Whats going on with my body this time ?

Question

I have had depression for 4 years and self harmed for that time (im 17 now ) , I recently went to get help and got perscribed prozac (in July/August) after I had my abortion (in April) as I attemted suicide and self harmed again wich was straining me and my boyfriends (of 2 years) relationship but then my family fell apart my dad was pretending to want to come back to the family for months and he told us he was seeing someone else and had been for two months. Since then I havnt smiled at all, I feel empty and its really hurting my boyfriend as anything he says I take to offence for weeks on end eg: Youd suit blonde hair, I just dyed it purple and he said it look s h i t and his ex was blonde, but now Im not eating through the day just breakfast and evening I spill drinks out so it looks like I drank it when Im out and when my boyfriend gives me food I hide it, but I eat when I get home and have a good meal but am 8.5 stone and size 10 jeans and 6-8 tops whats going on???

Also I have to be there for my mom 24 /7 as she gets upset and emotionally and have to make sure she eats etc and be her support which I love doing but it gets hard for me, should I tell all this to my councillor?

O and to add it all my sex drive is nil and when I have sex I dry up so easily and gets sore as my mind is there but I just feel withdrawn , I do have orgasms and *** but I just feel so run down I feel tierd all the time especially afterwards it seems more of a chore than making love.

I love my boyfriend dearly its just difficult at the moment and affection seems a chore x

Answer 1

Please talk to your therapist and tell he/she everything you just wrote. The first step of getting better is being in a place to accept help. good luck, I'll be thinking of you.

Answer 2

You are possibly in a metabolic syndrome. You must speak with your doctor and discuss all issues. No holding back. It sounds like you are trying to develope bi polar condition too. They still do not know what triggers this. But once you have it, which is a chemical imbalance in the brain, it cannot be cured, only treated. You need to be eating three meals a day. The body works this way. Some actually need to eat five times a day, two small snacks and three meals, with one of them being fairly well balanced so you get all the vitamins the body needs. You also need a certain amount of sleep, for most this is eight hours. Some people only need six, but anything less than this is an abuse of your body and will lead to problems. Sounds like you have been abusing your body for some time. Are you bulemic or anorexic, and just not telling us. Are you so concerned about your appearance, your weight that you are also doing this not eating thing for reasons that are psychologic. Come on girl. Get to the doctor and recover, Do it now before you will not be able to do it. Good Luck

Answer 3

Sometimes depression and stuff is "situational." Perhaps, you need to think about what really gets you down. Try writing in a journal or something, it might help you to sort through things. Can you go talk with a counselor or psychologist at your school?

You might consider switching up your depression meds to another.

Also, you could have a thyroid problem? That causes weight and other issues. Maybe it's time for a check up a the doc?

Answer 4

I'm surprised that you weren't referred to a therapist or psychiatrist by your GP if you've attempted suicide and have a history of self harming. These are two symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder and you ought to get yourself assessed and diagnosed for it. Another symptom is mood swings within a day or within hours which might go to extremes. Try asking your GP or psychiatrist (when you get referred) for SSRI based anti depressants. They're not as debilitating as prozac, and might help you to control your mood swings. The low sex drive might actually be a side effect of the prozac, or it might just be a result of the way you're feeling at the moment. Don't pressurise yourself about the sex side of it, and don't take on the responsibility of taking care of your mom. You can try getting help for your mother from support groups or social services. It's not very nice sometimes when you have to seek help and make all the effort but from experience, you tend to slip through the net of NHS help and support if you don't keep trying to get them. It might help you a little to get carer's allowance if you are intent on helping your mom.

Answer 5

maybe prozac is not helping any more...ask doctor...mom should have been taking care of you not the other way around...and I do know how that can be...I was lucky either that after my step father touched me even my mom was never around..which was funny to take care of yourself since the parent was not strong enough....the soon to be fact is your becoming a young woman with alot on your shoulders too soon...really tell the doctor and all of it if they dont help go to someone else... other doctor every day every month every year could get worse if you don't kill your self first and no matter what people think when we lose someone they always could have had a way to express them self's other than suide... find a group of kids just like you or younger and talk to them they are outthere

Answer 6

Well, it's your family, obviously, that has you in such turmoil..do they tell you how awful you are all the time? I am sorry, but this would depress anyone,..and your cutting and self harm, is just a sad way for you to get their attention..they have made you feel so horrible, that if you punish yourself this way, I think you think they will at least give you some attention...You need to start pleasing yourself, and being who you are, not what everyone wants you to be..focus in on your own future, and stay away from ANYONE who puts you down from now on..God and Jesus loves you, and that is who you should turn to for strength...you cannot babysit mom, and it is alright that you are there for her, but she is an adult, and needs adults advice, not burdening you with it..I am sorry about your dad, but this happens more than you realize..Pray honey, and don't take any cruelity from anyone

Answer 7

sounds as though you need to talk to a counselor as well as taking the prescription. You note your depression has been ongoing for quite a while. Thus, seeking the help of an experienced counselor will help you work through your issues. You are far to young to live an empty life. Keep up the good fight!

Answer 8

Definitely tell your counsellor everything,they need to know all whats going on around you to give a definite diagnosis,u shouldnt have to deal with all the othr stuff urself,ur bf isnt much help if all he can do is criticise when knowing perfectly well ur going thru hell. Dont hide anything from those close to you,u need all the moral support u can get,make that call asap. wishing u a speedy recovery,we need to make the best of our lives and live them to the full

Answer 9

god,you have had an unhappy life.try to find a way out of this drowning life that you live.cruel to be kind.grow-up and see what is going on around you.pull yourself together because maybe you are the problem with your father seeing someone else and tidy yourself up,keep off drugs and stop abusing yourself,only you CAN do this and no-one else.good luck.

Answer 10

First of all, lose the boyfriend! He's only making you worse.

And yes, tell everything else to your counselor. You need a combination of therapy and other meds.