what can you do if your worried about having to go out into society and build your life when theres alot of?

Question

twisted, deviant, antagonising, patronizing currupt people outthere?
im 30 years old and have spent most of my life enduring great trauma which has resulted in me having psychological and mental health problems, the majority of my adult life.. i have borderline personality disorder now and im waiting for therapy.
my heritage is french and native american.
my ultimate goal is to emigrate from britain, move far away and build a new life, find a partner and get my own home, find a set of friends that i want around me. and put the past behind me.
im lonely and have never made a single friend in life. most people ive met growing up in the uk have hurt, abused or bullied me, rejected me..victimized me in someway.
theres no easy way out or quick fix to that ultimate ambition i have, of moving away and building a new life..and i no after everything ive been through, ive got to go out into a corrupt society that i dont like, & work to achieve these ambitions & im dreading it.

because most people around me in my life here
have hurt me and caused me to have mental health problems.
have give me rage and anger problems, low self worth
problems, have give me social problems, made me hate
the world, demoralized me...and this is all ive known
right up until now at the age of 30.
so now ive got to go out into society, control all these
feelings, face biasis, face discrimination, face corruption
and people who might reject me and tell me im at a disadvantage
because of my history. people wholl judge me and outcast me..
i already feel ostracized in the society i live in because of
what people have done to me in my life...
so now if i want to desperatly achieve my dreams of moving
away, ive got to go out into the society and face all that..
can anyone understand my dread?

Answer 1

the real problem with you is that you are too worried the other people and your social surrounding.if you gonna have such kind of behaviour than i am sorry to say that you can't live like that .
NOW THE SOLUTION
1.becareful in choosing your friends,see first whether they understand you or not ,respects you as a person or not and admires you or not
2.don't worry about what other people say about ,if you have to live in this world then you should know how to tackle people
3. don't worry about failures in your life RUN FOR THE SUCCESS
4for the pshychological problem you should better consult a good pshychatarist if required

Answer 2

I am definitely no 'guru' on this topic.
I just wanted to let you know that im 21, borderline, about to start DBT and have suddenly out of no where had intense motivations to actually 'get my life started'.
I think its much easier for our types to simply sit back and say "I'll do it later" or "I'll just move away from everyone who's doing this to me".
In my own hindsight, for someone else to tell u to snap out of it is utterly pointless (the last 2 who tried it, literally ended up driving me to the hospital 1 week later).
However, since i started telling myself to snap out of it, i have actually started to do so.
I have similar views on those around myself, especially society.
For now i look at it all as a game. Sometimes u just need to change the way u play it.
My bottom line to you is maybe focus on the therapy and what you CAN actually do in the interim to help yourself feel better.

Answer 3

yes, its perfectly understandable. But just reading your descriptions of the bad eggs out there, dont forget that most adults are basically good people. They do exist in large numbers. There is a lot of corruption, but even more good!
It sounds like you're a smart fellow and no doubt you can move past the trauma in your life.
Put the past behind you. It can only get better from here.

Answer 4

Life is change. Society is people; twisted or normal, corrupt or honest, you deal with them all. You make friends life or enemies. Look around you. It may not be any better in another country, you may only be running from your problems.

Answer 5

i have social anxiety problems too i try go to stuff im interested in that thers not alot of people at. like small groups. its really not easy to find. some citys have more then others. i found some great meetup groups on meetup.com it was fun. but then i moved and now am kindof isolated again.