Do I need to go to rehab or therapy? I almost given up hope in being happy.?

Question

Like everyone else in the world, I had a rough childhood. I'm 23 now and my problems from my childhood are still haunting me. I've have Post Traumatic Stress, anxiety, and depression. I'm on Prozac and Xanax. Recently, I've been mixing my medication with alcohol and blacking out. I have to be honest, and say I like it because I can't deal with life so blacking out is like getting away for a while. I tried to commit sucide twice, but honestly they were half-assed attempts (6 codine pills the first time and 6 Xanax pills the next). I have friends, I am in grad school, people say I'm cute, and I have a great life. But when one single little thing goes wrong, I overreact and think I should end it all. What's wrong with me? I've given up on therapy as I have been going for 4 years. I just want to feel like I don't want to numb my way through life with medication.

Answer 1

I take a pretty high dose of medication for schizophrenia and major depression. For the past 5 years I have had no symptoms of either illness and I live a happy normal life.

I take Wellbutrin 300 mg, Zoloft 200 mg, Ativan 2 mg and Abilify 10 mg.

I suggest you read the book "Real Magic" by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer. It's a self help book that teaches you how to be happy, healthy, successful and prosperous in daily life through positive thinking and actions. You may get some good ideas like leaving your past behind and getting on with happiness. I studied this book with good results. Hope that helps.

Answer 2

You need both, plus! Have you had a blood work done? You may have a chemical imbalance that needs attention. Find a different Dr. Go see an endocrinologist. Explain what is happening. Thyroid can be whats wrong or some other problem. I use to crave alcohol and go into deep depressions. I finally went to a big city hospital 100 miles away. I found out that I had hasimotos disease. There are medications that can help. In the mean time, therapy can help deal with the complications that you need to work through. There is a better day ahead for you. Make new friends. Go for long walks. Exercise. Try to let go of the past. Get away from all negative people for awhile. Love yourself. You are your best friend.

Answer 3

ask yourself a question. when you made your half-assed suicide attempts, did you really want to die? or did you just want help out of your situation? suicide is not the answer sweetie. i know it can seem so hopeless, but you are a unique, special person that is probably loved by many people. Think about how many lives you would affect in a bad way if you weren't around anymore. I don't know if you are religious, but having God in your life can make all the difference. Try praying and asking for help to feel better. Is there anyone you trust? Tell them exactly how you are feeling and that you need help. Prozac may not be the right medication for you. Tell your doctor how you are feeling and he/she can have you try a different medication. After prozac didn't work for my sister, she tried effexor and said it made all the difference for her. Your life has a purpose, do whatever it takes to grasp on to that idea. Never be afraid or ashamed to ask for help. Many people battle the same thing you are honey. You are not alone!!

Answer 4

I think that you really need to think about why you feel the way you feel. Then think about your family and how it will affect them. I also had a very bad childhood and have been through alot but i try to look at the positives, remember there are those who are alot worse off than you or I. I also had a brother who i was very close to who committed suicide. It will be 20 yrs ago next year. It still hurts me and i miss him I wish I could just sit and BS with him. I wish he could have seen my kids and visa versa. His B-Day was the day after mine but he was 2 yrs older. He was 26 and one of the most amazing people i have ever met. He was kinda my hero and it really tore me apart. I don't know what you believe in but, focus on your blessings. I know i survived alot by just letting it go - no matter what it is it can only hurt or stop you if you let it. Look around you - In the big scheme of things a grad student is really not that bad. pressures pass, life goes on do you really want to quit. I still to this day cannot really think of my brother without crying. the pain you feel and the pain you have been through will pass and you will grow from it and maybe be able to help someone else out. if you have been through alot and have come this far think of your acheivements. Everybody fuc-'s up and everyone has issues some granted more than others but your 23 you can still rule the world. Do what makes you happy, focus on your dreams and don't hide in the quagmire of medicated escuses. LET YOUR PAST GO - Don't let it stop you, learn from it and move on. Please for my brother, for your family, for you.

Answer 5

Maybe you're just not with the right counselor? I saw two therapists who were total crap before I found one who was able to help me. Also, there are so many different types of therapy out there - CBT, DBT, Acceptance and Committment Therapy, Exposure Therapy, etc. Maybe you just need to try something different. Don't give up. I suffered for a long time but I am better now. Also try self-help books and programs if you haven't already. And I know you are in college (that's when i had horrible anxiety), but stopping drinking can really help reduce anxiety and depression. I drank and partied a lot and when i finally stopped a lot of my symptoms decreased. Eating right, exercising, and sleeping enough helped too. You will get better.

Answer 6

Go back to therapy and stop with the alcohol. Get a hobby like painting it a great way to release the stuff you got buried inside you. There is such a thing as art therapy. Exercise can help. Please do not think about killing yourself or try you may not succeed and make your life awful if you make yourself crippled. Worst of all your going to miss out on all these Q and A. Seriously seek help you need to talk to someone.

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Answer 7

I know that my father was in a similar situation, taking prozac, but the drug that was prescribed to help only created a different problem. what he did, was 1st stop taking the drugs altogether and his girlfriend gave him other things to do to ocupy his time. I know post tramatic stress like any problem you need to step back from yourself and focus on fighting the fear that running from it. example fear of flying, take a repelling course slowling going from climbing a small tower to down a mountiain in a safe and secure way. get active in a group, and there are pleny of things to help you that are natural without drug side effects and complications. recently me and my family have been drinking this vemma juice and we feel great, more energy and even sleeping better, I normally get sick easily i mean all the time, at my work there is a virus going around people calling in sick, i think i got it, but insted of the normal drinking lots of nyquil and ect... i took a nap a drink of the juice and now i feel better try it.

Answer 8

You need to go see people that have it so bad like no parents because they were killed in front of you,or living in a shack with no running water.These are things to be depressed about but you see these people with smiles on there faces.I for one had a very very bad childhood and went through a good part of my life with a chip on my shoulder,poor me attitude and i tried like you, to kill myself but not really i just wanted someone to notice me that's all it was. I got through it because i had to I didn't want to die.
I just started to take a good look around at everything and everybody and thought to myself I'm not alone feeling like this there are a lot of us out here.I just took one day at a time don't look at tomorrow if it gets you down.You know sometimes you here that one thing that clicks in your head and you get it,life isn't as bad as you are making it out to be for yourself. It will get better for you,I promise.

Answer 9

Rehab is a form of therapy, but it seems like you need to talk to your therapist about alternative drugs ot treatment.

The most important thing is to have people around you who support you and to never give up hope.

Answer 10

I <3 You. Try to smile, sweety.

(Btw, Miss Kathleen. Thanks for the recommendation - I'm DEFINITELY gonna check that book out!)