Opinion on my new obsession?

Question

For many years in high school I was obsessed with staying medium-thin. I wanted to be thinner. I was with someone for 20 years up until 7 years ago who looked like a toothpick so I was afraid to eat any fat at all because I could gain weight. I had to stay thin so he wouldn't tease me. He was way too thin..so I spent so much time worrying about my appearance.
Now I am with someone else is who very muscular (swimmers type of body) and slightly fat too. Finally I can eat what I want and not have to be afraid. In fact- I want to be fat! Seems sinful, but I am obsessed. Please don't tell me to see a professional, because psychologists/psychiatrists make me ill.
Is this a common thing I am going through?

Answer 1

Eat them twinkies babe ,,,catch up with the
rest of us!!!!!!!

Answer 2

7 Steps to Gain Weight

Continue to eat the same healthy foods you always eat, but simply eat more of them.

Choose foods with a higher calorie density. You could eat broccoli and salad until your face hurts from chewing so much, but you still won't get enough calories.

Eat plenty of starchy carbohydrates including whole grains & cereals, pasta, potatoes, yams, beans, rice and oatmeal.

Don't be afraid of adding a little bit of fat. Keep your diet low in fat overall, but add in some of the healthy "good" fats (such as flax oil, olive oil, or a couple tablespoons of peanut butter) and you'll gain weight more quickly.

Just because you're trying to gain weight doesn't mean you have a license to eat anything you want. Go for nutritional value as well as calorie density; avoid saturated fats, sugar and processed junk foods.

If you can't seem to get enough calories from food, then a meal replacement or weight gainer supplement can make your life a lot easier. Adjust the serving size to fit your calorie needs and make sure the product has a good protein to carb ratio.

Don't be afraid to drink a lot of your calories in the form of low fat/skim milk, juice or supplements/shakes.

Answer 3

Sounds like you stayed thin to avoid being teased. Now want to be fat ? cause you are not afraid now. I think it's time to stop being controlled by other people. Be who you want to be and never give anybody the control over your emotions, feelings, self-worth. I really don't think you want to be fat...you are finally free of having to be thin. Fat probably would get a reaction out of your current guy anyway. Doubt he would like that.

Answer 4

No! You have done an absolute turn around here.It is not healthy to be so thin, and it's definatly not healthy being obese.You've got to come to a happy medium. Wanting to be fat is like punishing yourself, just like before when you would'nt eat. What you are doing is not common at all.The real question I think is 'why do you want to punish yourself?'.You are your own person and you need to focus on you,not who your with.Seriously,I do wish you can dig yourself out of these habits.Good luck to you!!

Answer 5

I am sorry if this offends you, but, it seems like you have a misconstrued sense of self-worth. It sounds like you base your identity on those around you rather than yourself. Your lack of self-approval and your inability to distinguish your positive features from those around you comes from a lack of self-worth which results in a strong need of approval by your significant others. What concerns me is why you have waited over 20 years to give yourself permission to eat without feeling guilty...or that you still haven't-- you got permission from someone else and it wasn't until then that you allowed yourself this freedom. I suggest that you begin to really explore who you are and what it is that YOU want. Until you do some intense work within yourself, your core issues will continue to manifest themselves in unhealthy behaviors, such as your eating disorder and co-dependent relationships. Until you realize that they are just surface issues reflecting a deeper, more profound underlying problem, it will be difficult for you to find a balance not only in your eating habits, but in your relationships, especially the one with yourself.

Answer 6

Of course not.