Ive been trying to find the answer to all my pain for the longest time...?

Question

And I havent really found much of an answer. In my family not much emotion was allowed or rather not so much for myself as I played counselor to my mom. With the things I know everything doesnt really add up. There is a killing pain that shoots to the center and I dont know where its coming from. What do I do when I cant remember anything and just cant get to the bottom of things? Are my dreams of sexual abuse bullsh#7? I just cant figure out what is real in all of this and I cant move on until I do. I dont want to be numbed out like this anymore.

Answer 1

Pain, physical or mental, is the body's way of indicating something is wrong with it. It was not clear from your question as to whether your pains were physical or mental or both. I don't know how old you are but assume from your statements that you are still living with your family and that you are female. It sounds like the "killing pain that shoots to the center" is physical and in that case you need to see a physician, tell him/her about it and get his/her diagnosis and treatment for whatever is causing it.

The fact that you can't seem to remember anything and can't get to the bottom of things indicates some pain is mental and you maybe panicking trying to "get to the bottom of it". Dreams are unreliable as indicators of something so don't pay too much attention to them. But you need to see a therapist if you are depressed and anxious (and it sounds as though you are) so ask your family doctor when you see him soon for a recommendation.

It is best to get professional help for extremes of mental and physical pain rather than try to diagnose yourself. You have to will yourself to move on to a doctor to get some answers.

Good luck, good health, peace and love!

Answer 2

Sorry I can't help you. Hopefully someone can. Remember though that you are not alone... many youngsters are having to grow up in an environment that is not, shall we say, the best for kids. Your dreams of sexual abuse question cannot be answered from an emotional state. You will have to get to a point where it doesn't pain you - then you may be able to distinguish between the reality of it or not. Whatever the case, I wish you well and hurt for you.

Answer 3

Hmmm! A lot of people have lots of pain. There are so many causes...disease, joints wearing out, all kinds of things. Then there is emotional pain. For sure, if you go to a doctor and it is not very plainly obvious that the pain has a physical cause, they will think you need a psychiatrist.
Think carefully about your life; there are many illnesses, including Lyme's disease, that are not easy to diagnos. If you have been a victim of any kind, try to bring it out into the open, in your own life, or in discussions with family/friends or counselors, whomever you feel comfortable.
Good luck.

Answer 4

Ok lets start with what I see in your question. You said you grew up playing counselor to your mother. I often did the same thing for family and friends. I also got so wrapped in it that I forgot to take care of myself. This pain sounds like yourself trying to tell you something. Basically that you are not in balance. To be blunt, this will take longer than you expect to remedy, but it will be well worth it. The secret now is to be patient and let things develop in their own time, because the longer that you are frustrated with yourself, the longer it will take. Your dreams definitely mean something, but it does not necessarily mean what it is. Example "sexual abuse" could be lack of love, just abuse, self abuse... many things. It could be what it is, and in that case I would find someone to talk to for your own well being as well as anyone in the future that could be hurt by that person. A good way to get to the bottom of it is by meditation and writing. Both take time to develop, but you will get through this faster, easier, and with more strength with these methods. It just sounds like time to be a little selfish and take care of yourself.

Answer 5

In my personnel experience, you can't rely on an answer from someone that doesn't know you.

You also, can't rely on an answer from someone that does know you.

Therein lies the dilemma. You need to talk with a therapist. Or someone that doesn't know you well. Talk with them, get to know them, let them get to know you. Without knowing more, I couldn't give you a good answer. If a friend tried to help, they may be too close to really help you. A therapist works, because he can get to know you, on an impersonal basis. A friends mom, or coworker, someone willing to listen, would work as well.

I hope that you can get to the bottom of your pain, and feelings. Everyone deserves to know who they are, and to feel the things they deserve to feel. Good luck.