i feel like killing myself?

Question

it seems like i dont really have much freedom to write as much as i want due to the character limit in this box.,
simply, i just feel like killing my self. i feel hopeless. i am of foreign citizenship while inside i feel like i belong to where i've spent the last 6 years of my life, california. now im back to my national country, and the customs here just dont make me feel like im home. the things i have to do here to survive just doesnt feel right and i feel very lost. What should i do?? i want to go back to my home that really feels like home. i feel like i should do my best to get American Citizenship but i just feel hopeless cuz i know that that will be really hard. therefore, now i just feel like killing myself. im lost, hopeless, and suicidal. i cant sleep at night. please help me.

Answer 1

Please find someone to talk to, family member, healthcare person, perhaps a religious counselor. You should not be alone with these thoughts, talking about them helps you deal with them and helps you see another way. Many people consider suicide, you are not the only person to feel this way. As long as you are alive, it is possible to find another joyful experience, to set a goal and work toward it, to help others. Can you figure out how to work things out over the future months to get yourself back to California -- that would be a goal worth working for.

Answer 2

Oh gee.I actually know the feeling,I once felt same,though situation was different.I say,write all things that you like in life,in yourself,in world on sheet of paper and write all the things that you don't.I am pretty sure you'll find a lot of good things.And try to give yourself a reason why do you want to kill yourself.That is,actually,a most selfish thing you can do.Think,and you will see it's true.I think you should also talk to someone you trust.And also,don't hope that someone will 'make you feel like home'.Get real.You are the only one who can and has to do it.By the way,if you want to ask something again,you can e-mail me,or write me a pm :)

Answer 3

Just calm down. You need to be with people that cares for you at the moment. You have a choice, pick your self up and be strong and get your citizenship. Or go back home with your family and then you may regret losing what u always wanted. It up 2, what makes you happy.

Answer 4

suicide is not an answer to any problem.

if you feel that hopeless and want to commit suicide, why don't you put that all that effort and thinking into trying to get your citizenship. In the end it will be worth it, even if it's hard.

Seek hope in friends and family. You arn't alone in feeling this way.

And you might want to seek some professional help if you are feeling that desperate.

Answer 5

If you really want to come to America then I suggest you go and find out what career path you can take in order for you to get a work visa.

Without more information it is difficult to point you in the right direction in regards to the right pathto take if you want to come to America.
(what visa were you on?/were you here with parents?/were you deported?)

Yes it is difficult and stressful getting a visa and green card and them citizenship and does take a number of years for the whole process.

But the only one who can make this happen is you, and killing yourself is not the answer. Then your dream will never come true.

Answer 6

Talk to someone. Anyone. Whether it be a neighbor, a friend, a counselor, or whoever. Just dont kill yourself. I tried last year, because I felt the exact same way you do. I am very glad I didnt succeed however. Sure, life throws crappy stuff at us sometimes, but you have to learn to be strong. So just promise all of us who are concerned that you'll talk to someone about your feelings, okay? Good luck!

Answer 7

As someone else wrote, it's a permanent solution. What's the hurry?

Yeah, I know what psychological pain feels like. It can be a heck of a motivator.

Still, you can always decide to kill yourself another day. What the hell, might as well stick around and see how this all turns out.

Answer 8

You should find some sort of help imfidiately to get rid of that suicidal feeling. There are lots od clinics and doctors to help you with that. I feel for you buddy, and I don't want you to die. Maybe you shold move back home afterwards, if that makes you feel truly happy.

Answer 9

I am hearing Major Depression in your writing. I don't know what country you are in but if it is at all possible you desperately need to get on some antidepressant. I hope you can see a Dr. - soon.

Answer 10

Killing yourself is so permanent. You are worth so much more than just ending your life. You can do so many other things than just killing yourself. You can talk to someone about how you feel. If you can't talk about things you can write about them or you can go for a walk or listen to music. Killing youself isn't worth it and please don't do anything.