I need professional help here (dont tell me to go to a psychiatrist)?

Question

i keep changing self-esteems!
i am so happy at home, then I go to school and hate myself. I act, sound and feel different. I talk to my friends and think " ah i hate the way i talk to people" then i go home and love everything! I can ignore this but it comes back.
its VERY annoying. i think to myself that i can start over again at university or when i get a job and make new friends and be happier.

I fear i don't get treated right and won't get the right boyfriend/s and friends!

Even when I am with my friends and can be as happy as possible, I feel stupid! I keep that bad personality. Then I go home and think "why did i do that!"

then I pop the big sad thought to myself:
"If people saw me as I see myself, I'd have so many friends and people would like me more."

i just always wish i could take the personality i have at home to school with me.

i keep changing self-esteems!

Answer 1

That's because you're a teenager.

It'll get better with a few years. Til then, I am afraid you'll either have to suck it up and get over your teenageness and start acting like you want to be perceived, ar put up and shut up. Sorry to be blunt, but the psychology degree makes me rude to people.

Answer 2

I'll just add one more thing to the others who have spoken already. Why are you so afraid? Where does the fear come from? Have you experienced some awful event in your life outside of your home? Just a thought. Maybe you are a little agoraphobic (like me you want to just stay home?) Anyway just a thought. I got out into a wonderful clubhouse and am really having fun there and also at home with my Mom. Good luck!

Answer 3

i had that to when i was in school
i felt like nobody at body school
but when i came home i was outgoing and just felt like myself
its normal
but i hate that i know really know how you feel
i thought the same thing if they only knew the real me like when im at home they would love to be around me
you just have to build your confidence up and not worry about people think about you and then you will feel like yourself no matter where your at
i finally just stop worring so much about what people thought about me in high school and i just let looose and told jokes evaryday and made my friends laugh at lunch and sometimes in class people made fun of me all the time in the middle school and i let them because i didn't know what to say to them but when i got home i thought of a whole bush things to say to them assholes
finally in high school i didn't put up with it anymore and said things right back and it felt good because they deserved it im a nce person and shouldn't be treated like crap nobody should be treated like crap or feel like crap because its just not rightt
your get out of your shyness and be yourself just like when your at home thats so funny becasue i went through same thing and wondered whats is wrong woth me
there nothing with you
when your at school your surrounded by a whole bush of kids and its hard sometimes to think straight
and when you at home you can think straight because your not surround by all the kids so that why you can think better and feel like yourself

Answer 4

Self esteem isn't the problem: see self confidence, at http://www.ezy-build.net. (.net.nz/~shaneris) on page 38, and social skills on page 9, and have a look at page 13.

Answer 5

Why not meet up a good homeopath who will treat you holistically? Or why not try out EFT at www.emofree.com?

Answer 6

You ask for "professional" help and then add not to tell you to see a psychiatrist. There is no professional answer then. You have eliminated professional help.