Question re: the Occult and Possession and Mental Disabilities?

Question

I have a mental disorder, or at least I’ve been diagnosed with one. I know this to be true but I feel as though there might be something more going on with my body. The disorder is hypomania but my symptoms do not match that which I have looked up in the medical fields and what my doctor has told me. Recently, a close friend of mine mentioned demonic possession and I began to wonder. Could this be something I have?

I don’t know really how to explain what happens to me when I have an attack. Time distorts and seems to be super fast and super slow at the same time. I have flashbacks of terrible memories that twist into horrible fantasies. Like I am watching memories of bad things happening to me or that I am doing, but I don’t really remember them. Then I begin to see the things I can do like cutting myself open or other really bad things I don’t want to mention. I feel like there is another person inside of me that isn’t really a stranger. I once named this person Lizabethe because she is the embodiment of everything dark and evil inside myself. This is not to say I am pure good, it is just that she is so very bad. But at the same time she and I are the same person so I get confused. Tt feels like I become trapped inside my head but my mind expands so big that is like the universe or even bigger. I feel like I can see everything that is and was and will be but nothing at all. My mind races too fast for me to follow and it is like there are tiny fireworks in my head that explode and trigger another one and then explode and trigger another one again. There is this voice that taunts me in my head. It doesn’t sound like me but sometimes I am afraid it is me. It tells me horrible things. Things I should do and should not do. It calls me a liar and it says things that hurt so badly. I want to tell it to stop but it feels like I have no control of myself and no power over it. I see everything my body does but I can do nothing to stop it. I hate it. I hate having no control. I hate the things it makes me see and think and feel. I take medicine to stop it but sometimes it doesn’t help fast enough and I loose control.

This is also very embarrassing but I especially feel like this during mass. I want to be a good, religious person but I always feel like there is something bad inside of me. My mind drifts during the mass and I see all these sick things in my head. Sometimes it is like when you are on the edge of your seat getting ready to jump up and just do something – that is what I feel like. Sometimes I feel like I am about to start laughing and I always get this urge to do something bad like know over the fount of holy water or spit at the picture of Jesus or just something! I don’t know. But then there is always this feeling of not yet. Like it isn’t the right time for whatever it is. When – I tried to cut myself badly I couldn’t do it because I felt like there was a purpose some terrible purpose that I needed to do. Even when I am driving and start to do something bad so I can well die I get that feeling again. I know it sounds stupid but it is like there is a string or something tying me down and not letting me do – I don’t know.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve had my medication changed and I see my doctor but I don’t know if he really understands what happens to me. It is hard to talk about and lately when I have an attack something goes wrong in my throat and I can’t talk. Before I could talk a bit during an attack and that helped me stop it but now it is like there is an invisible hand around my throat that catches my words before they can make it to my mouth.

I am Catholic but not a very devout one and I – maybe it is just wishful thinking that there is someone who knows exactly what is wrong with me, but I didn’t think about it seriously until this friend mentioned it. He has seen a lot of scary things because of his job and I trust him but I was too afraid to tell him about this. I am just so tired of being dependent and of always being sick. I want to get better and something inside me doesn’t want to. I don’t want to be like this anymore.

I know this is probably the stupidest thing to say or post or whatever but I feel like I am getting worse and running out of options. Please any kind of help is good. Thanks.

~BNB

Answer 1

I think you should seek a second opinion. It sounds more like some other serious mental illnesses that have different treatments and resolutions. I would seek a second opinion and have some chemical testing done.

Answer 2

This is an easy matter for you to sort out. Firstly, the fact that you are looking beyond your "illness" is a great sign that you will eventually be healed completely. Speak to your priest. Every catholic church has access to an appointed excorcist. Excorcism is another word for love. A lot of priest resist having anything to do with matters such as this. But some priest are wise and gifted. At the same time. Entertain the thought that your ideas about demonic possession are actually symptoms of a mental illness (keep 1 foot in reality and 1 foot in spirituality). Its probable that u are very creative. Have you tried songwriting or painting?? I have always found that being creative heals mental illness. Good luck.

Answer 3

Possession by demons is real but not common. Usually they don't put in personal appearances. In Jesus day they did because he was there. Since they were around Jesus, they were not around the rest of the world at that time, appearing nightly, to carry the showbiz terms further.

Far more likely is mental or biochemical imbalances.

If it still a concern to you, check for the presence of demon influences in your home. Ouji boards, idols, stuff that belonged to a spirit practicer, that sort of thing should be removed to avoid allowing demons into your home. Destroy them as it is like waving a red flag at a bull (although bulls are color blind). Demon spirit forces are just as real as bulls, just a different form of life.

I suffer from dysthymic disorder depression myself. It messes your life up almost as bad.

Answer 4

A friend of mine is a psychiatrist, and he admitted that they often see cases which they can only explain as supernatural.

If this is the case I really believe that God will set you free if you ask him, and keep asking until it happens. His love and power are amazing... I know it feels embarrassing to you to admit what you are experiencing, because people tend to dismiss any possibility of supernatural forces and make fun of the idea, but I think you should speak to Christians you trust. And keep praying...

BTW, your post sounds more logical and sane to me than many of the things I've read in this forum!

My heart goes out to you. I'll pray for you. : )

Answer 5

If you feel that your doctor has misdiagnosed you or the medicines don't work well perhaps you should get a second opinion.

I am of the belief that your issues are of a psychological nature, and not due to demonic possession. I suggest asking your doctor if there is another diagnosis that could fit your symptoms better. Additionally, it is extremely important to be as open as possible with your doctor to ensure the most accurate diagnosis possible. Sometimes this is difficult, especially with psychological issues, but it is absolutely crucial.

Best of luck.

Answer 6

Nobody or NO "thing" can keep you from CHOOSING to call on God as your SAVIOR! Jesus Is His name. Just say, "Jesus, I don't know what is wrong with me,but you do and I need you to come to my aid and protection right now..., I ASK You to BE my LORD and my Savior and I mean it with all my heart! I choose to forgive anyone who has ever harmed me and I choose to forgive myself for all harm I have ever done... now I ask YOU to forgive me.
Show me You are hearing me and answering my prayer to You and send the right people into my life and take the wrong people out of my life!!
Amen
You have nothing to lose!! God bless you.
Doctors are NOT a threat to Jesus and He can work no matter what your diagnosis or medications. There is no conflict here. Our "spirit is surrendered to God", our soul: mind/intellect, feelings/emotions can be given to the Lord Jesus also by CHOICE VERBALIZED, and our body is treated from the outside by physicians, medications, holistic health approaches and/or given over to the healing of God. Do it all! It WILL make you better! Trust God, it can get worse if you don't.

Answer 7

I think you need to look into the Multiple Personality Disorder, and possibly see therapist on weekly bases. Do your meds help at all? If you want to discuss this in private, you can e-mail me. Good luck.

And, try to follow the general rule of thumb - if you know a certain situation will worsen your state, try to avoid it... maybe see a pastor and discuss this with him as well, if you trust the individual, but, if not, just look for a good therapist.

Wishing you well...

Answer 8

You have me heart broken I have so much concern, I do have
A lot of knowledge,I am Christian,The line between posseession and illness is so fine,I have never ever seen a doctor cure even one person of mental illness,not one.Often
they will restrain and deeply drug but they do not heal makes me "think" it is not medical.I am not Catholic but they are well trained and perfom exocisms daily.I highly recommend you speak with a Preist.I will be your friend,you may e-mail me,at
times two minds are better than one.With deep concern.
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Answer 9

I am not a professional anything, but, I do know God, and I do know the Bible. What you are explaining to me sounds like possession. I didn't say it IS possession, I said it sounds like it. Only because I have seen it before in my own family. I don't believe in Schizoprenia, or dual personalities. There is nothing in the Bible to back that up. There is, however, evidence in the Bible that demonic possession exists, because Jesus Himself cast out demons. What kind of meds are you on? Are they anti-depressants? My sister suffered from similar symptoms that you have, and she was on anti-depressants for a long time. The Bible describes them as Pharmakia. These are medications that alter your thinking. They can open up your mind to things you have no idea. You need to talk to someone who can help you right away. I don't mean a psychiatrist. They will only prescribe more pills. Do you remember when this all began? Do you have a Ouija board or anything like that, or have you , or do you mess around with anything of the Occult? If you do have a Ouija board, burn it!! Do it now! If you are involved with anything that has to do with the Occult, get rid of it, now! Repent of all your sins, and ask Jesus Christ into your heart. Get on your knees where you are now, and do it! Demonic spirits cannot indwell where there is the Holy Spirit. Go to a pastor, and talk to him about this. If he doesn't listen, find one who will. This is serious, and I can tell that you are desperate. I don't want to scare you. I want to help you! Please believe me. I am sincere. I am a Christian, and I love you. If you are feeling like this more so when you are at church, then, I believe it is demonic. Do you believe Jesus died on the cross for your sins? If you do, then pray this prayer with me now. Please get on your knees.
"Heavenly Father, I am a sinner. I am sorry for all the sins I have committed against you in my life. Please forgive me for my sins. Thank you, Jesus for dying for me on the cross. Thank you for forgiveness of sins. I accept you into my heart as my Lord and Savior. I will live my life for you from now on. Lord, I ask that you keep me from all evil. I ask that you cast out the evil from within me, because I cannot do this on my own, nor can any man. I need you Jesus, and I ask this in your precious, holy name. Amen" Please go seek help today!
I will be praying for you. God Bless

Answer 10

John 3:16. Know you are a sinner and accept God's grace. He sent His Son to pay for your sins on the cross and He rose again, having victory over death and hell. If you accept Christ, you soul will belong to HIm- and any demonic forces will not have power over it anymore.