please read.
i know it's long.
When I was born I was diagnosed with Neurofibromatosis Type 1. A skin/bone disease that progresses over the age.
At age 2 I had a slight curve on my left ankel and they had to have major surgery by inserting metals across (going from outside the leg, to the inside, back outside of the other end) in like five places.
I had that for about a few months and when they removed it
I was in a cast for another few months.
I had difficulties walking around and when I was 7 years old, I got into an accident and broke my left ankle in half. I had to have surgery and they put a metal rod into my ankle.
That disabled my leg from growing and when I was 13 I grew taller but my left leg didn' grow so I was crooked and needed a shoe lift. However the imbalance made a curve on my spine which gave me a tumour. The tumour was on my spine and screwed my nerves for over a year and I lost a lot of muscel on my legs. Around age 15 the tumour disappeard and they tried fixing my spine by straightening it and putting a metal rode across from top to down my hips. and I was walking with a cane, slowly and painfully. I watched my body just slowly become less and less..and watched my friends being able to run around and play and know I could never do that. At age 17, I found out that the metal in my back and my leg were broken and I had to get into surgery again. The surgery put me in bed without even arm movement for a like 3 months. Then I ended up in a wheel chair and a cane again. I can't bend my back..I can't walk for longer than 10 minutes..and I walk very very slow. I have a shorter leg and a screwed up body. I have dreams that died out. all at age 19..
I see 60 year old more capable then me. I see 4 year old walk faster then me.
but I still believe in God.
Deeply.
I know he's watching over me.
and I know there's a purpose to this.
and so, I don't regret and wouldn't change anything.
2007-07-27 01:26:13
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answered by Anonymous
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I only complain of my grief and sorrow to Allah, and I know [from Allah] what you do not know.
Holy Quran
Reflection is shared by both the elite and the common folk. If sorrow were to be veiled from the hearts of the gnostics for an hour, they would have to seek help; but if it were to be placed in the hearts of others, they would dislike it. Sorrow is first, while second comes security and good news. Reflection comes second, following the establishment of one's belief in and utter need of God by one's seeking rescue with Him. The sorrowful person reflects, and he who reflects takes note. Each of them has a state, a science, a path, forbearance and honour.
2007-07-27 11:06:56
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answered by MUHAMMAD 5
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When you come to understand who endures and why they endure you will know how God teaches
2007-07-27 07:42:26
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answer #3
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answered by James 5
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By letting go of fear.
Well, you've seen this one before :-)
I will not fear
Fear is the mindkiller,
Fear is the little death
That brings total Oblivion
I will permit my fear to pass
Over me and through me
And where it has gone
I will turn the inner eye
Nothing will be there
Only I will remain.
Fear of the darkness is what makes us blind. It is in the darkest of times that we are strengthened. Walking through darkness teaches us how to see the light.
There is great strength in admitting that you are weak during the dark times. That is the first step to "finding the light."
2007-07-27 07:32:04
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answered by Emperor Insania Says Bye! 5
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There have been times that I thought "Father God, you said you would not let me endure more than I can stand." Then I turn to him for my strength. I sometimes have to say "Father I give this to you", and I let him handle it. And it truly doesn't seem that bad after all.
2007-07-27 07:43:31
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answered by Pamela V 7
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endurance is a case to case basis. trials are given to us depending on the strenght that God has entrusted on our shoulders.
2007-07-27 07:30:29
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answered by ericka 5
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God does not give more than we can endure but we have to obey him and follow him. everyday.
2007-07-27 07:30:04
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answered by Penny Mae 7
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I don't know how I did it for 30 years before Christ came and saved my wretched soul.......
Self-reliance can only take you so far before you realize the absolute need for the Savior
2007-07-27 07:29:43
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answered by primoa1970 7
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I think it depends on how much faith you have. God bless!
2007-07-27 07:36:49
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answered by gabeymac♥ 5
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