Help! Is there something inside me?!?!?!?

Question

Im not a violent person at all, im mostly friendly and get along with people. Sometimes people treet me badly and brush me off and that makes me very angry. Recently my parrents got divorced and I feel normal because I was hoping for that to end disputes. Yet all those little bits of anger were gathering and they seem to control me in some ways. Now my mom has a high position in her job and I bareley se her and that makes me upset, negative and evil thoughts some how fill my mind sometimes all of a sudden. Sometimes I have these outbursts of extreme hatred that I try to contol. When these occur I fell like Im being controlled, my eyes turn red like when youre in the morning and my hands make claw like positions and I dont feel at all like myself. Recently I felt angry with my dad and I had an outburst. Im skilled at psiballs and the thing in me made one so potent that my dad suddenly got in 1 hour a very high fever. The thought I get are so vile I cant belive I that i thought them.

Answer 1

Ummmm...Maybe you should switch to decaf.

Answer 2

Are you perhaps insinuating there's a demon inside of you, controlling your emotions? While it does sound that way, I think you just have a lot of unresolved issues that your
parents' divorce created. And you may feel a lot of resentment towards your parents because they have not only broken the family unit, but also your trust. You've bottled up a lot of anger that you've suppressed for a long time, and now it's coming to the surface.

You must try to forgive them. Even you admitted that the disputes between them was making you upset. Can you imagine what it did to them? They are now at peace with themselves and with one another. It was for the best. Now you must make a life for yourself, and take the focus away from your past and look to the future. Develop some friendships, hobbies, interests, and if you're still in school, concentrate on your studies. Decide what profession you want to pursue. Make yourself approachable so that love might come into your life. Be happy and forget the old hurts. There's a whole world of opportunity out there for you. Learn from your parents' mistakes so you don't make the same ones. Good luck, and follow your heart.

Answer 3

Whether there is "something inside you" or not, I think you would benefit greatly from counseling. You need to express to your parents what happens when you get upset.

Some simple anger management counseling and toning down that imagination (as someone pointed out above) would help a lot. You're also probably in your teens, so the hormones are running high. It's normal to have strong emotions, but you need to learn how to deal with them.

Answer 4

Since your in R&S... I'd say Go to church!
Have the Elders pray with you and anoint your head with oil.
You'd be amazed by the power that is in the Name And The Blood of Jesus can Do.

I don't know what a psiball is but that is obviously not working for you. Try something Different.

I'll be praying for you.

Answer 5

I think its just part of growing up. You should keep a journal and when you feel that way write down your feelings and what things made you so angry. Also, you probably need to get involved in things, or hobbies so you will be more fulfilled.

Good luck. I'm sure it will all get better with time.

Answer 6

The "thing" in you is just repressed anger, I think.

You either want to find someone to talk to, or you want to learn some meditation techniques that will help you neutralize the negative energy.

Tossing it at other people is only going to keep the cycle of anger going.

Answer 7

You are not "possesed" there is nothing "inside of you". You are depressed and a lonely child. You are seeking attention and going about getting it in a bad way.

You need to do the logical thing and talk to your parents. Tell them how you are feeling and go see a counselor.

Maybe there is a good friend you can talk to. I bet even their parents will talk to you.

You have to talk to someone and tell your parents how you feel. Your life depends on it. Dont let this affect your way of life. Get control over it now.

Good luck. My prayers are with you.

Answer 8

Sounds like serious anger management issues coupled with a possible high dose of over imagination. I'm not trying to be rude here: therapy might be what is called for here. I've gone through it myself. There's times when you need to admit you need help.

Answer 9

You are normal. I want to explain to you a very real phenomena that you should be aware of that started many years ago. Listen close...there was a battle that occurred between someone named "Lou" and someone named "Jay" I've chosen to use their nicknames for ease of writing. Anyway, Lou thought he was all that, yet at some point he realized that the majority liked Jay better (He was friendly, fair, and self-sacrificing). Well, Lou tried to badmouth Jay by talking about him behind his back to rally support and he managed to get a third of the group to buy into his egotistical lies which were spurred on by his jealous need to be liked better than Jay. Here's how that turned out...when the news hit the fan about what Lou was trying to do, there was a big fight...Lou's supporters against Jay's loyal folks. Lou lost. Jay won. Lou and his possey were kicked out and now he runs around still causing trouble for those who remind him of Jay (friendly and able to get along with people). That really upsets him. You see, Lou's full name was Lucifer and now we know him as Satan. Jay's full name is Jesus, and He's so good He fought the battle to the death so that today, when Lou (Satan) tries to control you, he is powerless over you because Jesus is stronger. So the next time you realize that Satan is trying to steal your joy, depress you, or infuse you with his hate for the Jesus he sees in you, here's what you need to do:

1. Resist Satan and he will flee from you
2. Draw nigh to Jesus and call on Him for help each and
every time you need Him. Without fail, He has already
promised to help anyone who does this
*Ways to draw nigh to Jesus are to go to your
nearest bookstore (ie. Barnes and Nobles or
Borders) and ask for "The One Year Bible" This
has power readings you should read everyday...
they are automatically divided by each date of the
year
*Look in your yellow pages or call information and
find your local Seventh day adventist church.
Attend on any Saturday at 9:30 AM. Then ask to
speak to the pastor or elder and tell them your
problem. They will know what to do. They will
want to pray for you. This works.
*Read 2 books by Roger Morneau "Trip to the
Supernatural" and "Incredible Answers to prayer."
He describes similar experiences and how he
was able to successfully take care of this. You can
order from Amazon.com
3. Have anyone you know who has a relationship with
Jesus to pray for you. I would like to volunteer as
the first one. I run a prayer group every day and do
know that we will be praying for you. If you'd like to
join us sometime you may...the info. you will need to do
so is at: www.twominutesinthemorning.com
4. If you need to study more about who Jesus is and how
He can help you, there are some free study guides on
the web called "The Discover Bible Guides" that you
can check out at: http://www.iiw.org/discover/
5. Also, fill your home with talk of Jesus and also with very
enlightening and meaningful programming on topics
from better health to uplifting music to how to have
better relationships by tuning in to the 24/7 free
television broadcast right on the internet at :
www.3abn.org then click "watch now"

Be encouraged. Your situation is victorious. Satan is the looser...not you. Do what is recommended above and the problem will be handled. God bless you and keep you. God make His face to shine upon you. God be gracious to you and give you his perfect peace. Amen.

Answer 10

Psychiatrist, dude. There's no such thing as a psiball so you might need some heavy medication.

Answer 11

It sounds like there is huge hurt inside you, which was left and not dealt with, and has turned into anger, and eventually will lead to rage. Please seek counseling and get rid of it. It can only lead to more problems