f*#k

Answer 1

Ok, you did the drinking and drugs, and now feel sorry for your self, because you are fatter and losing some hair. If you quit the alcohol, and drugs, you can get your food addiction under control also. It depends if you want to be miserable for the rest of your life, and only you can change any of that. If you want something bad enough you will do it, or just wallow in your own misery. I would tell you to watch the show the big loser which will give you some insight into what you will have to do. Good luck in your new life.