Should I just end my life?

Question

I have been going through a serious depression for a long time. I feel really lonely because I have no friends to talk to. I'm 32 years old, almost 33, and I suffered from social anxiety my whole life. I had trouble making friends because I was afraid of what people thought about me, and I missed out on socializing. I've also never had a girlfriend and probably never will have one either. I know, pretty pathetic for a guy my age. I feel like a worthless piece of crap and everyday and every second I think of killing myself. I feel like as long as I live on this earth, there is no hope for me. I feel the only way to escape is to die. I have two loving parents, but it's just not enough. I feel like nobody cares and everything in the world just feels wrong. I just want to get away. I am unable to relax and a lot of the time I feel like crying. Maybe I feel depressed because my life really is a joke and it is pathetic. Should I just end it all if there's no hope?

I would like to hear from people who have experienced depression to the point that they have felt the way I do. I don't want to hear condemnatory answers from people who have never experienced it because what do they know?

Answer 1

Please dont do that. You are feeling depressed and therefore not rational. You can change it around. Start to mix with people. Look at life in a different way. Your not pathetic its just circumstances and I guess the way you feel about yourself. Dont do anything silly. Take care. xxxxxxxxxxx

Answer 2

Well, I can't say that I have felt the way that you feel, or maybe I could say I have experienced the same thing as you experience now, but just in a different manner. Once my friend asked me if I was planning to commit a suicide, I guess that was serious enough... Let's get strait, I am from Croatia, we had a war here, I have lost some of my family, and after that life really is not easy, social status is ****, no money, living with father and I am 27 almost... But life goes on. When I had no one at my side, I found myself in music and that, no matter how nonsensical it sounds, helped me a lot. Of course, that didn't replace a loving touch, a hug... I lived in **** for years but I never have lost faith that something is going to change. I never lost the feeling that I didn't deserve that crap, and that I deserved better, and because of that, I knew, that something, someday is going to change. The fact that helped me the most was that it was not my fault for living in that crap!
Now, the situation still stinks, but now I have a beautiful girlfriend who doesn't care for I don't earn enough for living, for living with a father... It is still hard, but I never lost faith that something was going to change. The first real sexual experience I've had when I was 23 and you must agree it is pretty late according to the modern standards. But I always had a hope. I knew myself, and I know how much I am worth. I felt so lonely, man. Really, and I know how much that hurts. I don't know where you are from, but I bet that there is much more opportunities than in a small place in Croatia where I live. Use that advantage! Life is a struggle and it is up to you win that struggle! Life is not a joke, because life is to precious to be a joke. Be with people and show them that you are worth something. It is hard when people don't recognize your qualities, but man, just walk on. If it is hard for you to find a job, consider joining some humanitarian organization. Just be among people, because it is the only way to show people your qualities. Go online, write blogs, answer peoples questions... It doesn't take much to be the best, because: "The fastest runner doesn't always win the race, and the strongest warrior doesn't always win the battle." It just takes a little movement. I just hope that you will recognize your qualities. If you do, I am sure that you can be the best in your expertize.

Answer 3

so, other people have suffered from social anxiety their whole life, and they have over come it. I am one of those people.

People usually think about themselves, they probably are thinking that you don't like them or something. Goodbye to Shy is a book that I used to help me.

ok other people your age have never had a girlfriend, but then they marry later, but it's your attitude - that you never will - that's not necessarily true. Look at all the negative thinking. If you say it won't happen then it won't. You need to start speaking positively. You have to say it and believe it and then it happens. I know for sure that Muhammed Ali was saying he was the greatest in the world long before he WAS.

If you say you want to die, then often death will come, so many people have said something about that, and then it happened.

you seem to be focused on the negative, you need to focus on the positive things inyour life and forget the negative.

If you are a man and feel like crying you need help - please get a counsolor or someone to talk it over with.

There is no hope outside of Jesus Christ. If you don't have Jesus in your life, you don't have any hope. It's that simple. If I did not have Jesus, I would not have hope.

Hope is the only thing that keeps me going.

Things aren't always how they seem.

Let me ask you - do you want to be remembered as a Quitter? A Coward? A Failure? If you kill yourself, that's how people will remember you.

I had a friend 2 years ago that killed himself - things got hard for him. He lost his business and his home but he still had a wife and 4 children. And he killed himself when he lost his house. I will probably always think of him as a coward, a quitter, a failure. Maybe I shouldn't but that's how I remember him.

Answer 4

I know that this is going to sound so every day.But here it goes.I felt much like you.My man and I had split up after 4 yrs.We lived together the duratiopn of that 4.I had to move back in with my mother who suffers early aulhiemerz.I had no job,no car no nothind and I was 48 then.My misery went on for months.We finally started talking,but,still couldn't get along.So we were back and forth.I just could'nt take the stress of it all.There was not hope for me.....I felt......I started having thoughts of suicide and it scared the ****out of me.Ifinally fell to the floor(literally)and said O.K. GOD! I can't do this anymoreI have to put my life in your hands,I do not know how to do this and survive life anymore.Please give me strength to do your will and just give me peace with my life.The next morning I woke up and later noticed I wasn't dwelling on my problems as much,I got a different job at a much happier environment.AND BEST OF ALL.My man called me....you see he never did the whole time we were separated,I always called him.We got together and have not been apart scince going on 4 mo now and I know IT"S FOR GOOD!God DOES move in mysterious ways.Give yourself to HIM.I'm not a holey roller but this did happen to me and I'm glad I tried instead of the easy way out.You have to force your self to be out in the world.You have to try real hard,and do see a doctor if you can,there are anti-depressants that Will get rid of the anxciety that you are feeling.If you don't have insurance go to the county hospitol.They won't turn you away.Just get on the medicine.It's o.k.You took the right step to not do yourself in.And by the way you are not old enough to give up.I wish I was 32 again.You have along time to enjoy life with whoever you find to join in your life and theirs.Once your well .....and sweety,You will be well again.Give it some time on the right track.Now,get up,take a shower and then eat something "right",and then go for a walk in a heavy populated area and people wacth.Learn how to blend in.Learn how to interact.It can be done.Good luck.Sorry if I bored ya.BUT I CARE TOO ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Answer 5

I am the female equivalent of you. I have also dealt with depression and social anxiety my entire life. I am 31 almost 32 years old and I have never had a boyfriend. All through high school I also dealt with bulimia. I have never held a full time job because I always feel like people are talking about me or that I am doing everything wrong. Just last year I lost two really good jobs because of my paranoia. After five years of struggling through college, I graduated summa *** laude. Although everyone told me what an accomplishment that was, I still feel really worthless and my college degree has done me no good because my social anxiety gets in the way of me teaching. I am currently a substitute teacher. It is the only job that I can seem to hold on to. I think it's because I move around a lot. I am currently taking zoloft to help with my social anxiety and depression. It helps a lot, although I still have symptoms of my conditions. I think you can never really escape who you are. I too sometimes think that dying would be the only solution to my problems but the thing that keeps me from doing it is the thought of the pain my parents and family would be if I killed myself. I know my family loves me, and I know that they would miss me if I died. I also had a very special grandmother (mom) who died a year and a half ago. It was very hard one me, and I got more depressed. However, the thought of being able to join her in heaven has also stopped me from killing myself. I believe that God will take care of things in the end and that all we can do is to have faith that everything will work out. Try to forget about the bad things about your life and remember the good things, like your parents who love you very much. How would they feel if you killed yourself? Killing yourself will end your problems because you will no longer exist but nothing will be solved because your parents will miss your very much. Hold on and have faith in God that he will pull your through, that is what I have everyday-Faith!!!! There is always hope as long as you remember the good things about life, like the love of your parents. You need to be your own best friend and learn to love yourself. I am trying everyday to love myself, and I believe that one day I will have nothing but love for myself.

Answer 6

If you have a hobby or are interested in politics join a club that has people who have the same interest. That will help you to be more comfortable around people with out a lot of commitment.
You need to think in positive things in your life. I appears that you have your health, so that is appositive thing. Be grateful that at the age of 32/33 you don't need a liver transplant or any other serious condition. I have seen children at the age of 6 needing a transplant. You can always look around and find someone who's life is worse than yours.
I worked in a state school of disabled people and I remember one person who was about 4 feet tall, blind and deaf and had a hernia. I always thought of him when things were bad and it made my life seem better.
THE LAST THING YOU NEED TO DO IS KILL YOURSELF.
GOOD LUCK and feel better.

Answer 7

Perhaps I can help you out here. First let me say I have been dealing with severe depression for almost two years now. I have come pretty close to ending my life on a number of occasions... But I never actually did it. I even went as far as planning my own demise in a step by step fashion.

Only God knows why I did not actually kill myself.... But there is one thing that I do know.... My life now has a purpose. Strangely enough my purpose in life comes from right here on the Yahoo questions web page. I have dedicated myself to try and help as many people as I can to see that there really is a light at the end of the tunnel.

I know exactly how you are feeling right now. Actually I am in the exact same situation you are. My life seems like one big joke, each time I start to feel a little better about my situation, something comes along and kicks me back to reality. What you need to do is find a reason to live, everybody can find reasons to live. It can be the littlest thing, but it will measn the world to you.

Sometimes it helps to just hear that you are important to somebody. Well, from this point on, you are important to me! I would like to help you get over this bump in the road of your life. You can feel free to email me at [e-mail] if you feel like venting, or just need somebody to talk to that knows exactly what you are going through.

Please, do me a favor, and don't end your life. Suiside will not solve anything. It may sould like the best option right now, but suicide is never the answer. You have made it this far in life, don't give up now. Soon you will be able to look back on this chapter of your life to see how you beat depression, not how depression beat you.

I know most of what I have said soundl like a total sack of B.S. depression is beatable, and you have the power deep down to overcome it.

OK, Now go out and look for your purpose in life, then we can take it from there......

Have great day.

Answer 8

I know it's a cliche, but - "Where there's life, there's hope". Get some therapy, both for your social anxiety and your depression. It may be that your problems are stemming from a physical problem like a hormonal imbalance, and a lot of times that can be treated with medication, which your therapist will be able to help you get.

The world can be a wonderful place, and you deserve a chance to see that. Don't throw away your life - all it will do is to hurt the people who love you and waste all of the gifts that you can't see in yourself, but others can see in you.

Answer 9

If you want to be a failure...then yes you should end it.
If you're a fighter, then decide to fight this.
If you're selfish, then you will think about suicide because you only think about what will make you feel better. How do you even know that's going to work, that could be the worst road to take.
No to mention how you don't give any thought to your poor parents who will have to live the rest of their lives with all this burden, pain, regret, sorrow in their hearts. How can you do that to them?

You have to get mad not sad. Just decide you are not going to live this way any more. Put your mind into changing it.
Go out to the clubs, even if by yourself at first. Until you make new friends. You have to put forth the effort.
Take charge and change the things in your life that you don't like. Nobody can do that for you, you have to do it for yourself.
Don't be a quitter, there's too much in life to enjoy.
You just have to decide to go for it and do whatever you have to do to change things.
It's not going to be easy, but neither is living this way ;)

Answer 10

I have felt so sad before I wanted to die. After I took care of what was bothering me I felt much better. I still get sad but after awhile and after I work with what is bothering me I usually feel better. Find someone you really admire or find a goal in life you really want to complete. like I met a doctor I really liked and learned how much I love the study of Psychology and mental health and how good I am at it. It was what I was meant to do. I hope Someday to become a clinical Psychologist and also help people in Africa by going on missions and donating to The Good Samaritan. I hope everything works out for you. God Bless!

Answer 11

That bad huh.. well I'm 34, no girlfriends, no loving parents, work sucks and my car having serious transmission problem.
My tears run dry a long time ago and I have kidney problem. Life sucks.. Hmm as long as I know that life sucks then maybe someday it all turn around.. so I need to be around to feel it when it's there.. No point of dying it's just an excuse for an easy way out..
Put a smile on your face.. chin up.. straighten that shoulder..
Something fun is bound to happen...
Believe me.. theres fun enough for everyone if you look for it... Good things doesn't come rolling to your door step.. You run and try to catch it... and err... laugh out loud while you're at it...
Cherriooooo...
Tell me if you're feeling a bit better... cause it might cheer me up too