I think I was abused, I can’t remember it much at all. I have memories of an older woman holding me and smiling down at me in a wrong way, other than that its all just fuzzy bits and pieces. For the most part I had a good childhood, but those memories haunt me. I am sixteen, and I cut myself on a regular basis, before that I had cried myself to sleep every night. I have professional help, but I’m so incredibly scared and embarrassed. All my therapist has said so far is that im clinically depressed, I know I should tell her, but its harder than it sounds. I’ve told my friends about the cutting, but not the abuse, and now they are starting to believe that im just doing this for attention and they don’t like to be around me since I am mostly in a depressed mood. I don’t know what to do anymore, I just want to get on with my life before I screw it up for good.
2007-08-26 10:44:27 · 15 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
I told my friend about it, and she does believe me. She can't handle me anymore and doesn't want to talk to me. It was my fault i pushed her away. I pushed everyone away. Please don't say she didn't care about me or that she wasn't "true". She was true and she was also the only person I could talk to, and now i'm alone. Cruel, but i put it upon myself. I don't even know why i'm putting this on the internet. I guess it just feels better to vent.
2007-08-27 04:46:07 · update #1
i mistyped, she doesn't believe me.
2007-08-27 04:47:31 · update #2
If you can't bring yourself to tell your therapist out loud than right her a letter and give it to you at the beginning of your next session. As someone who also struggles with cutting and clinical depression as well, I understand what you're going through with your "friends" and all that (if they were true, worthy friends they would stick by you no matter what and see that something is truly wrong with your state of mind, not accuse you of doing it for attention.)...And trust me, your therapist has heard it all before so don't feel embarrassed to share ANYthing with her. She's there to help you through this kind of stuff! And my advice for the cutting would be to try and find a different outlet for your feelings like punching a pillow, screaming into a pillow, etc. You have to find a different and healthier way to vent those feelings. And remember, you can't work through your issues if you don't bring them up to your counselor. Good luck and good health!
2007-08-26 11:04:31 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
the first step is to recognize that you have a problem and that help is needed, that is the hardest part and you already did it ! So what is next, you need to focus on the future and look past all this that you are feeling now, ask your self what is better a lifetime of pain and hurting ? or talking about what happened to a professional and getting it all out, so you can walk around without all that emotional weight inside you ? I know that you will feel embarrassed but once you say it out loud it will start going away and there will be nothing to be embarrassed about, specially when it was not even your fault.
big hugs and be brave - you'll see what great changes will come to your life
2007-08-26 17:57:20 · answer #2 · answered by wanna_help_u 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I understand that it is hard but you are going to have to talk about it. Maybe you will start to remember more. Maybe this is the ROOT of your depression. If you get it out you may actually get better. The worst part is that you are in a vicious cycle until you get out of the depression. As you said your friends don't want to be friends with you. Well who wants to be with a depressed person, it makes you depressed to be around someone like that. So then people won't be around you. That just depresses you more. So you have to get to the root of the problem and solve it. Maybe you weren't abused by that person though. Maybe talking about it will help you remember the rest. Then you will realize it wasn't abuse and you will be able to move beyond that, and you will find that was STILL the root as you start getting better. It is the IMAGE that you were abused without really remembering what happend. That COULD be enough to cause your problems, and once you have them they compound.
2007-08-26 17:57:08 · answer #3 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Many of us have been exactly where you are.
At some point you have to just say that those events , as bad as they were, will not determine how you GO ON LIVING.
Your past is a memory. It is just how you got here.
Your experience made you what you are today.
You can only live here and now, one day at a time.
You can only plan for tomorrow.
Do not be embarrassed to tell your therapist. That is what they are there for. Your therapist will have heard much worse.
Besides it is all confidential.
http://themeaningisyou.com
2007-08-26 18:32:12 · answer #4 · answered by HJG 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
i am very sorry about your experiences, but the only way you will overcome is to get over it. i know it will be a difficult road, but you will have to try. and please do not cut yourself, because the slits on your body are permanent. also the first step to suicidal thoughts are cutting. so stop cutting before it gets worse. I am also sorry that none of your friends can understand how you feel anmd how hard it is for you to tell them about your abse. but i think you neeed to talk to someone like your guardian or one of your true friends. But be very wise who you choose to tell. Just dont worry about the abuse that was all in the past now. you cant have the past holding you now. appreciate what you have in the present, and look forward to the future.
2007-08-26 17:55:24 · answer #5 · answered by BlahBlah 4 · 0⤊ 0⤋
has she gave you any depression pills.
You need to tell someone about that. It may help believe it or not.
ALong time ago i had a dream everynight that i killed someone or someone died not sure now. But anyways i talked to my mom about it and they just stopped coming.
Sometimes all you need is to get it out there in the open to discuss
GOOD LUCK and oh stop the cutting. If you have children one day and they wask what the scars are what are you going to tell them?
2007-08-26 17:54:10 · answer #6 · answered by HATABLOCKAS ON! 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
to all this I can give you one help. Give yourself a big aim in life. and get passionate about it. Soon, all this will fade away.
All this is happenning because you have a _void_ in teh present. make yourself busy. i know it's hard.. but its more uselful than a therapist. 10 years from now you will regret
having wasted so much time thinking, thinking and doing nothing!!!
erase that void. replace thoughts be intresting action.
2007-08-26 18:26:57 · answer #7 · answered by Plz_Tell_Me 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Its really hard to tell someone about it. I was abused when i was little too. i don't remember much about it either. The only way to work past it is to tell someone. Just start with parts your comfortable with. It is embarassing but its the only way for you to get better. keeping it to yourself will just make it worse.
2007-08-26 18:45:28 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
sweetie i know what you are going through i went through a rough childhood but i meen i never got as far as cutting and stuff like that but seriously you should tell them whats really going on it will help in the end and you should really stop cutting your self its very unsanitary and you could get infected from nonstarilized blades
2007-08-26 18:57:19 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
You really need to tell the therapist this to find out whats what and get help. You're doing yourself no favor not telling her.
2007-08-26 17:52:20 · answer #10 · answered by mattgo64 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋