I suffer from severe cronic depression, and recently attempted to take my own life. This isnt my first attemt, but it is the closest ive ever gotten. I flatlined twice in the ambulance, and once in the OR. After 4 days in ICU and 2 blood tranfusions here I am...still alive. People keep telling me that God has big plans for me, but I dont feel like I will ever get out of this hole that im stuck in. Im just so tired of this constant battle of good and evil in my head. I dont want the devil to win, but its not looking too good at this point. I know to some of you I sound crazy, and maybe I am, but there are those of you that know exactly what Im talking about, that understand how it feels to be tired. I need some advice though regardless how crazy you might think I am. Im scared and I dont want to go to hell. Please help me with this.
2007-08-21 18:41:10 · 30 answers · asked by cdearing79 1 in Health ➔ Mental Health
Thank you so much for all of your answers. I took what I needed and left the rest. I went to a psychologist and started meds earlier this week. Im feeling a liitle better, but I know this is gonna be a long road.
2007-08-29 12:40:26 · update #1
Whose forgiveness are you seeking?
2007-08-21 18:49:48 · answer #1 · answered by phoozball 4 · 1⤊ 2⤋
First off, I'd like to say that you are not crazy. Many people go though the same pattern you are currently going through. I also have a 19-year old aunt who has attempted to end all of the misery in her life. Being hospitalized and scared beyond reasoning, she slowly regained from the tragedy and is now going to college and has big plans for her future. We all have a purpose and no one should feel stuck in one place forever. I've been scared at one point in my life and thought all I had going for me was being stripped away. As time passed, I realized that good can come from the bad. I believe the next step for your situation is to accept what has been done and not to dwell upon the past too much. I'm a social kind of guy and have noticed that talking about our problems and having those around us understand allows us to feel accepted and not guilty for what we've done. Therapy is definitely an option towards a better life.
P.S. Everyone deserves a second chance and should do good with what has been given to them.
2007-08-22 02:00:54 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
Well, my best friend commited suicide in 2004 and a very close relative did last year, aged 17. At the time, I was planning my own death. I can`t bear the guilt for my feeling of wanting to die.
I accept that people have a right to choose if, how and when they end their own life, BUT, they should be able to try every other option first. There is nothing they did wrong in ending their own lives, but it is awful that both were recieving "help" at the time (and for many years beore), the sad truth is, they were both a drain on NHS resources. Unfortunately, there is very scant `resources` out there once you`re almost at the end of the line, and being put on a waiting list to see someone who might decide to refer you elsewhere in around six months really does`nt help.
I don`t think you`re crazy, and I know you`re tired of fighting what seems to be a losing battle. I hope you can try every other option to live (for yourself, not God, your family, guilt, etc).
Take care
2007-08-26 06:57:54 · answer #3 · answered by L 6 · 0⤊ 1⤋
Ive never tried to take my own life by actually following through with my thoughts, but I have thought about it and have been close to attempting it. I have been depressed most of my life, Im 22 right now and have recently been very depressed due to some other misfortunes but I always look at the greater picture and decide that I want to live to prove that I can overcome any obstacle. Ive accomplished a lot and know that my future will be a good one and you probably have a lot to look forward too also. We all go through are shitty times but you really just have to understand that things will get better as you grow older. Change your life if you have to, but dont result to suicide, its not worth it at all. You can e-mail me if you want someone to talk to or for whatver reason dankushead@hotmail.com
2007-08-22 01:56:29 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
First, I'm sorry you are feeling this way. It sounds to me like there is a lot of pain there and I think finding the root of that pain would be a great help to you. I would strongly suggest, therapy, www.stresscenter.com, and possibly meds just for the time being. Life is hard and it's not always fair, but it is worth fighting for. I firmly believe in God and from your question it sounds like you believe in Him too. Why don't you go to Him? Really open up to Him and see what happens. I'm not saying it will be instantaneous but it will happen. He doesn't want to see you hurting but you do have to invite Him to you. Right now I think you feel alone and scared and that's ok it's hard to be open when you are in pain. You are worth fighting for. You are not crazy and this will get better. All the best to you.
2007-08-22 02:53:47 · answer #5 · answered by Rae K 3 · 0⤊ 1⤋
Over time it is forgivable when thinking of that give it some time to think of another way to get your pain out. I know it feels like that is the only thing left after so much has happened. I hate that theres a bigger plan for you speech. All you can work toward is your own plan find something that will please you and work towards it. Only you can find whatever peace you can in life. Just make sure ya know that one decision you can live as you want and another decision is permanent and could never be taken back.
2007-08-22 02:34:32 · answer #6 · answered by BElow froSTy 4 · 0⤊ 1⤋
I have been there, a number of times, came close a couple times. I can honestly say that I am grateful to be alive, and believe God wanted me to stay here for a reason. I lost a man that i was in love with to suicide, he had bipolar disorder. It was the most horrific tragedy in my life, changed me forever. Devastated me and his family, it still hurts 3 1/2 years later. My priest helped me to work through a lot of the pain and believes that God would not turn away an ill sould. A healthy mind will not suicide. They might go through a pergatory to learn their life lessons and for their soul to heal, though. Please hold on and keep seeking help, it truly is worth it. Don't know if there are any magic words I can say to help you feel better, but please know I understand and will pray for you. God bless.
2007-08-22 01:52:31 · answer #7 · answered by kiki 5 · 1⤊ 1⤋
The only true answer to that is on the other side, to the people that you leave, the answer is no. You aren't crazy, just clinically depressed. It sounds like you are trying to tie up loose ends and make piece with your decision. If it gets to bad you can call 1-800-suicide. My thoughts are with you, I work in the mental health field and see this kind of suffering more than I would like to. Try and stay strong and remember that you do have resources available if you choose to use them.
2007-08-22 02:05:37 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 1⤋
It's very hard to forgive suicide. I understand where you are coming from but that is still no reason to take your own life. There are so many more people who are suffering. People who have no food or water suffer but they don't commit suicide. Be lucky for what you have. You may be struggling in life but stop thinking about all the bad aspects and remember or think of the good. Like your friends and family. Please don't commit suicide. Everytime you think of doing it go outside and take a walk. You will feel so much better afterwards, trust me. Just a bit of fresh air can help. Get occupied with things you like. Take up a new hobby like if you are an artistic person take up painting or if you like to sing then take singing lessons etc...
Every little bit of happiness in your life is priceless.
Just remember for every 60 seconds you spend upset is another minute of happiness you will NEVER get back.
Good luck for everything and whatever you do.
DON"T YOU DARE ATTEMPT SUICIDE because it's very unforgivable even if you leave a note or letter to family. They still won't understand why.
GOOD LUCK!!!
xroxyangelx
2007-08-22 01:58:23 · answer #9 · answered by Tinker Bell 4 · 0⤊ 3⤋
I want you to know ahead of time, that suicide is NOT forgivable. THERE IS NO ONE ON THIS EARTH THAT IS BETTER THAN YOU. All of us human beings suffer from depression and generally awful thoughts. There are also marvelous things to become acquainted with on God's wonderful Earth. Think on this, What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us? - Romans 8:31. The Lord daily loadeth us with benefits, even the God of our salvation. Selah. - Psalm 68:19. Peace, Love and God Bless.
2007-08-26 21:41:56 · answer #10 · answered by In God We Trust 7 · 0⤊ 1⤋
Please don't!
Believe me, I know it's hard, and just stopping the pain seems like an answer, but it's not. God would forgive you, of course, but your family and friends would go through hell for the rest of their lives wondering if there was something, anything, they could have done. I know. Please don't wish this pain on people that love you! Get more help, try different treatments, whatever it takes. Their IS hope.
2007-08-28 20:44:50 · answer #11 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋