is it normal for a person with bpd to feel like the whole worlds against you?

Question

what should you do when you have worries like this?
iam 30 and have had this illness since 16, i have had a very traumatic life, i have never really made any friends either because of the disorder ive had..

what can you do when you have this paranoia and you feel like everybody want to undermine you, belittle you, exploit you, humiliate you, and are out to get you?
i live alone and are very isolated and lonely from society.

i want to leave britain, and build a new life, immigrate...as i wasnt born here.....but dealing with this and the disorder...im worried how im going to accomplish this.

can anyone relate or offer any advise here?
im hoping for serious answers

Answer 1

I'm not sure if you mean bipolar or borderline. For borderline, the most effective thing that has come out is a thing called DBT or dialectical behavior therapy. it is an intensive course, takes 2 years, but is worth it for those who take it. In this therapy, you don't talk about your past much (I think dwelling on it just makes things worse) but instead you learn skills on communication, self-soothing, etc. I have bipolar, and the depression itself (actually, it is mixed moods, an energized depression) makes me feel like people are out to get me. I also had a very traumatic life. The DBT mini course I had was pretty helpful, so for borderline I think it would really help.

I had a friend whom I think had borderline - she had a terrible childhood, and in the end, she kept ripping me down even when I warned her I was suicidal from the bipolar right then (she had called me.) She also had a fit the one time I tried to give her honest advice and warn her that she may have trouble emotionally and financially having two kids (she asked for the advice, it took her 12 years to get her college degree because she was too unstable to stay in work enough to get the $$ for the schooling, or kept quitting one program and changing colleges, thus losing credits, and had run ins with police twice, supposedly not her fault, and probably 50% her fault, and she was 40, so looking at a high risk pregnancy, and doing artificial insemination, which is expensive) She went off and attacked me for being disabled and told me I was useless and sponging off the system and thought I was so awful because I thought so little of her, etc. etc. which I did not think that, i just thought she was partially disabled from out of control emotions. God, what a ruin that was for me. I was her closest friend from age 10 until age 40. So you really need to work on this, or you are ditching people who really care about you.

Good luck to you, I hope you look for a DBT program.

Answer 2

I can relate to everything you just said.

Living with BPD is not living at all. I can't wait for the day this life is over.

I'm 25, been in 7 hospitals, on over 25 different meds, and had psychiatric care for 16 years, and nothing has helped. I'm a single mother with a 4 year old plus expecting a son, and after I have him I am going to have electroshock treatments, because I can't gdamn live like this.

I've even asked for a lobotomy but they don't do that anymore.

God is evil. He can do something but chooses not to, he'd rather watch me suffer.

Answer 3

I felt that way, too. I had a traumatic childhood and had a lot of issues to deal with before I could stop feeling that way. It took me 3 years of weekly counseling to lose those horrible feelings. I still can get them periodically if I am a couple of hours late taking my meds or if I do not get enough sleep. The best thing would be counselling. IF that is not an option right now, set yourself a strict schedule and stick to it. Get LOTS of sleep. People with bpd tend to stay up too late and not get enough sleep. Set a reasonably early bedtime schedule and stick to it!! I really think you need to get things under contol with counseling, meds, and or schedules before you try to move. We need consistancy or it can really mess up our moods and make things worse. I get out of whack for a day or so just going to a friends house wihtout prior planning and knowing ahead of time what exactly will happen. I have to talk myself through things A LOT before I can do things out of the norm and handle it effectively.

Answer 4

bpd too...... and yup... can relate to what yer saying. everyone being against ya and feeling all those horrible things.... just part of the disorder that REALLY sucks.

i would love to run away and start a life somewhere new... as a different person...... but having the guts to do it... i dont know.

talk to yer therapist.... ya need to get some support with this... someone that really understands the disorder and all....

if ya just wanna talk more... email me