Why wont God kill me!?

Question

1st off i dont desrve to live!
2nd i dont want to live!
3rd i have no meaning or purpose to live!
4th Ive got bad luck written all over me!
5th my bad luck spreads to all my friends
6th he would do the world a favor by getting rid of me!
7th I have nothing to live for!
8th i cant spell very good!
9th ive lived my life already, and now its time to leave i have lived on this cold hearted earth for 17 years and there is nothing for me!
10th i can go on and on but ill stop here.

So why wont god let me die, i dont want to kill myself because i am afraid of going to hell, but i might go there anyways so WTF

I pray every night that he will bring a speedy death to my way, but he doesnt answer my prayers.

please dont tell me to go see a counciler or something like that.

God hates me and he probobly doesnt like you that much either.

Answer 1

omg lol

Answer 2

god's not real or is not helping so try some anti-depression pills. I was like you had daily sucidical thoughts. Then I almost completed suicide and ended up in a hospital for a couple of weeks because of blood loss and all that. The doctor made me see a head doctor and I have been taking lexapro every since. It took some time to find the right dose, but once I did things have been good. Some days suck it doesn't solve everything but its a lot better

Answer 3

you are being misguided by a negative entity .
i believe that if you pray you must believe in god which means he loves you because the seeds were planted.your not saying you dont believe in god your saying he hates you god loves us all,to many people die everyday for you to be taking up space.you were put here for a reason you have a purpose,you love god so much that the thought of suicide scares you,which means you fear god in the sense you respect him and you do not want to break your contract.
you are capable of being a grat worker of the lord and the devil knows it he is putting those thought there because he is threatened by your soul and is feeding off the pain he is causing you you are being weakened,i don't know you but i am happy your alive and i believe you are very courageous
to talk about this,and i want you to lay in your bed close your eyes and think if god brings me death today i will not be able to bring a smile at someone i was suppose to smile at tomorrow which may cause a string of bad events that can cause hurricanes of damage.god loves me no matter what because he knows me,i am happy to be alive because i am here and suppose to be i have a great destiny.
this is the dark before dawn ,when you feel your importance
i am sure you will feels the bad leaving because you just defeated the worlds greatest liar,wow your life is worth living.

Answer 4

Your young,you really don't want to die.Get real.your just going though a tough time right now,you must have a purpose in life or you would not be alive right now,also luck is what you make it.So stop feeling sorry for your self.When I am feeling down I go for a walk in the country,I look at everything the trees,the leaves and sometimes a come across an animal nothing makes me so glad to be alive and close to the creator,another thing I do when I am feeling down is look in the mirror and smile.I try to smile as much as I can during the day and say Hi to everyone I make eye contact with.I positive attitude brings positive action.I will light a candle for you,please try to take my advice.


(Many blessings)

Answer 5

I don't know you but I don't hate you! please don't feel this way, you are young, things could change and maybe that is why you are still here, there is something good coming your way. I really feel that you have something to look forward too in your future. I am not a counsilor but I am a young mother with a 21 year old daughter and I would hope that she would never feel the way you do. I am 39 with a lot of experience in life, sometimes I had feelings a lot like yours and I would never wish those feelings on anyone. I had a very abusive life, from several abusive relationships to living with a alcoholic father and very sick mother in my teens and twenties and I promise you it will get better, you can get through this if you really want to. I am not at all a judgmental person and if you want I will give you my e-mail and you can e-mail me anytime you feel the need to talk to someone who you don't know but maybe that is good. But please don't think nobody cares, because I do and I am sure lots of people do.
[e-mail]. please just to talk when you need someone to listen. I wish you well....and you can spell just fine.

Answer 6

He wont kill you because

1st - You are his son, you deserve to live

2nd - Go see those that have cancers, ask them their situation and you'll see how they would want to still live.

3rd- Why would you still be here if you don't have a purpose

4th - bad luck only happens when you believe in its existence, we are the ones responsible in making our life. Don't blame it on bad luck.

5th - Do you really think you've passed on your bad luck or your friends just don't understand you?

6th - If God does get rid of you. He wouldn't have the chance to see you grow and make a use of yourself by helping those that need help. He then would regret..

7th - You live for God, your family, friends and those others that need help.

8th - how come i can read what you wrote?

9th - My golly you have more years ahead of you life doesn't stop when you reach 17. Earth isn't cold, it's your way of thinking that's making you feel it is.

10th - going on is a choice.. we always have a choice. Life is so wonderful.. full of mysteries to unfold. lots of exciting things to learn. It's up to you how you make the most out of life.

God won't let you die because he wants you to know why he doesn't want you to die, which you will know later on as you search for more meaning or the purpose of your existence.

Praying for your death is like asking your father to kill you, his son... God is a loving and Just God.

Instead of praying for your death why don't you pray for those who are in need of your prayer?

Have a positive outlook of life, you then will see how great it is to live. :-)

Answer 7

maybe your life is in a bad place at the moment but what will you think is waiting for on the other side dont you think you should embrace life and put yourself out a bit what would the relatives you have which have passed say to you when they see you dont you think they would be disapointed that you did not carrying. everyone in this whole wide world goes through times like these at the end of the day we all have to pick ourselfs up and help our self
i hope that you do not do anything to harm yourself i am sure regardless of what you have wrote above your friends and family would miss you so much and its unfair to them as well as yourself maybe think about going to see someone

Answer 8

You're 17? That's it? You're not like 90 and in perfect health and you're just lonely or sad because all your friends are dead and your family had forgotten about you because you live in a nursing home?
Um, wake up and get a goal, stop wishing to die, and start living your life. You only have bad luck because you're making it that way. Start to love yourself, and be happy. Be thankful to be alive. You know that you have people who love you in your life, so why hurt them as well. Feel better. Love yourself and LIVE.

Answer 9

First off God loves you. Did you ever think that maybye you have a destiny. You see this life isn't about making money,owning many things,seeing many things. Life here is about one thing only and that is for people to make up there mind whether they will love God or satan. You may have many trials in your life but I tell you this never and I mean never does God ever forsake those that with a pure heart seek Him and put Him first. If you just take that first step He'll walk a mile to meet you friend. Always will.

Answer 10

Oh yes you do deserve to live! You sound as if you are very depressed and oppressed. You sound like you don't like yourself. You have a lot to live for. You are young and your life has just began. Some where in our lives we run into situations that we are to weak to handle and we just want to end it all instantly. We also don't have Jesus in our life to help pull us through rough times. I have been where you are now.... wanted to give up on life when I was about 18 years old due to a bad relationship with someone that I thought loved me. I took a lot of pills trying to get the attention that I thought I would get and confused whether to kill myself or not. Well I did become very sick and I thought that I was close to death from taking all of those pills. The whole room was spinning around and I couldn't get any help from man because no one was home except me. So I called on the name of Jesus to come to my rescue because the closer I was getting to death, the closer I wanted to live! I crawled all the way through a small hallway that seemed to look so long. I made it to the comode and induced all that I had in my stomach. But before all of that took place, I had asked God to save me. I told him that if he would save me I promised that I wouldn't do it again. On that day he saved me. I didn't tell the Lord that if he would save me, I would serve him all the days of my life, but I promised not to do it anymore. But I didn't know what my purpose was on earth nor my calling. God had already had a plan for me while the devil was trying to kill me. I was so depressed and oppressed just like you. Well, I didn't find the Lord right away and I went through a whole lot of other trials in my life that caused me to grieve in a serious way. After that incident of trying to take my life I didn't care what sorrows, grief, bad luck, misunderstandings etc came my way, I WASN'T GOING TO TAKE MY LIFE!!!! I found Jesus again when I was 26 years old and I never turned back. I am a teacher and I have been teaching since I was 26 up until now. I now know my purpose and now I try to encourage others to "LIVE." Now I am glad that I didn't die in my sins and I would of given up my chance to be set free and to have eternal life. Today I still struggle with principalities of the air but I pray and I wait on the Lord to help me. You see, trouble don't last always when you find Jesus. Get into a good church and repent of your sins. Make up your mind to change your life and to serve God. Maybe you have a calling on your life to be a minister, a teacher or something. If you die then it can't come to past right? There is something good waiting for you at the end of the rainbow, so live and see what it is.

Answer 11

You don't wanna kill yourself and go to hell, so God should kill you so you can piss and moan in heaven. He's leaving you here on earth to be our hell, so when all us die we don't have to hear you. At 17, you don't get it.....life is a journey and you make your own way. Stop whinning and do something nice for someone else at least..........it will change your perspective and make a connection with a better exsistence.