I will never know what I've caused after I'm gone. I'm a extremely compulsive person. However, I'm really having a difficult time fighting the guilt. Normally, I wouldn't think about something this long. I would have not put this much though into it. I've convinced myself that I haven't hurt anyone so what's the harm. My doctor has planted in my head that people will be hurt and angered over what I've done. She admitted that she would be angry too. I'm so frustrated and tired. I'm not that heartless, but I'm so tired with continuing surgeries and the pain that comes after. I just want it to stop. I'm not asking for people to forgive me, but I just want to know if the anger ever go away.
2007-09-02 05:48:22 · 13 answers · asked by byee77777 2 in Health ➔ Mental Health
In January it will be 4 years since my boyfriend took his life. Most of the time, the anger is no longer there. But, I still love and miss him every day, and I still hurt. Some days, yes, I get angry at his suicide and yell and cry. It has lasting effects on those who care about you. Maybe some counseling would help you work through all of the pain inside of you. God bless.
2007-09-02 07:46:41 · answer #1 · answered by kiki 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Don't run away from the anger or suppress it. Try to understand what's happening inside when it comes up. Likely you are reliving the shame and humiliation you felt as a teenager. Maybe deep down you see everyone as bully or potential one and that's why you get angry. This requires a change of perspective. Truth is happy and mature people don't go around mocking people and calling them ugly. Insecure teenagers certainly do, though. Maybe it would help to see your past in that light. Not a victim of bullies, but of under-confident, immature children who caused more suffering to make themselves feel better.
2016-05-19 03:52:12 · answer #2 · answered by ? 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It's not just anger for "suicide victims". It's a crazy feeling of helplessness and doom. Like the ground just gave way under you, and you're falling into a bottomless pit. For me, the walls seemed to be closing in on me, and I felt like I was suffocating. I couldn't eat and threw everything up. I cried uncontrollably. I slept fifteen hours a day and still didn't feel rested. I had to go to a doctor and get meds to help me through.
Some people can't handle the suicide of a family member or friend, and commit suicide themselves. I can understand why.
Does that answer your question?
2007-09-02 06:58:27 · answer #3 · answered by Arggg 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Careful Randy. You are headed down a dangerous way of thinking. Anger does subside. But pain is eternal. I know that the surgeries are very hard for you. But being compulsive is not a safe way to behave. Compulsive behavior leads to impulsive action. Be careful how you think. Negative thought leads to negative action. Keep your head right and your thoughts positive and you will be in overall better health!
2007-09-02 06:46:44 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
It has a major affect on the people you leave behind. Children who know that someone committed suicide later may look at this as an option too. It doesn't go away by itself. People have to work through these issues. Many people don't do this. It effects them for the rest of their lives and then because of that it effects people who they come in contact with. It's sad.
2007-09-02 06:14:39 · answer #5 · answered by Simmi 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
If they're angry, they can only be angry at themselves for not trying to help you enough. Suicide is not a selfish thing to do, but it's very selfish to ask someone to continue living in pain just because you'll miss them if they die.
And suicide is not a loser's way out. It takes incredible courage for a sane man to off himself. You're obviously dealing with many of the reasons why that is the case. It's not an easy decision, but at some point it's a decision you must make. Either yes or no, but continuing to live "suicidal" is something YOU should be angry at. Either do it or don't, but get out of the booth, someone else is waiting and you have a life to live...whether that life be on Earth or in the silence of death is up to you.
I hope you can find help, and I hope your family/friends/doctor can help you. But as far as caring about THEM being angry, ***** them. They don't live your life, whatever that life may be.
2007-09-02 06:08:20 · answer #6 · answered by justin schwan 3 · 1⤊ 1⤋
One of my brothers killed himself March 1, 1978 and I can still go through the phone call telling me about it almost word for word. Eventually the anger turns to sadness, but that can take years. The feeling that never goes away completely is guilt, a feeling of continually asking yourself "Could I have said or done something that either caused this or could I have somehow prevented it?"
2007-09-02 06:00:25 · answer #7 · answered by Tom 6 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Consider seeing a therapist. Yes, you would leave people here very upset and you would be letting yourself down too. Keep in mind, life is the most precious gift given to us by God. We are meant to live until the day He calls us home and not before.
His kingdom is also our gift, but not to be taken, but to be given when the time is right. We are all here for a reason. We all impact other people's lives and must do so until He says we are done.
Try to ask God about this as well. He will answer you.
2007-09-02 05:58:15 · answer #8 · answered by emtd65 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
the S&W model 500 revolver delivers a .50 caliber 325g bullet at about 2300 feet per second... which roughly translates to about 3600 ft/lbs of force
2007-09-02 06:28:53 · answer #9 · answered by Ronnie 2 · 0⤊ 1⤋
I think you've just answered your own question. If you have someone significant in your life, suicide simply isn't the rational option anymore.
2007-09-02 05:59:55 · answer #10 · answered by Belzetot 5 · 1⤊ 0⤋