Thoughts of suicide?

Question

I am a 17 year old girl, I have been physically and verbally abused my whole life.
Both of my parents are mentally ill, my father has a personality disorder and my mother has severe dysthymic disorder.
I have daily thoughts of suicide.
I used to see a therapist, but my father would always yell at me about how expensive it was, and that just made me feel even worse, so I stopped making appointments.
The only thing that keeps me alive is my love for my boyfriend and thoughts of the future I might someday have with him.
I don't feel like this is enough to keep me holding on.
How can I deal with these thoughts?
Are there any support groups that you can reccomend?

I am no longer in school.

I'm Jewish, so Jesus really isn't a big part of my life.
Also, I think it's counterproductive to think of a martyr when you are suicidal.

I'm in Midlothian, Va. That's right near Richmond.

Answer 1

Do you know where the Weinstein Jewish Community Center is?
It's on Monument Avenue, right near St Mary's Hospital.
They have counselors there, and I strongly suggest that you speak to them.
You seem like a smart girl, and it's good that you realize that a teenage romance is not enough to keep you afloat.
I'm glad that you are seeking help, you need to be a success story, not a statistic.
Please hold on.

Answer 2

I was in the same situation not quite that bad though I waited until I turned 18 joined the military and only go back for visits 1-2 times per year. I recommend doing the same you're mature enough to recognize the problem. what you need to concentrate on is being better than your parents! Whatever you do at all costs do not turn out like them. Like I said I did this and it is working wonders I am finishing my BS at a rather prestigious university in Texas and soon off to get my masters degree. I will be the first person in my family to get a college degree! Don't let them ruin your life 18 isn't that far away the important thing is you get your education so STAY in school until your done

Answer 3

You don't have long until you are 18. Then you can move out and live your own life.

I would start preparing now by getting a part time job and keep busy planning the move and working on your future life. This will give you something to look forward to and keep you occupied at the same time.

Remember, there's always something better out there and you have so much time in life to experience change. Someday you will look back and wonder how you could ever consider suicide.

I know that there are Christian groups that would be glad to help you. Just walk into a local Christian church and ask.

Answer 4

When I was 17 my best friend committed suicide. She had absolutely no warning signs that they talk about, and we believe that it had to be a spur-of-the-moment thing. This December it will be 3 years and not a day goes by that I don't think about it.

I would first get emancipated (unless you're at the age to move out without being termed a runaway). You need to put yourself somewhere positive and just remember that people really do love you, even though they don't always show it. Do anything there is to get help. Find a counselor at a school or something. They may not be the most qualified but you really need to talk to someone.

Answer 5

Suicide thoughts are usually the result of severe or sustained depression.

Sadness and depression are nothing more than stored up anger... which was never acted upon.

Anger stems from not having your needs met...

This is the core of your problem right here. Not having your needs met. If I were you; I would really think about what your needs are; which ones are not being satisfied, and why.

Consider everything: emotional needs, financial, physical, social, spiritual, or career-wise. Write a list out for yourself.

Once you identify them, this may cause you to be angry. But this is a good thing.

Then work on the best way to achieve each of your needs given your current situation. If you don't know how to satisfy a particular need; ask around. You can even ask on Yahoo! answers again.

This will be a roadmap out of your current state of depression. Give it a shot.

Answer 6

Get out now. You're 17. First, get a job part time if that's easier 4 u and a motel room with 1st pay check. Tell them where u are when u turn 18. Until then drop a hint by phone that u are fine or by sending a letter. In letter tell them why u left. Don't live on streets, will only mess u up more. Get a motel room or stay with a friend and be sure you have u're own money coming in. get g.e.d.

Answer 7

It's not easy when you are depressed all the time. Even when things are ok, you're still sad. I would say to try to find a counseling place that is income based. If you are in high school, they can offer counseling. I wouldn't recommend it at a college, you could get kicked out of school for being depressed. If it get too bad, go to your local hospital. Warning, they may want to keep you, but they will give you some medication that would help. I think that talking about it is best, but you will have to see a psychiatric doctor for meds to help keep it under control. I know what it feels like to think that you have it under control, but that's the tricky part. Seeking help is best. Also try MSN chat rooms or support groups. Try to take it one day at a time, and try to remember to think happy thoughts. Best wishes.

Answer 8

Annually over a million people die of suicide.Every 40 seconds someone dies of suicide. It's really a truly sad and horrible thing. Hard times push people to do certain things. Not only does it effect the person who commits suicide but it really effects everyone else. Friends and family have to deal with the pain also. And that's the worst part. As for people who commit suicide, they obviously aren't thinking clearly in that moment. If they sat down and really really truly thought about it there wouldn't be a million people dying annually of it. For anyone who has ever had the thought of committing suicide, please please please tell someone close and dear to you. You can stop yourself.

Answer 9

With suicidal thoughts you have to see a counselor. I have a friend where she worked something out with her therapist where she doesnt have to pay much at all. They are there to help you and if you feel you cant hold on get to the emergency room!!! I myself have done it a couple of times. It doesnt sound like your parents have really been there for you. You will be 18 soon so you are going to have to create a support system that will help you. Talking to a counselor will help you figure out what your resources are. I was suicidal all this past year and when I met my therapist and started working with her I was so relieved to finally have someone on my side. Because of her I have finally taken steps to take care of myself and you will too once you ask for help. There are the resources no matter your economic situation.

Answer 10

I have personally dealt with these thoughts in the past, and I just want to let you know that it's okay to have these feelings. If you didn't have these feelings or thoughts, it would be considered abnormal. Having suicidal thoughts is perfectly normal. I don't want to sound religious or anything like that, but I believe that when one is down to nothing, God is up to something. I believe that God knows when a sparrow falls out of the sky, and if he didn't know this, you would have done yourself in already. I believe that every human is born with a reason to hold on just a little longer, whether they know of the reason or not. It is a hope worth living for, because once a reason to live is discovered, happiness is found. Don't get me wrong, but I think it's people like your boyfriend and the future you might have with him, and people like me, who probably don't even know you, but truly care for you as an individual is a strong enough reason to carry on just a little longer. I have faith in you. I wish you a very blessed day, and a little hope to hold on to.