seriously what can you do if you feel alot of people know about you, want to humilate you & turn everyone?

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against you? ~ even preventing you from achieving things in life and blocking everything you want to do?

ive had these feelings since 16, ive had a very traumatic life with alot of victimization and abuse...im 30 now and have borderline pd.... my psychiatrist called these feelings an extreme distrust of people after what id been through....he said its not paranoia or im not deluded...he said i have a good reality check....im presently waiting for therapy....i live alone, never made no friends in life and am on welfare.

my ultimate goal is to emigrate from the uk, wipe slate clean build a new life. but i think, how can i if u think people are talking about me or know who iam or im being prevented, ostracized and treated differentley from everybody else...how can i fullfill my goals and overcome my problems if thats happening?
i know it sounds mad but if this is happening to me and the masses are ostracizing me, treating me different, stopping me from living my life, how do i

overcome that? try and see it from my perspective for a moment
i really want to beat my problems and achieve things & live
a normal life..move away from england, but if im being talked
about like a 'media circus' being ridiculed and mocked by people
what chance have i got? how can i live that down?

i dont want to think my every move is being monitored and im being
prevented if i was to try and emigrate, by unknown persuctors..
like i said, these are just feelings i have, im not certain
that these things are really happening, its just stong thoughts.
and my psychiatrist said i wasnt deluded, he said i feel this way
about people because of everything id been through, all the abuse
i suffered , and what people put me through.....so now im waiting
for therapy....but how can i go out into the world and try to
make my dreams happen, when i think people are being like
this towards me?

has anyone got any ideas or strategies about a way forward
and how i can get through this? and if iam being ostracized
and being treated weirdly by people, what do i do then?

im not superman, i dont have endless reserves of resolve....plus i hate superman to, hes wack.

iam french & native heritage

Answer 1

Everybody feels as if the world is against them at one time or another, whether they want to admit or not. Human nature is to feel sorry for oneself but you have put it behind you and get on with life. If you don't that life will be the pits!!

Answer 2

First, I want you to take a deep breath, slowly... breathe in,,, then slowly out... relax for a few moments while you read my answer to you. Of course you can start a new life, each day is a new day and you have the opportunity to wipe the slate clean. I too have had an abusive past and used to feel similar to how you described your situation. The things that worked for me was reading just a couple of books. One was called "your Eroneous Zones" by Dr. Willam Dyer.. Excellent answers about guilt, worry, other people and the lack of intellitgence in the masses... the other is called "The Game of Life and How to Play it" by Francis Scovel Schinn".. A really awesome book, very short easy to read..

Stop yourself from even worrying about others... they all have the same fears and insecurities as you and are "dumping" their fears on you.. you happen to be a person that is sensitive and are taking it.. stop taking it... Who are they anyway.? You are the most important person in your life, there is nobody standing behind you helping you make decisions, or making sure you are happy and safe. You must practice ignoring the fear talk your head or inner self rattles on about... try saying shut up to that inner voice, and repeat to yourself as many times as you can, (fake it till you make it) I am happy, people like me, I am a good friend.. and I smile alot...

I suggest that you may not need to move to another country, now how about just another town? I would also suggest getting a job, any job, just something that you can see some accomplishment at teh end of the day... That can really help restore what sounds like a shattered self esteem. You may also check out some support groups in the area so you have some people to talk about your issue with. I helps to have others with similar challenges and it is nice to have friends.

Nobody gets total love from the world, most are ignored because people are all wrapped up in their own worlds and themselves... dont take it personally and... in my opionin, you dont need a phychiatrist, you just need to forgive everyone and everything... including yourself... (not for them, only for you) and even though it sounds corny... count your blessings or.. the good things in your life...

Best of luck

Answer 3

It sounds like you are at a low point in your life. You are taking the appropriate steps to feel better. Perhaps some medication can help you. People are so wrapped up in their own lives, they most likely are not spending a lot time thinking about upsetting you. I hope you will be able to make a new start and fulfill some of your dreams. Keep Those Dreams Alive

Answer 4

I've been through many of the same things, and still do. You will run into people who are total assholes and only want to make themselves feel bigger. Try to increase your self-confidence. Work out, build muscle. Take up a hobby like magic or music. If you want to start into magic, try to find your local magicians circle.

The bottom line is you can't control what happens to you, but you can control HOW you react to it.

I'm not a psychiatrist, so talk this over with your therapist.

Answer 5

I think that the treatment you are waiting for will probably help you out. It sounds like your condition is causing you to think these things, that people are out to get you, so to speak, when in reality that is not the case. You definitely need to get some kind of treatment, medication & possibly some counselling to help you overcome your tramatic past. There are lot's of people out there that care enough to want to help you so try to remember that when you start to think distrusting thoughts. I'm sorry about your past & I hope that your condition improves so you can begin a new life.

Good luck to you & God Bless!

Answer 6

Despite the fact that you're on nearly all the benefits this country dishes out, you keep moaning about how bad life is for you and how you want to emigrate. Well, as a "French/Part Heritage" person, you know quite well that you'll never make it to America due to your past medical record including violence to others, so why don't you go to France and let THEM look after you - surely your Mother can help you out in that direction and you'd have no difficulty with the language unless that's a load of old rubbish you've been trying to feed us with too !

Answer 7

If you want to move and start fresh, do it. How will you know that people are talking about you, if your living somewhere else? Think, as long as you don't hear people talking about you, or hear about people gossiping about you, you don't care. People can hate me all they want but as long as I don't hear what they are saying I don't worry about it. I've had alot of bad stuff happen to me too during my childhood. Every type of abuse you can think of, i've had it done to me. But i've moved on and i'm studying Nursing at University. Hardly any one will know who you are or your past if you move to another country. You're an adult, you can do what you want as long as it's legal, regardless of what anybody else says.

Answer 8

if no one knows anything about you,...they have nothing to go on..now if it is so called family,..then start avoiding them..not to be mean, but just don't let them know who and what you associate with..how can they do damage, when they don't know who you are trying to communicate with? the key is, do NOT arm others especially those you consider enemies..with personal information..if they already know it. steer clear of them