Life is so hard especially when you feel that you have no worth in this world. It’s hard when you have no love, no family, no friends and no career to lean back on. The simplest challenges turn into some of life’s hardest obstacle. It may not seem that way for most but to some, it is the worst.
I see my life as worthless, I may have a family but the way I feel amongst my family only makes me feel more worthless. I may have friends but none that I can share my true feelings, true feelings that show how desperate I am. Many of the people closest to me think that I am happy and that I have a comfortable life and a loving family. They never get to see the real me, behind the mask, behind the smile. They don’t see the tears falling down my cheeks.
One thing that may make me feel happy would be to have a love, a person whom I would love and would love me in return. But alas, I’m not that lucky. I don’t have anyone beside me holding my hand, wiping the tears off my face.
2007-07-22
07:08:03
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I have been thinking of suicide since I was about ten years old. Imagine a kid thinking that it would be best for all if she were no longer alive. It would be best for the family. There would be no more conflicts. No more hurt. And, no more tears. But up to now, I haven’t even tried to commit suicide. This even makes me more depressed. I have no power to live yet I have no power to kill myself either. I am such a weakling, that I can take it anymore. Each night I pray that someone may take me away, away for eternity. I pray, no, I beg to anyone who listens to my cries at night for them to take me. Please make my suffering end.
One of the things that make me this depressed is that my brain associates the littlest and simplest detail with other little details that build up so many memories in my head. All I remember are the bad things that has happened to me and how this things make me feel so unloved and so unlucky in this world.
2007-07-22
07:14:48 ·
update #1
When I do try to remember something good, I will always something bad underlying it. It was as if when God showered the world with love and luck I was underneath a rock and never got any of it. Instead I got all the bad luck and hate left behind. This has also prompted me to lose my faith, I believe that a real God wouldn’t let this things happen. I don’t believe that these are tests, not everyone goes through these tests and I thought God was fair.
I have a family yet I am an orphan. I am friendly yet I have no friends. I value love most of all but I have never felt love. I am me yet I am not. There are people around me yet I am alone.
2007-07-22
07:15:32 ·
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I love you!
You are not alone, many people are lonely such as this one.
My advice? Do your part to reach out to people, yet always with this caveat-other people are suffering and lonely too, so if people shy away from you, be empathetic in understanding that many people are in pain and emptiness.
If yo can, try to position yourself in the place of helping others. Many times, a feeling of personal worth can be accomplished by our efforts to build one another up.
By all means though, you should probably stay away or aware of the negative nature of the R+S category of Y!A answers.
Good luck with your friend.
Also, maybe your friend would do well to visit a doctor to see if this (apparently) clinical depression is not merely a chemical imbalance in the brain. I know that those darn drugs they prescribe make us tired, but at least we do not want to kill ourselves.
I have been living successfully after my diagnosis of clinical depression for more than 10 years.
Hate the drugs, but I have found a modicum of worth in that I always get up every work day and go to work.
I also was suicidal many times, I really had clear and simple plans to make sure I did not fail. But for some reason, I realized, that it wasn't fair to do that to myself and my so-called family. They would just continue living, and I would be dead. No real justice there.
If you are for real, please reach out for help. I would hate to lose you as a participant on this forum. If you are for real, you have been the most open and honest of anyone I have ever seen. This alone makes you precious and valuable. At least to me,
Please stay with us?
2007-07-22 07:13:21
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answered by Tim 47 7
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All I can say is he/she must try to find something that makes them happy. Get out of the house. Volunteer at a school or a shelter.
See a doctor soon. Meds help a little with depression. Not a lot but they take the edge off a little.
Know that you are not alone. Depression is a physiological condition.
I would like to hug you and tell you I understand. In a few minutes I am off to the swimming pool. It is actually sunny today in Texas. It is about time too. Swimming makes me feel better.
Take care.
Sharon
2007-07-22 14:18:41
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answered by Anonymous
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first off God does not make anyone to be worthless. you have a beautiful soul inside you. what you need to do is put a smile on your face. not a grin but a smile. you need to get out of your house and find a job even if it is only a part time job working at a fast food place. you need to meet people and talk to them. not about you but about the world. listen to waht peoplel are saying. read the paper, read the news on-line.go to church where you can meet people. don't look for that special someone, believe me when I say that person will find you when the time is right. right now just look for friends and companions. those people that you say are close to you see if they know places where you can meet decent people. your worth in this world is what you put into it. what you give it will come back to you many times over. GOD BLESS you and keep you in the PALM of HID HANDS.
2007-07-22 14:22:13
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answered by Anonymous
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There is a way out. Just start serving others in whatever way you can. It may take some time but that love will eventually make its way back to you.
Be proactive. Get busy.
2007-07-22 14:14:54
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answered by Anonymous
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" So do all who live to see such times, but that is not for them to decide. All you have to decide is what to do with the time that is given you. " The first honest answer I came up with was this one. I know it comes from a movie, but it makes sense.
2007-07-22 14:25:59
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answered by ? 4
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Only you can change your life. I'm assuming you are young, so think not of the now, but of the future. Fix reason firmly in her seat, and let logic be your guide (borrowed that from Thomas Jefferson).
2007-07-22 14:15:35
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answered by Brent Y 6
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My advice would be: Life is what you make of it and what you profess it to be. If you declare that you have no love, family, friends or career then that is the way it is.
Rather than live this way, why not declare yourself loved? Why not decide to show your family love and let them love you back? You have chosen this path, it did not choose you.
2007-07-22 14:15:08
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answered by arewethereyet 7
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I guess we all in sometime can feel "down"(even those that seems to answer you with an easy sentence, like life is that easy)...faith in Jesus can helps, He can comfort and understand our deepest thoughts, sorrows, pain and frustrations and He can also get us back our Hope...you can help this person starting to pray for him/her and listen....because God also brought us here to help each other....have a nice day!
2007-07-22 14:18:51
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answered by Rute A 3
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Start by taking the mask off.
2007-07-22 14:13:25
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answered by Gaymes Last Orchestra 6
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Get a good cognitive behavior therapist. Believe me, you *cannot* fix this by yourself. (I've been where you are. I was there for a while. Therapy helps like you cannot believe)
2007-07-22 14:18:05
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answered by LX V 6
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