Cosmic yearning?

Question

Do you feel it too?
That ill-defined sense of loss, of cosmic yearning?

(It's not a lack of any normal thing. It's not a lack of any religious figure in my life. And I'm pretty sure it isn't indigestion)

It's almost like homesickness.

Do you feel it?

Thankyou for your wisdom, MumOf4.
I too did the tests - and this feeling is very deep - and not pathological.
~*~

You too, Shihan dear.

MumOf4 - Ithink it's just the yearning for Enlightenment, to return to the source - if even for a moment.

Shrill Alarmist, I'm Sure.
Thankyou, Sir, for your exposition and for sharing your scholarship.
*Bows*

Shakti,
My heart sings for you.
Thankyou.

Magnolia Flower,
I gratefully accept your poem of truth.

My brother Coyote, crying upon the same moon as lights my window at night.
"Yet the difference would be as great as between Heaven and Earth if even the slightest gap exists".
(Dogen, but you know that.)

All these wonderful answers.
My ability to respond is becoming a bit overwhelmed.
Please excuse me.

Answer 1

Sweet Jon, it would seem there is a pervasive 'going around' of such yearning, such deep desire to not be separate....

Cosmic Coyote was in it as well last night.
I have been in the depths of the very same for many days now,
but just yesterday, I had a cognition......

my heart has been so exposed, and in such awareness of longing I was certain it would never end, that it would literally consume me to dust, as it were.....

and in the midst of allowing that deep unfanthonable wave of emotion to have me, I shifted......and saw/felt a deeper truth.
The truth of the Union we all exist within, and have been veiled to.
The truth that we are precious and dearly loved, worth being kept close and treasured.

To know the presence of the Divine within is to understand that I will never ever be alone again, and that this One (these One's auctually), never left me. They have always been there, and it was I who had 'left', through my deep seated self judgement.

Find your deepest sorrow, find your deepest 'I'm not good enough'. and you will find your key. It is not to fix the thing, it is to FEEL the thing until you nearly loose your breath in it ~ and then look for it, look for the opening for that key, to release you into a greater truth. It will fit the door that has been held closed for the ages, and you will be amazed at what lies in wait for you upon the other side.

Here's a funny little thing that just came to mind we will all remember ~ "love means never having to say you're sorry"
Well, when this happened for me yesterday, I was engulfed with 'I am so sorry", but as I expanded, that fell away and became 'I am so loved'.

Karma is created through the belief that there is something to fix, to return for and make right. Enlightenment comes as we release that need, and look to simply stand as we are, beautifully, tragically flawed, and proud of it..

There is a key; it lies in wait, in the sand, in the dark, with the water close at hand....take a tiny light, and look for a shining edge, and you will have the ways and means to reach beyond that homesickness and longing.......and do remember to try and laugh a little while you look, it helps, it really does.
love to you
namaste



tiny edit to Shihan: no need to peek through the window...come in and laugh, the water is fine.....

Answer 2

Yes, I do. I was pondering over this feeling of loss the other day, and I thought, "Is this a spiritual problem in me, or is it just depression?" When I thought "..is it just depression?" my heart swelled, in that way of which you know.

Now I am happy. But I am no more perfect than I was yesterday. The only difference is that yesterday I ate foods that changed my brain chemistry in a way that made me feel depressed (and worthless). Today I haven't eaten those foods.

Somehow, I find that physical things (such as hormones, food chemicals, etc) can interfere with my perception of my connection to God. Body and mind are so intimately connected in this Great Plan.

What is the design in this need for both physical and spiritual self-discipline? What is all this preparing us for? :-)

Love and Peace, my friend. xo

EDIT: Okay then. I will have to ponder on this some more. Any clues?

EDIT2: Hmmm. 'Nother thought: Many Mormon converts say when they find the Gospel, that it "feels like coming home." I think any truth is like that. The more truth you find, the more that feeling of home-sickness is assuaged.

Answer 3

I have felt it, do feel it and when it gets annoying, I say "and this, too". It is part of the whole cosmic game. It keeps the 'big engine' running. :)

Without the yearning, longing, the energy would be removed. I call it "flat lined", but most don't understand what I mean when I say that.

The dualistic nature of living, the yes and no, the good and bad dynamic, we would not have the interest that we need, the contrast. And we do need this "interest". The passion of life!!

To feel the "homesickness" and give it the space it needs to manifest, almost honoring it's beloved presence (after all, it is the big invitation to life!)...this seems to ease the pain, the aloneness.

We are 'at home' with you!!

Answer 4

Hmmmmm. Humans are hard wired to try to make sense of life. We try to create order in our minds. I am not saying this very well. Or maybe the whole universe and everything in it is somehow on some level connected. There is a lot that we as humans don't know. But yes I know what you mean.
By the way I am an Atheist and glad to be one. I am not disappointed that there is no god. In fact it is a relief. If I believed in a god I would hate "him" because of the innocent suffering in the world.

Answer 5

I'm still reeling with/in shaktifire's reply ...

Meanwhile, here are Rumi's famous lines on the topic:

Love dogs

One night a man was crying,
Allah! Allah!
His lips grew sweet with the praising,
until a cynic said,
"So! I have heard you
calling out, but have you ever
gotten any response?"

The man had no answer to that.
He quit praying and fell into a confused sleep.

He dreamed he saw Khidr, the guide of souls,
in a thick, green foliage.
"Why did you stop praising?"
"Because I've never heard anything back."
"This longing
you express is the return message."

The grief you cry out from
draws you toward union.

Your pure sadness
that wants help
is the secret cup.

Listen to the moan of a dog for its master.
That whining is the connection.

There are love dogs
no one knows the names of.

Give your life
to be one of them.
.

Answer 6

Hi Jon!
Okay, I seem to want to tell about my 'breakthrough' to you Jon. I let my past resentments bite me in the heart this past month, and sparing you the raw details, I was in the middle of my angry tears last week again, my feelings of 'not good enough' had me, and what a poor little pity party it was, when all of a sudden, a thought ball came at me (like will happen in a dream sometimes when you 'grok' something) with the most calm deliverance I heard, "As you teach so shall you learn. You are free to perceive yourself as persecuted if you choose. If you react as if you are persecuted, you are teaching persecution. Instead, teach your own perfect immunity, which is the truth in you, and realize that it cannot be assailed. The false beliefs in your weakness, in your 'separteness' leads to false justifications for anger, which is unjustifiable. What you believe, you will teach. Shall we teach Love or fear?" Now, I'm not sure I can convey the depth and power of Truth this experience slapped into me, as my angry tears were INSTANTLY transformed into tears of absolute gratitude and Joy as I fell to my knees in a crying, laughing, crying freakin miracle of tears that flooded me for over an hour! I cried so happy! I felt so in Love with reality, so connected to the free current of giving, so full of hope and the knowledge that I can never be hurt in my heart unless I give my power away, unless I fail to 'see' that I AM THAT. Jon, it was one of the most powerful, wonderful, transforming experiences I have ever had in my little life here and I will teach LOVE cuz that's what I yam! I yam what I yam! Right on Popeye! Yeah for my crying miracle! (that's what I named it) I have had no negative self talk since! No loneliness! No yearnings that can't be filled with Love! I wake up every day now and ask me, do I still feel this happy? So far, Yes!
Sending you this Love current through the mighty oceans, right to your heart. You are loved!
Peace dear one

I Love what bodhiboy brought to your table here. Rumi, absolute beauty
Michelle V, you already won my heart long time ago. LOVE YOU

Answer 7

There is some cosmic energy going around these days. I and some of the other Witches have felt it. It's very strong, and it doesn't surprise me that you are feeling something that you can't quite put your finger on. It's a change that is just being felt, that can't quite be put into words. I have been feeling this rush, my heart pounding for no reason, my skin tingling, looking out and feeling that something is up....

Answer 8

There have been several moments, while out in the wilderness of life, that I have cried out... "I just wanna go home!"

And, it was when this feeling came over me, while -at home- in my very own house, that I realized there was more to this feeling of "Home," of which I had journeyed away from...

"How does one get Home, when already home?" I asked myself. And, it is the one answer that I seem to hide myself from the most.

Luckily, I have a wonderful and beautiful wife that I can curl up next to, as I shirk away from the world. And, when I am with her, it's like the world disappears and Home is everywhere! =)

Answer 9

Like you're ALMOST there . . . but not quite. If you took one more step in a certain direction, you would probably be over the edge, but you're not ready yet, but you still ACHE to be there. You ACHE to have completion, to FIND what you have been SEEKING and what you KNOW will come.

It almost drives you mad wondering WHAT ELSE you have to do before you can fully embrace the knowledge you have gleaned.

I yearn with you, Jon. We must not allow this to break our peace, to tear us apart from our path, to force us to forget who we really are. We must continue to exercise that nastiest of virtues, our patience.

Oh, to be as lighthearted and patient as the Cosmic Clan!!! They truly live for their moments. Rub off on me!!!!!

((((Mr. Baggins)))) I do adore you.

Answer 10

~Yes~ Jon, welcome to my world. To see into anothers being one must be that being, the one true being. The Moon of truth that travels in Buddhas sky of complete emptiness aren't empty words.{pun intended} Buddhas enlightenment unfolds and yet there is that solitude, always present. I use to wonder what true compassion was. It seems now to be beyond words. Looking back upon my life I gave up much in a way to follow this *pathless path* and yet all I lost was my ignorance. I know you as you know me. I would call you Brother and will but we are much closer than that and you know it.