I can't believe I'm admitting to this. (Only on yahoo answers, of course.) I've always been a pretty unhappy person, even as a kid. I try to be happy but it's like I'm pretending, because I don't really feel happy.
I feel like I'm drowning most of the time, like I'm only hanging on for my family. I don't have any dreams or anything. I can't seem to see my future at all other than more unhappiness. I dread getting out of bed every day. Sometimes it's so bad that I have anxiety and can't sleep because I know that I'll open my eyes and it'll be morning again.
I think about it and I'm like if I had real guts I could go ahead and end it, but I can't seem to summon the courage to do it. And I feel guilty for even thinking this way, but it just doesn't change the way I've always felt.
2007-08-12 17:10:04 · 10 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
you know sweety, its not the courage to end it, its the courage to keep going , and i think you are probably stronger than you think thank god.
as for your depression , depression is very hard to fight on its own, i can imagine how tired you have been all these years trying to fight it, but there are so many options for you.
firstly i suggest you see you GP , explain everything and go from there.
I have depression and anxiety so i know where your coming from,I have a great doctor and am on the right medication which has hanged my life.
There is nothing wrong with seeking help , depression is an illness, would you deprive yourself if you had cancer or some other illness, well its the same with depression.
dont deal with it anymore on your own darling, and realise that the reason you havent done anything like take your life , is because deep down you know its not the answer.
take care sweety
wanda
2007-08-12 17:24:25 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
It sounds like you're really struggling and sounds like you have been for ages. You must have some strength to still be hanging in there even though you feel so awful!
It's the hanging in there that takes guts.
You can feel better than this - getting treatment will help. The first step is to let yourself talk to someone in a position to listen and help you. Despair is nothing to be ashamed of. It can be fatal if you don't make some connection with a helping person, though.
This might be your doctor or a teacher or someone on a crisis phone line as a first port of call. You might decide some treatment options with them that may include talk therapy and medication. There are loads of good books about sadness and hopelessness ( how to cope with and reduce it, not increase it..!)
If your family can't cope with giving you emotional support, don't give up - get them involved other ways - enlist their support in doing activities or chores with you - inactivity and isolation make this kind of stuff harder to get through and there are lots of ways for people in your life to support you that doesn't involve talking about feelings - not everyone is comfortable with that.
I really hope that this has been helpful? It's a big thing to ask for help. It can also take a long time to come around to accepting it as well, especially if this just feels like the way you are, so give yourself time to make changes.
2007-08-13 00:32:28 · answer #2 · answered by sac_butt 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
you probably dont want to hear this, but by what you said you just might. you do have a dream...death. now. think about it this way. life, Family, Ambition...well you have the 1st part done deal. Family. you have that. now for the last one you only have part of that. your past will never change. neither will you. but the senery and the situations will. you dont have the nerve to end it 'cause youre standing in line with alot of people but still havent taken a number. if the number was high enough you'd wait till the end or deside to quit and step away from the start of the line. if it was low enough you'd be next in line. the problem is what you know. that you dont know and youre stuck in the middle of life and death 'cause you dont know what ither are. you need a strong hold so get a day planner plan out your whole day and live by it take a number and if youre next in line you'll find the guts that every one has but sometimes forget. believe me i had the same problem. i stoped thinking about others and cared for myself got my self together...took a number and im not close to the end yet. i hoped this made since im sorry if it didnt. XOXO
2007-08-13 00:32:52 · answer #3 · answered by Allison 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Unhappiness, drowning, only hanging on, anxiety, dread getting out of bed,, lack of sleep, see no future, no dreams ...........
Have you noticed the symptoms?
I hope you can find the guts to walk into your Dr.'s office, and to tell him these symptoms are yours.
Your Dr. may well have the solution to your physical and mental problems.
I also hope you have the wisdom to talk this out with a Counselor - yeah, really. Some parts of your life aren't working for you. You've gotten stuck. So it's time to address it instead of staying stuck, instead of quitting. Asking for help takes courage, and I believe you really want to live.
2007-08-13 00:35:17 · answer #4 · answered by Hope 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
It sounds to me like you really don’t want to kill yourself you just want some things in your life to change, it’s a good sign you back out that means deep down inside you still have some hope that things will get better. Don’t let that light go out no matter how minute it might be. Find one thing in your life that makes you happy, what one thing always puts on smile on your face and don’t let go of it. And get some help, sometimes depression runs in the family and with help you can overcome it.
Good Luck
2007-08-16 22:25:51 · answer #5 · answered by Daphne P 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
OK so think about it really hard! You really don't want to die! You just want the crap to leave your life and you want to feel good and be happy! I felt the same way you did 5 years ago and I realized what I am telling you, I went to a Psychiatrist and took anti depressants for a while until I could get through the fog and find my life and will to live again, now I am happy I did Good luck to you Please think before acting.
2007-08-13 00:23:29 · answer #6 · answered by katie d 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm glad you are admitting this! Now that you've identified how you feel you can start fixing things up. Make a plan and put it in writing. One step at a time. If you can't manage on your own seek support or professional help.
Take care
2007-08-13 00:35:03 · answer #7 · answered by flip 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
nope... you just are searching for help.. what ever is pulling you down and it may be many things/people. its time to make changes and clean house of things that are negative.if its friends dumping their problems , you may have to distance yourself. Hey, cars need tune-ups / oil changes... our minds do to at times.. seek help. invest in you!!!
2007-08-13 14:26:00 · answer #8 · answered by ? 5 · 0⤊ 0⤋
join the club my friend.....and your parents are enough reason to not end it.. ..dude..life can suck..hang on and ride it out.....look for someone to talk to..helps ..holla if you need a bud....
2007-08-13 00:33:12 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
please visit this website!!! http://www.ninjapirate.com/killmyself.html
p.s. you are a f ucking p ussy... go get a god d amn gun
2007-08-13 01:02:03 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 4⤋