I was wondering if their is anyone out there who might be able to shed some light on my situation. Please don't be mean or judgemental. Basically, I "float" through life, I don't really feel much emotionally. The only things that make me "feel" are usually dangerous. Examples; "deviant" sexual behavior, excessive speed, for instance going 130 mph down a back road, basically doing anything I know I shouldn't do. I feel like I get a rush of blood that pumps through my heart and I feel like I take in a breath of life. I would never hurt anyone, I guess I just don't mind putting my life at risk, that is what gives me happiness. I have heard of adrenaline junkies but I feel that my problem goes deeper than that. I feel like life doesn't have enough to offer me unless I am pushing the limits. I know this is strange, but I almost get an "out of body" expierence when I get hurt, like most people would be in pain but I get a rush. What is wrong with me? Am I depressed, psychotic, bored???
2007-08-29 08:43:40 · 8 answers · asked by ? 6 in Health ➔ Mental Health
By the way I am in my late 20's, married, and appear to the world as the perfect wife, college educated, hard worker, etc. I hide these things quite well for fear of rejection. I don't do drugs or anything like that. My life appears quite normal to everyone.
2007-08-29 08:45:05 · update #1
I had a horrible childhood, violent, etc.. I have tried to make the most "normal" life for myself. 4 years of college, married, own my home, but the very few people who know about my behavior seem to think I am subconciosly trying to ruin the good I have since I am used to life being rough. I have also had a lot of stressors recently, near fatal car accident, husband diagnosed with M.S. I don't know if any of this is related but thanks everyone- you have all made me think.
2007-08-29 09:16:13 · update #2
By saying I "float" does not mean my life has been easy. It means I don't really feel the emotions I should when things happen to me. Maybe I should have said numb, desensitized, etc...
2007-08-29 09:18:18 · update #3
Your problem is not strange. There are other people who have this need for "pushing the limits". You're NOT psychotic...however you may have some level of depression. That's worsened by the fact that you're trying to lead a double life in order to be accepted. My suggestion is to find a really good therapist, and get some counseling. Maybe he/she can give you some options on how to channel your excitability in a less harmful way
2007-08-29 08:52:22 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
When you go through life and don't really feel much unless your being thrilled, I would say that you might possibly have developed a psychosis. But that isn't necessarily the case. If you're extremely bored with your life you might start wanting more excitement.
It sounds to me like you are actually living a double life. First the married college graduate who puts her best face on for the rest of the world, second the thrill seeking secret agent women who laughs in the face of danger. You probably need to experience some things in life that your present situation doesn't allow you.
Try taking up rappelling. It's a thrilling hobby and quite a physical workout. Maybe you could parachute. Bungee-jump, anything like this. Go out and give yourself some excitement.
2007-08-29 08:56:30 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
I have a hunch you just never found a real purpose in life that grabbed you. So to fill up your life with a short term goal, you get a few "memorable moments" instead of having a purpose.
If I knew you IRL I'd try and help you find peace through Christ, but since i don't and there are a lot of people who misrepresent Jesus out there, I'll suggest Buddhism.
Find a Buddhist teaching center to you, and talk to them about helping find a deeper meaning in your life. I tell you, it'll help.
If you follow my first suggestion, read a lot of Norman Vincent Peale and NO "Left Behind" books, ok? Peale was the best.
2007-08-29 10:03:22 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Hi...I found it interesting how you started out stating that you "float" thru life....Trust me when I tell you that many people, including myself would like to float. There may not be anything "wrong 'with you except that you maybe think that "excitement" defines living. So interesting, that humans have so many perceptions of how life "is" or "should" be. At this juncture, I have to say...people....life is just a gift....to be enjoyed. Hell, we should want to be here as long as we possibly can! Our problem is that we have these "minds" that were given to us to solve problems, and as we have evolved, and problems have actually become less, these minds now "create" problems..Thus, the dilemma. First, believe this, then decide to be true to yourself by choosing carefully what your thoughts are....all the while realizing that your thoughts are merely ancestors to the way you feel. Keep your thoughts simple, maybe memories of pleasant childhood things...when the mind starts to become judgemental, angry resentful.....anything negative....regain control, and turn to thoughts of love, peace, you know...happy stuff.
2007-08-29 09:07:09 · answer #4 · answered by gianinni 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
There is a psychological disorder that a person can have where they basically need fearful or risky behavior to release the types of hormones that most people would otherwise have. I suggest going to a psychiatrist and telling them what you wrote here. You may be able to get some help before you get seriously hurt.
2007-08-29 08:53:52 · answer #5 · answered by Rahrah 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
your behavior isn't "deviant", but it is suggestive of the fact that your life does not hold enough challenge for you. You need to set yourself some productive yet difficult to attain goals. Like, pursuing a degree of some sort, or obtaining a very prized but difficult job, something you would find of value but perhaps thought you could not attain. Put your frustrated energies into attaining that.
2007-08-29 08:49:36 · answer #6 · answered by essentiallysolo 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
hmmm well its def the adrenaline rush that you like. i would just suggest doing the things you like in a more controlled enviroment. it is not as strange as you think and how you feel. i dont think theres is anything wrong with you. thats just who you are.in fact the whole driving thing theres a sport for that. and theres alot of things that people do like skydiving that puts thier life on the line. you like living on the edge.
2007-08-29 08:52:45 · answer #7 · answered by Julian G 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Cheating death or injury gives you a sense of power. Do you perhaps feel as if other aspects of your life are beyond your control?
2007-08-29 08:53:36 · answer #8 · answered by sleepingliv 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋