can you help me?i can't go to a psycologist or psycotherapist or psychiotrist,so plz dont suggest it.?

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it's a long time scince i wanted to tell these problems of mine to some one professional.
my problems began when i was born i mean it has always been the same for the last 19 years.
i really don't know what to do please help me,now i will explaine u what my problems are.
my problems are my parrents,they dont understand me,they want me to be perfect (from their point

of view) & i am not,so they want to make me perfect,but that's not possible so the result came out

for me to be a suicidal instead of perfect.
they are so religious they wont permit me to have a boy friend mor go to any parties,or make up

when i want to go out,ok im ok with all of that but u know sci8nce i dont have any of the funs

above my only fun is watching movies & listening to music,you know i can't live withought them &

they blame me for that ,they tell me you are not normal,i accept that but they are the only things

in this world that make me happy.
i don't drink alcohol,i do'nt smoke

i do'nt smoke joint or even cigarette ,i dont go out for sight seeing or any

where withought their permission & they blame me for having those tow funs.
& it's not just that ,i do'nt like to clean up my room very much,it's not in my nature,my room is

not that much of mess eighter,but they always humiliate me and tell me "you are so untidy,u are

like aniumals,you are worth less & etc".
if i eat sth with salt 7 leave the salt box onthe ground because i forgot to take it ,the start

swearing,if i come to the living room & forget to turn off the lights of my room ,they start

sewaring.(i spend most of my time in my room,& if i come to be with them for a short time ,that's

what they do)
they are not alcoholic or addicted or prostitue or pervert but their attitude is worse than all

of them.
my father has humiliated me infront of almost every body ,he has no respect for me

& my mother ...we have changed four haouses scince i was born & nt one of them could be an exeption so the
neighbours wouldn't hear my mother swearing at me.
either it's the reasons above that they start a fight or really nothing,they suddenly go nuts &

start a fight over nothing,for example the pervious nighty we were dining(i'm on a diet so i

hven't been dining with them for a long time)my father was in the kitchen & said sthm(he aleays

talks so low that only himself hears what he says,& that annoys me alot)my mother asked me what he

had said & i threw my shoulders up meaning i don't know,her reaction was attacking me suddemly

with words she said"how dare you answer me like that you have no respect to us ,& i answerres her

like herself & told her when my mouth is full what else can i do?so she called me an animal & one

of the rare times that we were together ended like that.

i cry myself to sleep most of the nights,they do'nt care if it is 4 or 6 in the morning or 11 at

night ,they fight with me at any time.
i had a mark of teeth on my arm before with the lovable help of my mother,it was disappearing that

she bit me again a few years a go ,& i have still this mark on my arm the older one is not

completely faded either,i mean how bad could i be to deserve this?
the have made me & my only brother enemies with eachother,from the beging scing i was a child when

me & him had a fight they interfered & always were on his side,so i hated him & as he grew he

became ruder & my parrents supported him till,so i havent spoken to him for a year now,i mean if i

have his /their attitude with them ,im so impolite im an animal & etc but they dont consider that

about them selves.

im 19 years old now & i have lost my faith in kindness of god unfortunately or fortunately i cant

or at least i have'nt lost my faith in existence of god but i dont like him ,i hate god too, as

much as my parrents,cause he is the powerful one i have prayed & prayed & asked his help but he

dint di any thing to help me,i have lost my faith in being alive for 3 years now,i suffer that i

don't have the guts to commit suiciude now because i know i will always be in hell & when i was 5

years old because i was affraid of the pain,yes i can remember scences of my child hoold when my

mother hit me.
1 month before we had a fight like always but this tome they took my privacy away from me they

took the door of my room,i could'nt stand it,cause you know i can't sleep ehen it's noisy & if i

sleep late i'll have headache & my body starts shaking & i become so nervouse.
ok & they knew all of that,i begged them to bring my door back but they dint ,

i was so angry i saw

they were so cruel & i could do nothing ,so i slith my wristh with a blade so that i will calm a

little it wasnt deep so & it calmed me down a lot so i tried another time but that time it went

rather deep as i said i don't want to kill my self so i was so shocked & scared ,i was afraid to

die in this way & never be able to come out of hell,i went to the living room while i was cring
but their reaction was:
my mother:what the hell have you done , moron?you have committd suicide,you are so worth less!
when my brother saw my scar he was scared too & he sid to my mother it needs stiching,my mother

said no the blood will be tided& put a tissu on it,
but my brother covinced her that it needs stiching so my mother accepted but my father said "to

hell with her let her die,i don't care,she doesn't deserve to live."
at last he was covinced 7 took me to a hospital

but he was swearing at me all the way to the

hospital & to home & my mother said "did you think we would be upset if you died as soon as we

burried you our mind would be at peact of ur absence.after this incident my brother said i

promise i will have a good behaviour from now on with you & he was becomming much better,but they

didnt let him to b,they spoiled him again& just imagine after all that they did'nt bring my door

back,i mean they rather see me dead than just be a littel kinder to me.
i mean they fight with me over me being depressed ,for god's sakes,it's not in my control if i am

upset if they have made made me a suicidal .
they (esp my father)think every body is like themselves,every body can sleep through any thing &

as long as they sleep,every body has their fun m evry body likes their boring parties,i mean
common i am 26 years younger than them,we are incomparable,
ok now that i have all the bad sides i tell u there are some good sides.

i mean some times they

are so kind & compassionate but most of the times they are like that or even may be it is not most

of the times but the effect remains much longer ,after each fight i really wish i was dead when i

slit my wrist.
there are ofcourse much more to say but i am tired of typing & you are surely tired of reading ,im

sorry to make you tiredmi desparately need your help.

ok thanx all of u for being so kind but i cant move out because in my country unmarried girls cant do that,& i sm going to college & i go to french class too i mesan im not home much but they can mess my mind up just in an hour so..?

Answer 1

I suggest you read the book called "Real Magic" by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer. It teaches you the solution to all of your problems - how to be happy, successful, healthy and prosperous in daily life in spite of difficulties. I also suggest you pack a bag, move into a womens shelter with your book and avoid your parents like the plague. Explain to them that you are suffering from physical and verbal abuse and you are depressed as a result. They will guide you with treatment and kindness. Good Luck!

Answer 2

You are an adult. GET THE HELL OUT!! Go to college and start your own life. It seems scary and all going out into the world with no money and nowhere to go, but get yourself an education. I moved out when I was 17 years old...the day I graduated high school. Although my parents are very loving and supportive. I also had a boyfriend that I moved in with (we are still together by the way). Go talk to a college financial aid officer and get yourself a student loan. You may end up with $100,000 in college loan debt, but you are free from you parents and it will be the best transforming 4 years of your life. And you'll have a great job as an end result. Then you can have your own place, your own career & your own life. And never turn back...

Answer 3

If you are 19 .You need to get out and be on your own. if your mother abuse you (bite) and your father and mother insult you it is abuse too. you need to talk to social worker or even show the bites marks to the police.....You need to be free of them you sound like a really good person...you don't have a problem they have many....Keep your room clean don't talk to them and don't face them if any confilct, just ignore them until you can go away....good you don't drink or smoke so don't even start, I never did.....Study read books, learn about everything and you will be a winner not a loser like them, sorry to tell you this about your parents but I am angry to see how they treat you. Think of you as the number one, you control your own life nobody else does. Take good decision for the best of your life. You will do just fine, I believe in you. Get help, look into the yellow pages......Good luck I wish you the best and if I could be there to help you I will do.....You are great never forget this and you are strong.

Answer 4

hi hon...

it looks like you have quite a lot of worry and frustration in your life right now.

why CAN'T you go to a therapist? there are clinics everywhere, and many of them have financial aid available. you really need to do the legwork and call around to find out what is out there..talk to the business office personnel..... if your parents have insurance, use it!

you are an adult, and can go anywhere you like -- and your health is very important.

perhaps you could get a job and save money to move out? maybe find a room mate or two?

if your parents are super-religious that might be part of the problem... they may be so involved with religion that everything looks bad to them.... i have had experience with these types, and believe me, they can be the most judgmental people on the planet... (and it doesn't matter that the Church teaches that we should not judge, these bible thumpers do it religiously, as if THEIR way is the only way!)

do you have another adult who you look up to and who you might be able to talk with? perhaps if you find someone you trust and respect, they will listen and perhaps offer some good advice?

i hope you will do the legwork to find help for yourself...

take care.

Answer 5

The key word here is "Independence." You are 19 years old. You are legally an adult,I am assuming,depending on what state you live in.If you don't like living with your parents,and they make your life miserable,move out.Find a job.Get your own place. Learn how to be your own person.See what you are capable of,without having to listen to your parents yelling at you all the time that you are worthless.If you let anyone walk all over you,then you are never going to assert yourself. Just because your parents are your biological parents,that doesn't mean they are "good" parents. There are zillions of parents who suck at it.get out on your own!!
And one more thing,which may sound mean,but I do not mean it that way: Learn how to spell,and write,and speak. Until you do,you will be relegated to low-paying jobs with no future. Make something of yourself.If your parents are never proud of you,so be it. YOU have to be proud of YOURSELF. Get on it.And best wishes for you.

Answer 6

Here is the first thing. You are 19, a legal adult, a big girl...you are completely allowed to do what you feel is right. Leave home whenever you can to get away from parents, and chill with your closest friends. Go to the movies, the mall whatever you guys like doing. Rollerskating, walking around th park. You sound like an awesome person....hang in there...you'll be okay!!! I promise.

Answer 7

First of all, it's hard for me to believe this is a real question. If your parents are very religious, they wouldn't be cursing at you all the time. If you're 19, you are legally an adult. Find a job, rent a room or share an apartment, but GET AWAY FROM THEM. That is what a psychologist would tell you. You have to fix the physical parts of your life before you can repair the mental part.

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Answer 9

This sounds like a horrible situation for you, but you are still very young. Things WILL get better eventually so please stop thinking about suicide.

Is there any adult from church or school or anywhere that you can talk to?

In your country can a group of single women live together? Do you have any friends that you could move in with?

Do you have any relatives that might be able to help you?

I know things seem hopeless right now, but please don't hurt yourself. One way or another things will eventually get better.

Answer 10

oh my! this is almost an exact replica of me life only its mental abuse in my family.ok if you like movies and such get a wii it has normal games you parents might let you get like mario.alost if you like intrtnet try www.dragonfable.com.
go outside and cloud watch liston to the wind

or a diffrent approch clean your room spotless if they say some thing to you while eating hold up 1 finger to say 1 min and then talk after your done chewing try to be who they want then go some where to hang with friends or be alone and cuss them out privatly

fi you think its possible try family councling or a social worker
if not good luck P.S. no suiside it would be ashame to lose a cool person like you! =)