Conclusions of the inner work week?

Question

Tell me about how your individuality itself is different this week...tell me about how your perceptions are different this week...tell me about how your physical world itself is different this week...tell me about how you life story is different this week...you've been paying attention and doing the math...just like you always do...working out those private/public, complex spiritual equations like a bunch of meta-mathematicians...so talk to me...knowing what you know now...tell me your conclusions so far...tell me the how the meaning of things is different...(if you feel like it)..ramble on if you like...

Coyoteman: we are given the gift of the gods...

Shihan: you are destined to graduate with honors.

Shihan: Look and see what you have done!
Go to my profile page and go to my 360 page.
Look at my blog and see what the voice of god has spoken.

Erzulie Dantor: exactly

cosmicshaktifireॐ: and greater works than these shall you do...

Answer 1

This week I made a shift from outer world to inner world. Intellectually, I knew that the inside creates the out, but I was not fully grounded in that knowledge. Like many, I have been waiting for the outer world to change then I would find my peace. Like my nickname, peace comes from within. I had been seeking inner peace but looking outwardly for it. I had long ago relinquished the need for others to change, but I had not fully understood my power. I am all. I am peace. I am truth. I only need to be aware and awake to these truths.
It has been a banner week, to say the least.
May you all be happy
May you all be peaceful
May you all be free

Answer 2

I should be in bed, I'm a sleepy head just now ... but the question calls.

Like Ms. Shakti Aflame, I've done more sewing and stitching this week than I can possibly display here. So here's just some random threads and patches.

With the assistance of a brilliant and compassionate being of suburb skill I've learned heart-achingly much about stepping up and out of my Zennish silences and into the "ordinary" as a sunlit there- is- treasure- everywhere True Place.

So much more trusting am I of "I" ... or at least of my visions and intimations. And yet perhaps somehow all the more balanced and grounded for that familiarity with the Altered as wisdom source.

And fun. More fun am I. More fun is IT.

Holding a breaking heart in my hands, knowing that I have some role in that breaking, and looking to hold THAT ... the whole Event ... being allowed, allowed being ... and sensing, again, some sewn seamlessness just beyond my toes' touch where the ordinary somehow is by no means the only thing going on here and it is yet not not IT.

And then an overall utter wonder and gratitude for the "regular" alchemy ... of my settling down to meditate meeting Her energy rising to dance ... it's so consistently amazing at this point to be ... LOL ... routine.

Shine on shineman.

And night night.
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Answer 3

Oh Goddy, Sunman!
In my life I have come from real craziness and near disintegration to sanity and having a pretty good grip on reality.
Right now it feels as though that sanity and reality are floating on a very liquid surface. And it's scary.
I have said 'I love you' to a lot of people this week.
Energy surges have been shuddering through me.
I sat in my teacher/supervisor's garden, listening to his wisdom and seeing plants as being flat, painted on the surface of . . .something.
Over many lifetimes I have been a warrior, a soldier, a killer.
In this life I have repaid much Karmic debt. When will it be enough? Hanged if I know.
This week? I finished my accounts! Yay!
I have felt the veil to be quite thin - but still the veil exists.
A dear friend has sent me a gift, a package, and it's taking a long time to get here, as these things do. I'm waiting impatiently.
A long time ago a Zen master promised me Enlightenment in this very life. It's taking a long time to get here. I'm waiting impatiently.
This week? I don't know. I'm not really sure who I am at the moment. Changing, shifting. I have loved being in the company of friends, drinking coffee, sensing each other's truth.
Hmm.
Well, you did invite rambling.
I must go and get on with my day.
Gassho, friend and brother. No, that's not right.
Gassho, friends, brothers and sisters.

EDIT,
Hey, Shihan! You are not alone! I look at some of these 360s and I am filled with admiration - and complete bafflement.

Answer 4

my individuality has become more pronounced this week as i shift away from 'my other half' in order to protect mys'Elf and mine.
what was heart-soaringly beautiful has become heart-breakingly painful.
and no matter how i lay things out, whether by subtle means or heavy ones, he refuses to open his eyes to his new-found negativity.
what i thought would be a paired journey will once again return to to a single track path.
oh yes i have the strength, i have the wisdom, i have the love to do so.
but how sad that he cannot release his demons even for us and the smaller human beans. if i continue to battle my energies will be distracted and my brood needs me.
and my new job! this is good, good indeed.
so for all these reasons and more, my maths has been along multiplication and a long division all at the same time.
is it comforting or painful to know that i am further along the track than my partners can cope with?
all created things must pass he said. so our creation, our connection with the ancestors must be broken. only a miracle will prevent this, and i see that this must come from within him
so i guess i continue to Strive Diligently for now.
it is my path.
i walk along it with love, which is sometimes heavy, sometimes light.
blessed be
)o(

Answer 5

(((Sunman))). Thanks in advance for the download.

Work issues bringing out personal issues. Selfish, spoiled, unbending, oak tree inflexibility causing physical muscular dis-ease left side, yin. Significant other (etheric) is as stubborn and controlling as I am; we clashed and burned; I want a baby, he does not; I don't have to have a baby, he wants me to; Shakti says go for it; I say I do not want to lose him and fear I will, so with that fear there, I cannot do this. I say wait until it is all drawn down to the physical. Telepathic relationships are taxing at best. He is not moving fast enough for me; I want it all now. I am pushing him; he wants it when he is ready and on his terms.

Can I really live with this? Control without control, you say. There simply is no other way. I release my control and try not to care, but I do. This is the fourth telepathic relationship I have had. The other three did not result in physical relationships. Am I destined for this one to be the same? Will one of these Godlike creatures ever consider me worthy? What was that you said? Ah! They are waiting for ME to consider MYSELF worthy. NOW I get it.

Building ch'i; pushing the limits of my physical being in a very fattening way; recognizing the dis-ease through the actions of my physical being; not doing anything to change it, because it is not time. When will it be time? I know time is a mystery, fleeting, dragging, standing still, future, now, history -- but it MUST be time. My body hurts from building ch'i. I ache, therefore I am?

I slept, I wept, I swept. My bed is renewed with fresh sheets; I went through an entire box of tissues; my house is clean; I am clean. Now I wait on the will of heaven. Perhaps tomorrow will be the day?

Needing, wanting, having a vacation starting today.

And how was the week that was for YOU, dear Sunman?

Answer 6

i started a new job this week; it's about the same as the last job i had. i drifted through the week and didnt "grow" very much. my new job is a means to an end.
in conclusion; the week was what it was, just another step on the path of eternity with my thoughts and opinions telling me how much i like the story and how i fit in it

Answer 7

I'm older and more tired. My Boris wears me out by allowing me to nag him causing my inner self much turmoil. Due to all this age related decline I don't enjoy my extravagances as much as I used to.
I think I will donate Boris to some organisation-maybe write to Gordon Brown and ask him if Boris can run "a Quango" for him.
Gordy does love those unelected, unaccountable, mysterious nameless nonentities who throw our money into the wind.

Answer 8

Well friend, I cannot ramble on with this, it would take pages. So, here is a tiny bit.

This week, I touched and released issues that have been sitting square on my heart, and on my soul for millennia. From my beginnings here. Issues so deeply painful, I wasn't sure if I would ever be free. And yet, I have been moving towards this now for over a month. Saw it coming, and still did not believe, this is so big for me. The core of self judgment.

With the assistance of a brilliant and compassionate being of suburb skill, I was able to navigate my way into this and bring it to the light. Voice the worst of it, have witness to it, and watch as it began to unwind from within me. Amazing....

The change for me so far is more profound than words can capture really. Yesterday I spontaneously shifted into a deeply altered state that up until yesterday, have only accessed through many hours/days of focused meditation. And I was in the pit of despair when this occurred. A huge transmutation, leading me into cognitions that I have only dreamed of ~ and suddenly, there I was, in the reality of them.

Let me say this....
Mine is a Tantric path, and my quest is to exist in full awareness of Divine Union, of Shiva/Shakti entwined. And not from the crown, but with them having shifted back down into the heart after communion in the crown....Enlightment can be achieved from many centers, and in many states -it can be reached through rage!

But from this position, the awakened heart, there is a focus on inclusion, of the broadening and refining of compassion, of Enlightment through joy.

And apparently, I was in good company. I was still holding that state as I wrote in here last night, I was in it somewhat this morning even.....so many sensed the shifts, felt change ~ there was a tremendous window of transitional opportuniy, and each to their own seized the moment and ..... and many are sensing there is more to come, this is but the leading edge

I feel this as well, and am cultivating and integrating what I received yesterday, and who I was received by....

namaste my friend and brother, thank you for asking.....

edit to Sunman: so it is, and so it shall be

Answer 9

I wanted to answer this last night (at 2:00 a.m., actually), but bed called to me!

Anyway, my week. We have been moving from house to house all summer. It has been too hot, hazy and crazy! But this week, I finally feel at home, settled. It feels good.

I think the probing questions from all of you (Cosmic yearning?) have kept me alert to the mind and where it can go! The question are insightful and I feel the kinship very strongly!

I have studied this and that and have no strong leanings toward any teaching. I do have a teacher, but he is very 'loose', as well.

Through these last few hectic weeks, I have been given many "invitations" to stay in touch with the only thing I know for sure "I am here" and "what is" IS. This is "home" for me.

Taking steps to do what needs to be done, staying out of 'mind stories' is my saving grace. I feel a surge of joy as I type this. It is like the "best kept secret", ever!!!

I share, in my clumsy way, hoping to give this *spark* to anyone who might benefit in some way.

Have I perfected being with this 'what is'? No. I still resist, fight with mind thoughts, try to control situations...exhaust myself...then I see "it" pulling me into this insanity. Reacting to 'what is' with no, no! It should be this way!!! When I see the automatic, knee jerk, resistance, I know to return home to myself...to "awareness".

I'm married, have a home, husband, pets, in-laws, grown children, a full time, very hectic, traveling business...all of it. I get plenty of invitations to get lost in the insanity that 'seems' to prevail! But, like the dear little turtle, I carry my home with me! All I have to do, is re-member.

So, this week has been good...I have made it through one of the hardest moves of my life and am grateful for it all.

You said to "ramble"! =) Thanks, once again, for a great questions! And thank you all for being "out there".

Answer 10

I always have a dozen half gelled ideas swirling in my mind.

The newest "math" in my mind is considering the possibility that in much the same way that each cell contains the entire genetic code of the person it is a part of, each of us may also carry the ideas or the "genetic code" of the answers to life the universe and everything within us.