Would you suggest I seek psychological counseling?

Question

I'm very introverted, even in youth. I was skinny, grew fat in high school but since then have been excersizing regularly and now I'm in good shape. Around people I know I can laugh and be normal but in clubs or large crowds I quickly clam up and become suspicious... almost angry at the strangers.

I have very vivid dreams and they are often fixated on the few girls I've been interested in before. When things wouldn't progress with them, I sometimes spent whole days fantasizing about how to change their mind or on dark days I'd even imagine making them miserable. I often consider ways of destroying myself. I've always been considered quite intelligent by people looking into my thoughts.

There are good points though. I've never hurt anyone, I don't hallucinate, and my thoughts are less violent now. It's the anxiety that bothers me. I feel confident about my looks, my mind, so why can't I impress people? Why do I feel like they want me to die?

Answer 1

Stop trying to impress people...if they don't like you for who you are, find people that do.

I think that you already know you should see counseling or you wouldn't have asked this question.

Answer 2

It would certainly be an option.

However, there are a few things that you can do on your own that can help where you are right now.

Self hatred is not pretty, but it can be addressed.

Find things that interest you and do them.
Make sure that you do things that you ENJOY.
Start a gratitude journal.
Forget about what others think of you, WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOU?

Be kind to yourself
Talk nicely to yourself.
Respect yourself.

Do not rate yourself on what you think others are thinking about you, you could well be WRONG about their thoughts.

Try to be the best YOU that you could possibly be, how could you achieve that?

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http://www.emofree.com

It has helped to change my life and thousands of others.

Answer 3

Assuming this is an accurate description of your feelings, I would suggest a counselor or Psychologist visit for an evaluation. Be open and honest with them. It can only help you get through this seemingly difficult time. Avoid alcohol and drugs, especially street drugs and weed as these will complicate your situation.

Answer 4

You may be trying too hard. It is worth talking with someone as you try to figure out what is important to you. Your thoughts are dark and are working against you. Consider counseling.