I am the only one who can. It has always been my choice, even though my depression wouldn't let me see it. I could have moved anytime, but emotionally I wasn't able to move on -- so the cycle repeated itself day after day year after year. My misery fed on itself. It took far too long to realize I was my own jailer in this prison.
I’ve paid my dues
Time after time
I’ve done my sentence
But committed no crime
{ I am actively looking for a new residence now. This punishment must end. }
2007-08-19 14:37:43 · 12 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
I didn't write anything about offing myself. My apartment is my own prison, I have been stuck here since I lost grandmother over 10 years ago.
All of kinds things went wrong after her passing. I didn't go to graduate school. I didn't really grow up. I am still immature. I have so rarely dated, I am afraid of showing my inexperience.
My apartment is small, dark, and dank. I have two windows in the two main rooms. Not surprisingly, I don't want anybody here. I am as miserable as one can be.
2007-08-19 15:25:59 · update #1
Looking for a new residence is great! It shows that you want to move on. The depression is another matter.
As much as you try, you can't "will" yourself out of depression, because it's not just a matter of living in a dark house (that certainly contributes to depression), it's a matter of chemicals and hormones. I wish to God it wasn't, because I have the will and the faith and the grace to pull myself out of the pit and be the person I want to be.
On the other hand, moving out is a good step. You've got to leave the past behind. (I've done this before and it helped significantly.) You'll have new friends, neighbors, fellow students?? and a whole new world. If you can get your hormones to cooperate, even a little, maybe you can get back to a functional life-style and mind set.
Go for it, sweetheart. Change your environment and we hope it will affect the psyche.
TX Mom
not a dr. or therapist
2007-08-27 09:53:28 · answer #1 · answered by TX Mom 7 · 0⤊ 1⤋
I also answered your other question about harassment. I now have a better idea about your anxieties. You seem to have a built up anxiety from many events in your life. I also have this same problem and I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder this can be caused from many traumatic events in your life. Sometimes it does not occur right away. It can give you many of the symptoms as you have said such as social withdrawl, hypervigilance, anxiety, fear and distrust.
Check with your doctor and tell them all the problems and symptoms you have having , they could probably pin point your condition better.
2007-08-26 15:03:38 · answer #2 · answered by blazergirlblazergirl 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Today is the first day of the rest of your life. You can't control your thoughts, but you can control your actions. Act and your thoughts will follow. You're not going to rationalize your way out of being depressed, but you can choose to take positive actions that will make you feel happier.
2007-08-20 11:46:34 · answer #3 · answered by David 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
yes darling we all deserve to move on ,but not in the way your implying,you can end the punishemnt and without having to take your life. you sound so very tired sweety and i understand that, your
fed up and disheartened i get that also,yes you, ve paid your dues , many of us have, but after all youve been thru, you deserve a better reward dont you think. You are worth more , even if you dont believe it.
It sounds like to me that you have had to deal with this all on your own , without help, maybe that has been a form of punishement that you have put on yourself because you dont think your worthy of help.....YOU ARE!!!!!!! and believe me we all need help, none of us can keep on going without help every now and again. yes you can set yourself free, you can stop being your own inmate and you can do that with seeking professional help , and i wont lie to you, its not easy, its a fight, but its an empowering fight because you know deep down that someday soon , things will be better, believe me sweety i have been there and for 6 years now after many years of suffering I am now on the other end of it , the sunshine soaked end, and that sunshine is there for everyone.
You say you have committed no crime,but honey denying yourself happiness and not forging for it, punishing yourself like you have been , is one of the biggest crimes you can commit against your soul and being.
You are right , you are te only one who can make a choice , but its the choice choose that can be the difference between really being free.
You sound like such a deep thinker, a very intelligent soul, you have a chance to really make a difference in this world, but make it an inspiring difference, its easy to give up but you need real strength and courage to keep on keeping on. I think your the latter ,i think you have courage and i will have you in my prayers and thoughts
take care sweety
wanda
sorry , if you had explained a bit more i wouldnt have come to the conclusion i did.
2007-08-19 22:09:56 · answer #4 · answered by wandathewarrior 2 · 1⤊ 2⤋
I believe we make choices along the way. When we get sick and tired of being sick and tired, we make new choices. Making small choices can add up after a while. Keep thinking the way you are thinking.
2007-08-19 21:57:24 · answer #5 · answered by Hopefully Helpful 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
well, it is brilliant that you have come to the conclusion, that only YOU can change the things that are ruining your life..I always said, that when one gets sick enough of something, they will do something about it...I pray for you, that you find a wonderful place to live, where no one knows you and you start fresh to enjoy life...good luckxxx
2007-08-27 08:32:46 · answer #6 · answered by MotherKittyKat 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Thank you for sharing. Knowledge can open our world if we allow it in. Enjoy your journey with the knowledge that has opened the doors.
2007-08-19 21:55:49 · answer #7 · answered by odd 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
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2007-08-19 21:44:27 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
Good for you that you have finally realized your weakness now do something about it and make yourself proud!
2007-08-27 01:53:23 · answer #9 · answered by Making a difference 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
PLEASE READ THE BOOK "BATTLEFIELD OF THE MIND " BY JOYCE MEYER ....I'm not kidding you when I say it will change your life and change your thinking....if I knew where You were I'd send you a copy....please get it. let me know how your doing. I really do care and I will pray for you right now.
2007-08-25 21:20:02 · answer #10 · answered by Marie 7 · 0⤊ 1⤋