why i feel so alienated in the family?why i feel so down being with them?do they try to belittle me?

Question

ever since i was a kid, i used to feel something within the family. i cannot explain the feeling. there is something wrong which i cant figure out. its a peculiar feeling. as if there is something to be find out. years have passed, im a 24 years of age now. and last 2004, my mom told me together with my sisters-in-law, that i am an 'adapted child'..i cried out for awhile. asking lots of questions to them about my history and asking myself 'why'..but it didn't last. my agony has left me. i didn't dwell on to that situation. but of course, it really hurts. by now i feel more insecure and downcast. does anyone out there have the same situation?and feel the same thing. do i have to find for my biological parents?where can i find help?my mom told me that, she bought me for P 800, she doesn't even know that they are my real parents..all what she did, was to bought me and she didn't ask for questions. she cant even remember all things that had happen..its just so sad that i cannot see them..

Answer 1

It's probably not a good idea to search for a family that may or may not exist. You're an adult now. The past is over. Move on with your life and make a life for yourself. Find someone you can love and begin your own family. Probably your birth parents couldn't care for you. You have an a family who adopted you and cared for you. Now, it's time to stand on your own. The world is full of children who would be grateful to be adopted by a loving family.